Just wanted to say a quick thank you so much for all of the support on this book! I'd make a dedication but there's only one slot, but so many people. So, I'm just going to name some here.

Thanks to everyone but mostly these people. Every time I get online I always see a notification or inbox (or get a text if you know me personally) from these people; KattyKatty, NYCLovers, ClickClackShimmer, Parmoreforever, BYEhaley0469 (sorry if I got the numbers wrong, I suck with remembering them! Haha!), TemiiDee, Rockyewrworld, Macingeveryday, MusicLuvah uhm.. There's just so many of you! I just wanted to let you know that ily all and you're beautiful inside and out. :)

Meggless21

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I read the note once more to make sure my eyes weren't playing games with me, pinched my arm about two dozen times, and squealed to myself silently. I put the card back down and looked around once more. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket and pulled it out.

Ryan: I'm on my way, sorry! Jamie got his hair stuck in a blow dryer.

I laughed at the text then sat down at the table. I wanted to wait for Ryan before I started to eat. Knowing me, if I didnt wait, I'd eat everything on this table, leaving him with just the napkin. I heard the door open a few moments later and a very out of breath Ryan sat down in front of me.

"Hey!" He said with a smile. He exhaled heavily before taking a sip of his water. "Sorry, Jamie was blow drying his hair and it somehow got stuck in it."

I laughed again then nodded. "It's okay. What's all of this for?" I asked, pointing around.

"Oh! Well, since it is your last day here, might as well make it memorable, eh?"

I smiled at him then blushed. "It means a lot, Ryan. It really does. Thank you."

"Oh, and you're not taking a plane anymore." He said cooly.

"What?" I asked.

"You're taking a train! It's much safer, slower yes, but safer. Plus, it's only Saturday so you'll be there by late Sunday evening."

"You and your paranoia of planes, Ry." I giggled. He just smiled and shrugged slowly.

I took a bite of the food and began to eat. Ryan followed suit. We sat and ate quietly, and blissfully. It wasn't because it was my last day, and no one knew what to say. No. It was because it was my last day, and neither one of us wanted to ruin the moment. We finished eating about twenty minutes later. I picked up the roses and the card as he led me back out to his ear, opening the passenger door for me.

"Everyone else will meet us there!" He said as he hopped into the car. We started rolling down the street and eventually onto the highway. I rolled my window down and stuck my hand out of it, making wave like motions in the wind. I giggled a bit before realizing how short the ride was, and how quickly we got to the train station. I frowned slightly as the car parked. I stepped out out of the car. Ryan went inside and brought out a trolly and helped put all of my bags on it. I wrapped an arm around his waist as his arm wrapped around my shoulders and we walked inside. We tried pushing the trolly, but instantly found it hard. The cart was heavy and hard to handle with one arm on each person.

"No! It's turning!" I yelled laughing. Ryan laughed and almost tipped the thing over.

"No!" He shouted with a laugh. I laughed even harder then let go of his waist and steadied the car. We laughed until we got a hang of it. I already rhad my ticket, so we just had to go to the platform. I grabbed my bags and headed over to where the boys and Maggie were. Nash was the first one up, grabbing me in a tight yet gently hug. I hugged back and smiled.

"Hi Nash."

"Hey Megs."

He let go of me, and the process continued with Ian, then Maggie, then Jamie. I couldnt help but to laugh when Jamie hugged me.

"What's so funny?" He whined.

"The fact you managed to get your hair stuck in a hairdryer." I laughed. He whined before messing my side bun up and gently punching my arm.

"I'm going to miss you." He said softly. I frowned and nodded.

"I'm going to miss you too, Jamieson." He smiled a bit before sighing and let me go. I heard my flight get called and picked up my purse once more. I walked over to Ryan who had tears in his eyes.

"So I guess this is goodbye?" He asked with a sniffle.

"Not a goodbye. It's more of a uhm.. See you later." I said with a warm smile. I felt a tear stream down my cheek as I pulled him into a tight hug, connecting my face with his shoulder. I felt his arms wrap around me tightly. His face nuzzled into my neck causing me to smile a bit more as the tears fell. I pulled away then turned around without taking a look. I walked over to the lady and handed her my ticket. She smiled at me then moved out of the way to let me walk down the platform. I felt the tears stream more violently down my cheeks. I walked slowly, not wanting to go. I almost kind of wanted Ryan to chase after me. But I knew he wouldnt and that he couldnt. But it would still be nice. I held then necklace I was wearing in my hand tightly. It was Ryan's. He doesnt know I have it, and I dont plan on telling him. I didnt steal it though. Jamie gave me it to be honest. He said he didnt wear it anymore and ever since then I havent taken it off.

"Megan!" I heard Ryan yell. I turned around to look at him.

"Yeah?" I said softly.

"I cant let you leave without doing one thing."

"Huh?" I asked quietly.

"All boarding!" I heard the conductor call.

"Ryan, I got-" Before I could finish the sentence, I felt two soft, plump lips hit mine softly. I widened my eyes in shock before realizing that Ryan was kissing me gently. I soon closed my eyes and moved my lips slowly with his. It was so nice, so blissful. I felt the butterflies explode inside me every which way.

He pulled away gently, now having both of my hands in his. He pressed his lips softly to my ear and whispered, "Not a goodbye. Until next time, right?"

I nodded slowly then kissed his lips once more.

I got to the cargo pit and climbed onto the train carefully. I walked down the isle and took an empty seat near the window. I looked out of it and could see the boys in the window. I managed a weak smile before waving slightly. They all waved slightly back. I stared at Ryan as he stared back at me. Tears were streaming down both of our faces. I felt a slight thud as the train started moving. I looked back out of the window and placed my hand on the window. Ryan started walking next to the train then started to jog, he didnt take his eyes off of me. I started to cry harder. He stopped once he couldnt keep up which caused me to turn back around in my seat and break down. I felt the tears stream forcefully down my cheeks. They were uncontrollable too which sucked even more. I pulled my knees up to my chest and just cried into them.

Within a few hours, I was far away from the place I wanted to be and in a place I didnt know. I looked around a bit then looked back out the window and shut my eyes and forced myself into sleep. I felt a buzz in my pocket which caused me to snap out of it. I pulled my phone out and looked at it. I looked at the screen and smiled a bit. I had texts from everyone.

Ryan: I miss you already.

Ian: BE SAFE BABY GIRL. DONT TALK TO STRANGERS. HUGS NOT DRUGS, SAY NO, UHM.. STOP LIGHT. :( miss you.

Nash: my lil Chris Brown buddy is gone! ):

Jamie: YOU TOOK MY HAIR STRAIGHTENER!! D:

I laughed at Jamie's text then slid my phone back into my pocket. I needed to sleep this off. I needed to. But somehow I couldnt. I couldnt close my eyes and sleep. Instead I just stared out of the window and stayed in my thoughts. I'm so scared of going back. So scared. I dont want to be pushed back into old habits. I dont want to be hated again. I frowned slightly at the thought of being hated again. I took my headphones out and put them on, plugged them into my phone and listened to music.

I need faith and hope in myself that I can and will get through these new nine weeks of torture. But honestly? I knew I couldnt without having a mental breakdown.

I wanted to see my place in this world but I knew where that was. Next to Ryan. Where ever he was is where I wanted to be. The kiss came back into my head. I didnt know if it was one of those in the moment kisses or if it was an actual kiss. I didnt really care though. I kissed someone I was in love with.

 I felt a smile spread across my lips as my fingers gently touched my lips. I took a deep breath in then exhaled heavily but happily. I didn't know what to make of the kiss, but I did know one thing.

This was going to be a long train ride.