If I tried to use words to describe what the last couple of days meant to me, I would be doing injustice to every bit of emotion I felt.

I would never forget these past days, watching my beautiful mate hot, sweaty and writhing in her sheets, beckoning me with everything she had to take her ache away. My brain was in a haze the entire time I could only see Moon, in all her beautiful glory, looking so much more edible while I stood aside, trying to stop myself from doing something irreversible. I knew that once I marked her, there was no going back. No force in the world would stop me from claiming her, keeping her by my side, and if I thought irrationally, I would do the same thing I feared I would do.

But my Celeste was looking so damn beautiful, the scent in the air was driving me crazy, and my wolf was tearing my mind apart.

There was no way I wouldn't succumb to that.

I tried my best to think of everything, her other mate, everything that would stop me from succumbing to the heat, but I was fighting a losing battle.

And then she called out my name, and I was ready to devour her.

My mate. She was all mine. No other man would keep her away from me, she would always be connected to me, she would always love me, and she would always be mine and only mine.

Her other mate – no matter how hard he tried, he would never be able to give her what I can; he would never be able to beat what Moon and I have with each other.

I had lost all my reasons and powers that day when I surrendered to my Queen, and she was just as much lost it me. It was empowering, the love she had for me, the things she whispered in the throes of passion, the way our souls connected amidst it all and the pleasure written on her face.

I had never felt this way before.

Now that I was lying on the bed with her in my arms; her heat had faded away but the emotions between both of us remained the same. Some doubts and fears crept up in her mind now and then once her mind started to clear out a little, but I dissolved them all by distracting her with our lovemaking skills.

We had the best time ever, and I was not ready to let go of her in any way. I didn't want anything to come between us, no doubts, no fears, and no thoughts of other men and women. Our bond was in a vulnerable position as it is, I didn't want anything to ruin it. She had another mate, the bloody vampire, and that was enough for me to never want her to leave the bedroom.

A foreboding sense of doom took over my mind all of a sudden and I heard a knock on the door next. The entire kingdom knew how their Alpha and Luna had spent the past few days and that is why I knew no one would interrupt without having a good reason for interrupting.

And it wasn't very hard to guess that it was not a good thing.

"The Pack Healer has requested your presence, Your Majesty." The guard said, anxiety written all over his face.

"For what purpose?" I asked.

I didn't even hear what he said next, he was babbling something but my mind was completely focused on the image he unknowingly projected to me.

Of Delia writhing in pain, crying.

I didn't think twice before leaving for the hospital, not even stopping to put on a shirt. I could only think about Delia and the thought of losing her just because of something that was not in my control.

And the pup.

The pup deserved to see the world. The pup deserved the world.

I wished I could take the pain way, I wished it would have been in my control, I knew the happening of the past few days were going to change my entire life, but I...

This was not the way I wanted it to be.

Delia had tears streaking down her eyes when I reached her, and she was bleeding from between her legs. It was very clear what was happening, and I just wanted to sit and cry for a moment, take in everything that was happening all of a sudden.

Mercy was standing right next to her, holding her hand and trying to help her, calm her down, but it was to no avail.

Delia still was in deep pain, she was not able to cure her.

"What is happening, Mercy? Why is she still in pain?" I asked, to which Mercy shook her head slightly.

"In such situations, the females need their mates with them because only they are able to provide some calm and energy. We thought maybe you could help, but..."

Things would have been so easy if I had been her mate, wouldn't they? This situation would have not come at all, and a lot of problems on my plate would have simply vanished.

Moon, my Celeste, my Queen, was worth facing all the problems, was worth all the burdens and all the pains. Not even a single moment did I ever wish that she wasn't my mate. I just knew that neither Delia, nor the baby deserved to be in so much pain. No one deserved to be in the situation we were in.

Even Moon didn't deserve to be in this position, being left like that just after her very first heat.

I knew she must be very pissed with me.

I just hoped that she understood, if even a little, what we all were going through.

I took in a deep breath, sitting in one corner of the room with my head in my hands, thinking about how I was of no help to my own wife, and how my life was going to go downhill from here.

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"Alpha, Luna Celeste is on territory borders."

"What?"

"She must be walking out of the territory as we speak. We wanted to inform you."

My heart sank. Why was she leaving? She could have told me, Jaxon or Liana if she wanted to leave, we could have taken her safely to wherever she wanted to go.

I tried to reach out to her through our bond, but there was nothing I could feel. Even if she blocked me out, I knew I would be able to feel her emotions from anywhere, but it was not happening.

And then I was suddenly very scared for her.

How could I not ensure that she remained safe? I should have locked her in the room again. She had shifted a few days prior and then went through the exhausting process of marking – she was in a very vulnerable state at the moment and just as much alone out there.

"Why didn't you stop her?" I knew the answer to the question but I couldn't help asking. I wanted to blame someone else, I wanted to be angry with someone, but I knew that I was the only one to blame at this time.

"She used her Luna Orders, Alpha. The guards were bound and could not do anything."

The overwhelming urge to break something came to me, but I had no energy to be violent at the moment. I called Liana to meet me and she agreed, which led to us meeting outside the hospital in the next few minutes.

"What's wrong?" She asked the moment she looked at my face.

"Delia is going through a miscarriage and Moon just went away."

"Went away? Where did she go just like that? Did she go alone? How did you let he go like that? Why didn't anyone stop her?"

I was just feeling more and more worse now.

"I don't know, all I know is that she left the territory. She is alone, Liana, I was so caught up with Delia that I didn't realize that I left her unsupervised. She was using her Luna Orders so no one could stop her."

She ran her hand over her face, her face turning red and rage filling her head.

"How could she be stupid, Adrian? Does she know the kind of danger she's putting herself into? The last time I was alone and outside the Werewolf kingdom..." She gulped, horror filling up her face as she remembered everything that happened to her.

With her, I started to panic as well, searching for her mind, any trace of wherever she could be.

"Maybe she will be safe," she murmured, "She has a mate there right? Her other mate is a vampire, isn't he? Nothing will happen to her. She'll be fine. She won't be hurt." She kept on murmuring, sending my heart into an overdrive.

It made me realize how I drove my mate right into the arms of another man.

My body started burning.

Her mark burned on my skin.

She was with him.

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"Adrian?" Small hands shook me, "Adrian? Wake up?"

Was I dreaming all this time? I hoped that I had been dreaming all this time.

My eyes slowly opened and I could see the open sky in front of me. I looked around to find trees surrounding me and a worried Liana looking at me with her brows furrowed deeply.

So, I was not dreaming after all. Delia was really having a miscarriage and Moon really did leave me.

And now, she was with that Vampire.

"You okay, Adrian? You just fainted out of nowhere and it worried me so much." She murmured, helping me sit up.

"I'm fine." I gulped.

"Tell me, Adrian," She insisted, crawling closer to me, "You wouldn't faint like that for no reason. Something must be wrong. Is it about, Moon?" She paused, "I even called Jaxon to help me here. You were out for ten minutes straight."

"I'm fine, Liana. It's just that..."

"Is Moon alright?" She cut me off straight away.

"Yes, she is fine. She is with her other mate."

Liana's face fell. And we both fell silent for a while.

I was fairly confident that her other mate was no match to what we had. And also, very instinctively, Moon's wolf and PureBlood would want to choose the one who could provide for her better – and that was very obviously me. I was confident and cocky about a lot of things – even if he was the best man in the world and cared for her and bonded with her the way she would want him too, she would never forget, never be able to let go of me.

That didn't mean that I wasn't afraid to lose her. I loved her so much and always I would want her by my side. In no way, would I want her to be in the arms of another man because I couldn't keep her happy the way she deserved to be.

Liana kept her hand on my shoulder and tried to comfort me.

She gave me a small smile, "Well, what's meant to happen will happen. I can feel you two are meant to end up together and you will. There are probably some things she needs to deal with before she can finally, completely reunite with you."

"I don't know what to do Liana. Should I go there and talk to her, get her back, bed her for forgiveness. I'm ready to do anything at this point. It's not even been a full week since I marked her and now even the thought of her choosing him over me, it's making me..."

It was making my blood boil. My chest was aching – she took my entire heart with herself to the Vampire Kingdom. She didn't even stop to talk to me, to tell me that she was leaving; one proper conversation, where she conveyed to me her full and final decision.

Why were my emotions not being considered at all? She wanted to leave, well, I might have stopped her. But if she had just communicated and assured me that she would safe, I would have let her do whatever she wanted to do. I was just as unhappy with the situation as she was – I was ready to take full responsibility and make her happy with all I had.

But she couldn't even wait for a moment, or at least send me a message through the mind-link.

Nothing at all.

"I feel you are very upset, Adrian." She looked upset herself. Even she was not very happy with her friends decision of going to the enemy kingdom without even informing anyone. "I don't like this, too. She has kept her mind-link blocked and no one is able to reach her. But please, get yourself together, Adrian. This is not going to bring her back." She said.

"I fucking marked her, Liana." I tried not to let out the anger in my voice, "She's my mate, mine, I love her, I have always wanted the best for her and I think I fucking deserve to know if she has decided to go to another man right after having sex with me for so many days straight. I'm just as hurt, Liana, and no one seems to give a shit about that." I stood up and Liana followed suit, "Instead of communicating and talking to me like a normal, mature person would, she always fucking runs away without letting me know what's really going in her mind."

"Adrian, calm down." Liana whispered.

"What's wrong? Adrian, are you alright? I heard about Delia." Jaxon jumped in between Liana and me, his large arm on my shoulder providing comfort.

"I'm not fine, Jaxon. How would anyone be fine in such a situation?" I gave him a look.

"Well, sorry for asking," his ears turned red, "But what are you doing here? Why aren't you inside with Delia?"

Liana pulled Jaxon towards her. "Moon left."

"Where?" He looked at her dumbfounded, to which Liana replied with their mind-link, "I...why?" He looked at me, "Everything was fine, right? You had been banging the fuck out of each other since the last few days. You marked each other, too. What is happening?"

"I don't know what happened. She just left." I said, extremely furious now, "I should focus on Delia right now. She's alone and she needs me by her side." I gritted my teeth, "Moon can do whatever the fuck she wants to."

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I missed her – I terribly missed her. So much that it was aching everywhere. My mark was burning whenever she was touched even a little and I sat through it all, trying to get used to it.

I finally realized that I was meant to live through a life of suffering. Just for some fun, the Moon Goddess dangled my mate in front of me and then took her away as well.

My only hope in this world was that little pup that had been growing inside Delia. But now even he had left me behind all alone.

It was a boy. The little baby was a boy.

I tried my best to focus on Delia, to be present and attentive and cater to her needs. She was devastated – I had never seen Delia look so vulnerable. She was always brave no matter what life threw at her, and looking at her like that made me feel guilty.

She was not even looking at me or speaking to me. All the communication was through Mercy or someone else.

I felt like shit and it was so maddening to be blamed for something that was really not in my control. The miscarriage confirmed that the baby was mine, and it was heartbreaking for me to know that my baby suffered because of the circumstances I had put myself in.

An innocent baby suffered for the mistakes of his father.

I couldn't even bring myself to look at him when we had to bury him and perform his last rites. I had held him for a while but I was so numb with everything that was happening around me that I couldn't understand how I was supposed to feel with him in my arms.

I wanted to hold him for a little longer, but Delia took that little baby away from me before I could even say goodbye.

At this point, I couldn't feel anything except the burn of my mark and the contempt of my wolf. That animal hated me for not hunting her down when I realized that she had gone away and letting her be with another man when her wolf was marked as ours.

I just wanted to go back to my room, sleep in the bed filled with Moon's scent and calm down the animal roaring inside of me. But I couldn't leave Delia alone – even though she was acting cold and indifferent towards me, I knew that she needed someone by her side. At this moment, it was very disorienting for me to know that she truly had no one but me, and if I had left her, she would literally have nowhere to go.

It just made me feel worse about myself and about my people, how ready we were to discard the woman who had taken care of the empire for years.

If anyone was thinking that I would leave her now that the baby died, they were wrong. Delia needed me now more than ever, and since Moon chose to walk out on our relationship, there was no need for me to choose among anyone or come to a concrete decision.

My wolf protested, and I knew everyone would come out and call me stupid for not leaving Delia now that I had the chance to.

But I was not leaving her alone, and that was final.