what now? i dont let go, i don't have the guts to let go of them, Jack is sat over in the corner also looking like....should i leave? should i stay? would it be rude to leave? but i know i don't want to let go of my mates, they are both whispering sweet things into my ear, comforting me.

i finally find the courage to pull back when i start to hurt, "you okay?" Aidan asks and i nod.

"i'm a really emotional person, aren't i?" i laugh lightly which they smile at.

"we love you for it!" Nathan says softly, they sound like they don't want to hurt me with even their voices.

i look down, at my hands, "just-" i say quietly, "don't look at me differnt!" i say, i really don't want them to treat me different because of this... yeah i know they were always caring and fussing over me and loving, but they didn't mind telling me when they wanted something or if i did something they'd tell me if i did something and not.... oh it's okay.

with that said they both help me lay back down and they cuddle up to me, like, not to tightly, but they hug me and it feels so nice to be hugged properly by my mates, "we'er sorry, my love!" Aidan whispers with his head on my shoulder.

"we didn't realise, little red!" Nathan adds and i let out a breath. i don't blame them... with how they found me it must have been terrible to see me like that, they were both crying it was that bad. they'd be insane not to treat me like i'm delicate when everytime i move my bottom half it hurts... i just want to go back to normal, i want my pups, i want to play with them in the garden on a sunny day, i want to drink fizzy pop and throw junk food at Aidan for making a bad joke while laughing at funny stories from my parent's childhoods... i don't want to be stuck in this room, i want to go back to my own room.. cuddle up with my mates, shift into my fox and run around like a fucking crazy, hyperactive child with two gianormous wolves.

the door opens slowly and the person i least expected to walk in, walks in. Alpha Kaden and Luke and another guy who looks to be his older brother who looks kind of dark, "Hay, people!" he says joyfully and oh my god..... he sounds so joyful....

"um, hello?" i question and he smiles.

"yeah, we came to tell you that we are close to catching them bastards!" Luke grumbles like he is genually pissed at them.... they got away?

i take a deep breath, what if they come back and try to get my pups or hurt my family again, i don't want to go back there!

Aidan and Nathans hold on my hands tightens, "we spotted them close to the border an hour ago, we have many, many wolves from yours and ours and our allies allies patrolling to keep them out!" the older brother says.

"we have also sent word to any fox shifters or relatives to fox shifter to rather come to our packs or stay hidden for safety!" Alpha Kaden explains while he sits down on a chair, Lukes brother on the other and Luke leans up against the wall, "you are a very protected person right now, Raden, and if your species listen the rest will be safe too!" he explains.

"the others who we found are getting the proper treatement they need!" Luke adds and his brother put his feet up on the bed.....getting comfortable there dude? Luke kicks his legs off of the bed and glares at him, "Raden, meet my brother, Josh!"

Josh jumps up and smile widely, holding his hand out, "Hi there, Raden, looking well there!" he says and i go to shake his hand reluctantly but Nathan beets me to it, Josh shaking his hand roughly, a grumpy look on Nathan's face, looking like he's done this before, "what have you been up to other then sat in the hospital bed?" he asks, still shaking Nathans hand hyperactivly, he looks like he's dying to just run around in circles.

Kaden growls at him and his smile drops quickly as he stops shaking Nathan's hand and plops down on the chair....don't be like that, he's just being himself, i give him a smile, "therepist came today to talk, i think it went pretty good!" i say politely and he smiles, looking like the drop of kindness i gave him to help him feel a bit better about himself really made him feel good about himself...i accept you, i'm a strange being too, i got you. "but other then that it's boring apart from the fact i have my mates with me and the shredding pain i go through every time i move!" i say the last part a bit cockily and he laughs.

"ah, i get that, i wouldn't be able to sit in a bed for a long time, never mind the same room, i've got to move around, you know?" he says quickly and i nod.

"yeah, it's alright, i get to sleep all i want!" i say giving a toothy smile and he smiles.

"ah, the perks are good i see, well my sleep scedual is a range from four in the morning to two in the afternood!" he says lightly and i shake my head.

"i couldn't do that, i got to get up or a group of pups would come charging into the room to wake us all up!" i laugh and the rest laugh too.

"ah, you love em really, i don't think theres a fox that egsisted that doesn't love their pups, especially the male!" he laughs and i agree.

"deffinatly!" i say simply, "i think that's one of the worst thing with being in here, i don't get to see the pups whenever i want!" i say distantly and he nods.

"yeah, bet they miss their mother!" he says softly and i smile, "but they have a big family to play with when they can't play with their mum so i bet they will be happy enough to wait!" he smiles, looking kinder and less like a hyperactive person and more of a joyful person... it's clear that people treat him bad for being hyperactive when he's just got a lot of energy that he wants to express through, he's on a leash too it seems.

"well, there gonna have to wait!" i laugh and the pain picks up again, i look up to the clock and see i've still got half an hour for my next tablets.

"ah, boring you already huh?" he laughs but it's clear that my look to the clock made him feel like i was impatiently waiting for him to leave.

"no, pain meds are wearing off!" i smile, "i'm waiting for my next dose so i'm high enough to not be in so much pain!" i laugh and he does too.

he huffs, "yeah, i don't know what happened, i'm not allowed to know but it seems painful!" he says and i nod.

"very!" i say with a light laugh.

"well, you've got twenni five minutes till your next set!" Nathan says lightly and i sigh.

"so, in other words, suck it up, butter cup!" Josh says and i laugh along with him. "hay, is there a vending machine anywhere?" he asks, pulling some coins out of his poket and i look up to the twins.

they both sigh, "left down the corridor!" Aidan says.

"you'll see it!" Nathan adds, i smile to him and he goes to walk out.

"Luke, go with him so he doesn't do anything!" Kaden says and Josh stops with his hand on the door, looking like he just got punched in the gut, he lets out a long breath.

"Why do i have to go? i'm the one who's supposed to be bonding with these three!" he says, like he really doesn't want to go with his brother while Josh waits looking more caged in then anything.

i look up at the clock and see i still have twenni minutes, "i haven't had my excersise today, i'll go!" i say and they all stop arguing and look to me, Josh looks just as surprised.

"oh, no i'll go, it's fi-"

"no, i want to go, i can get something too!" i say, beginning to move, Aidan and Nathan seem like they are unsure of what to do. i stand up carefully while the twins get up and hold me carefully, they pass me my crutches and i take them, holding myself up.

"do you want us to come?" they ask...what is so bad about this guy that these lot are ASKING wether they want me to acompany them, if i wasn't going with him, they wouldn't think twice about following.... how rude.

"no, i'm fine, i'm sure Josh will be able to drag me back if something happens!" i smile politely and slowly go to the door.

Josh looks at me, "wait, your serious?" he asks and i raise a brow.

"no, i got out of bed to take the piss!" i say sarcastically and he lets out a breath, he takes a moment before quickly opening the door for me, i shake my head and smile, "thanks!" i say and go out, leaving them all to feel ashamed of the way they reacted to Josh.

we take a very slow walk which i concentrate on keeping my balance, "yeah, just be ready to catch me if i fall!" i laugh and he does to.

"yeah, sorry about this, i should have just stayed in the room like i was told!" he says distantly and i scoff.

"wheres the fun in that? the more i walk, the quicker i heal, i'm just not allowed to push myself too far or it could do more bad then good!" i explain and he laughs, smiling, his smile slowly flattens out.

"you know, they took the Alpha position away from me because of how hyperactive i am!" he says slowly and i look up to him.

"that's not fair!" i say to him and he laughs.

"tell me about it, it's my brothers ultimate consiquense if he does a bad job, he thinks it would be shameful for it to be given back to me!" he says and i stop and tap him on the shoulder comfortably, "but, everything has it's perks, it means i don't have to sit in a room with loads of paper work and i'm always the first to be shouted if theres a fight, i have so much energy that i could and have taken on many wolves at one time and came out with only a small pant!" he laughs, finding light in it.

"i think it's nice you look at the good side of things despite how bad it may seem!" i say and he nods, "it's wrong for them to treat you badly for being yourself, the way they all acted in the room was not okay and to be honest-" i look to him, "i hope they all feel ashamed, i'm the weakest, mose delacate person in that room and i got up when i was supposed to be on bed rest and walked out, smiling right in their shocked faces!" i say with pride, "actions speak louder then words!" i say with even more pride then before.

"your too kind for this world!" he says looking down.

"yeah, try being the only fox shifter in the school, never mind being male and mates with Alpha male twins and pregnant with nine pups!" i say and he chuckles, "but i love them all, every one of them and i've said it and will say it many times, i wouldn't be able to live without those twins!" i say with a smile.

"i wish i had a mate!" he says with a smile, "but i don't think they would be able to cope with me-" his voice cracks and i slap his arm.

"i'm a fucking emotional and over dramatic bitch that freaks out of the tiniest little pieces of crap known to man kind!" i snap, "i have sat there and cried for hours while the twins have sat there with me, when i push them away, the get closer and hold me tighter, they ran out of the middle of their fucking exam becos i rush out to the toilet ill-" he looks away, "i'm a weak little fox who wears boots too big for them, i can't finish my own fucking fights because when i get pissed i don't care who it is if i feel threatened, even if i know there way above my level i still fight and i hate the fact that they pick up all of the shit, but they are still here!" i say, looking him dead in the eye, "my first thoughts to them being my mates was there rather going to eat me or make me there pet or reject me for being a fox and they didn't!" i say to him and he goes slightly pale, "you are bubbly and joyful and you spark a room to life, but you are kept on that fucking leash by your family and the close minded people who think your annoying-" I'M PREACHING "and if your mate rejects you for being yourself then- pfft, i'm sorry but they don't deserve you, but i don't think they will, if Aidan and Nathan haven't rejected me for their mate then whoever gets paired with you deffinatly wont reject you, even if it takes them a while to accept you, they will accept your goofy personality eventually!" i smile and he seems to be really relaxed.

we get back and when we walk in they are all talking, in the middle of a conversation about something. Aidan and Nathan get up and help me back into bed while i begin to eat a big packet of crisps that i got from a minni shop...... to say this is just an infermery under the pack house, they really made it seem like a normal hospital.

Aidan nicks a crisp from me and puts it in his mouth, i lean up and bite the other end of it, cutting it in half and he wines, i kiss him and lean back down, i hold the bag to Nathan and he takes one, moving away from me and eating it, i pout at him and just begin laughing.

they all begin talking......inclluding Josh, i am fabulous sometimes, he looks over to me and gives me a greatful smile, i stick my tongue out at him and he laughs lightly before returning his focus to the conversation he's been included in.