"5 MONTHS?" there was no way I was waiting 5 months when I had already been stuck inside for 3. "y/n you have to understand its what's best!" Nat tried to convince me, I was in pain, pain they couldn't understand. I couldn't walk or even stand, so I sat there as tony paced around the room and Nat stood there staring at me. " one, If we rush the process you could end up unable to move, two I'm doing what's best for you, three, you should be thanking me" tony tried to explain. "No tony I wont do that! Sorry if your ego is bruised but you cant always play hero!" he looked down "if you die the only one to blame is you so trust the process" he warned "fine whatever I'll 'trust the process'" I said in a mocking tone as I glared at him "good" is all he said before leaving. "y/n what the he-" Nat began "Nat just be quiet, I have head ache" I almost begged "no! I wont because all we are trying to do is help and clearly you are ungrateful!"

"you ungrateful brat!" I look up to see my dad "I'm sorry! I didn't mean it!" I turned around to see little me on the ground begging my dad to stop, I had smashed a vase is anger and my dad was angry, so angry "we give you everything you want and you still are so ungrateful!" "I'm sorry!" I sobbed "sorry doesn't cut it!" a man yelled I turned around to see and the head of my hydra department standing above a version of me that wasn't much younger than I am now, he was holding a special gun that is built to hurt me by targeting my powers, he shot me with the gun "AHHHH" I screamed in pain as the rays hit me "its what you deserve" I look around only to see my dad walking over and grabbing 5 year old me by my shirt collar "dad please!" I screamed kicking and wiggling trying to break free, he dragged me over to the stairs and threw me down, there was only eight steps but it hurt so much "ow,ow,ow,ow,ow" "I know it hurts but you need to stay still" I turned again to see it was Bruce standing over the version of me on the day I was saved, I shot up in bed to Nat shaking me

"y/n! are you ok?" she was concerned "what happened?" I was super confused "we were talking then you stopped responding, I called tony but he never came" she looked a little mad "I'm ok" I groaned "I'm gonna find him! and when I do I swear-" she was cut off by tony entering the room, annoyed "what is so urgent you had to pull me out of my-" Nat cut him off "I thought something was wrong! she was talking one minute and then the next she was- it looked like she was in a trance" he walked over and shined a light in my eyes "she's fine" he said leaving "tony wait!" I called out hoping he would hear me out "what?" he stared into my eyes "I'm sorry, I was a huge jerk" "yeah I know" he raised an eye brow, I looked down and picked at my skin with my fingers I was really sorry and my eyes started to sting tears threatening to spill I was a terrible friend and I was in pain, I couldn't stop myself from saying those things "I didn't mean to say those mean things" I realized my hand was bleeding so I covered my hand with the other one "then why did you?" I could feel his glare "I don't know" I let a few tears slip.