Your chest felt sore as you saw Jin's new post... you saw that he actually did moved on. You always helped him whenever he asked for it, you were always laughing at his corny dad jokes, even was able to handle his scolding. But why didn't feel the same as you? Were you not cute enough... was your cooking bad... too clingy? You looked at his post as he kissed his partner... you thought you were a bit late. Until you saw the bio... "07/13/17." You wanted to cry your heart out but it all went numb... no wonder he treated you that way... he just didn't want you to feel bad.

You chuckled at yoongi's post... he posted a small video of him playing the guitar. The song sounded sweet until you realized he played the song to you when he first made it. You were about to be angry but you realized he made the song for them... he just wanted you to judge it. His bio made your heart clench, "05/18/20." They had been dating over a year and he made a song to show them his love. You felt dumb thinking he would make you a song when he never even liked you...

Did you want to scream? Yes! Did you want to go punch someone?! Oh absolutely yes!! He was dating your friend... the friend who knew you loved Hoseok with all your chest! Were they even a friend if they went and dated him... after all that you did for them! His bio also shocked you, "11/04/18." They were dating for years... but kept it hidden. They sat there listening to you confess your love for Hoseok when they were dating the entire time. You felt used... why couldn't they tell you instead of selling a false dream?!?

Of course the nature king himself took his partner to a beautiful field to watch the sunset. It made you remember when we used to walk through countless amount of parks, he would always ask you which one was perfect. You thought he would confess to you so you picked your favorite meadow... just to get pushed aside for his new partner. "04/23/16" was his bio... they were a hidden treasure while you were nothing. They weren't just dating... but married... he only saw you as a sister while you blindly saw more!

He took them home after a tiring date; You remembered when our "dates" were tiring but you never got carried. He would tell you to stop complaining and race you to the car while they got piggyback rides and cuddles. His bio "08/12/19" they were abroad studying so that's why you didn't see them as much.. but they always existed. You were just a companion to keep him company until they came home... he was your home too... but now you're homeless..

Never knew how hard a post could hurt me until you saw his... he was getting engaged! You remember the talks about marriage, lots of children, family travels... but none of them included you. "09/03/17" he said you were special to him... but clearly not in the way you hoped for. They got the dream man, a beautiful marriage, kids with a sweet dog... while you got heartbreaks and pain.. lucky them!

Why... why... Jungkook why?!?! The one thing you knew you wanted to wait for... you went out and got it with someone else! "10/14/18" you knew him two years before them... you wanted to graduate college first but clearly he couldn't wait for you. "Soon to be father," those words brought salty tears to your eyes; you wanted a family with him... he promised you that you would have one!! He wanted one together... but obviously he meant your own families... separate.

Your just a pointless person who can't even get 1 person to show you love. Are you cursed? Are you terrible? Did you do something wrong in your past life to earn this?! Did they ever like you... did they ever mean "I love you" in the way you hoped for... was the hugs and small cuddles nothing to them. When they smiled at you... was it full of love or friendship... or did they all feel bad for you???

You wish you got the honest answer... you haven't dated since them... you don't think you ever will. Maybe being lonely was meant for you... you'll embrace it if it's the last thing you ever do.... y/n out.

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