"mane you aint neva listen to one of my songs yet" kentrell told me for the thousandth time.

"I told you I would listen to it on my own time. I just be busy tryna get myself back together for school." I told him.

"well we got time today cause we aint doing shit. now pick what kind" he said. i blew my breath.

"out of what kinds" i asked.

"I got violent music, love music, and depressed shit" he spoke scrolling through his songs on the smartTV.

"hmm love." I said finally choosing. He played a song called "You the One". He was staring at me while the song came on, I guess to see my reaction.

"you the one that I want in my life,

you the one that I want every night,

you the one that i want by my side,

promise for you i'll ride

i need you to be there fa me

i'm so deep up in these streets

i stay clutching on my heat

i know these niggas want kill me" the tv played. I actually was liking the song so far.

"okay I like it so far, it's real cute" I said to him and he started smiling. The sun was out and the windows were open so his diamond teeth were glistening.

"heard they moving in and they armed, when they come just set of the alarm, on my soul ian going" kentrell sung along with himself on the tv. he started getting hype and throwing up gang signs and all.

"told my girl that i need you baby, thinking bout you lately, i been going crazy. when you leave outta school come and pull up on me i just wanna taste it." he sung while making eye contact with me and smirking. I could feel my cheeks heating.

not him making me nervous. this shit gottta stop. I started acting like I was fixing my hair but then kentrell started walking over to me.

"i'm okay when i'm under you baby, i just wanna lay under you baby" he grabbed my chin and sung lowly in my ear. whew girl i got chills through my whole body.

I was way into it in the moment. I grabbed kentrells face and kissed him passionately on the lips. he was hesitant to kiss back but he did after a second or two. we were kissing for about 30 seconds, but then he pulled away.

"why you stop" i said while frowning a little.

" I thought we was taking things slowly." he said in a soft voice. It was sorta embarrassing to me, but I didn't think that he would take it into too much consideration being that he been tryna rush it.

"you right.. i'm sorry" i wiped my mouth and started to get myself together. I even fixed the side of the bed I was laying on.

"I'm gonna go home and change and stuff" I said grabbing my purse off the night stand.

"why you le-" he spoke but before he could finish I was already out the door.

I honestly was embarrassed. I'm the one who said we should take it slow but I also was the one tryna kiss all up on him. If embarrassed was a person🌚. I ran down the hall and knocked on the room door Maj was in.

"Maj comeo-" I said walking in the room seeing her and Joe wrapped up in the covers together. I just left out the room. I'll come back for her later.

I went downstairs to the room Reine was in.

"Reine you re-" she was also sleep wrapped up in Ben's arms. Guess I'll just have to come back for both of them.

"Ranada don't leav-" I heard Kentrell coming down the stairs saying. So, I quickly opened the door and hopped in my car. I pulled off almost immediately. I was far too embarrassed to stay. Once I get myself together, I'll come back but as of right now I just need to go home and relax myself.

I drove to my house. After getting out the car, I pulled out my keys and unlocked the door. I placed my phone on DND then put it down on the sofa before going upstairs.

When I got upstairs, I ran some warm bath water with rose petals and lit some scented candles. They were vanilla and brown sugar candles. Those were my fav. I loved how sweet and warm it smelled.

I set up my alexa device to play R&B old school songs. The first thing that came on was "Soon as I get Home" by Faith Evans.

I stripped out my clothes and sat in my nice foamy bath instantly feeling relaxed.. My mind drowned out all negative thoughts and I started to sing.

now I know you all are thinking " she doing too much" but I hateeee being embarrassed especially about things like that. I know its not healthy to walk out on your problems but eventually I will tell him. Just not now.

My music continued to play and I continued to sing. I kept thinking of Kentrell though.. but I was trying my best to keep him off my mind.

Was I wrong ????

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