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wAIT SO YOU GUYS ARE TALKING NOW?

look have you seen this

they did the buzzfeed bff test like us last year

* buzz queed >:)

isn't it like 3 am there

you're in london too dumbdumb

did they film that in Venice?

i think so?? haley told me about it before you said she was back in london, soooo

ah

I'd watch it with her to make fun of her but she's been in LA for the past week and a half

rightt shetold me she's doing press there rn

it's like 11pm there i think??

we should meet up sometime god knows the last time I saw you and tom

over facetime like last week?

eli and I have a plan to meet up with saoirse a bit after the london prem of haley's movie so we can watch it with her

I'm sure he wouldn't mind if you guys came along, he's a big fan

eli? like elias your costar?

Yeah

i mean sure

when's haley coming back from LA?

uhh I think like a week from now?

That's what she told me yesterday

alrighty i'll let tom know

wAIT SO YOU GUYS ARE TALKING NOW

I mean

We have been?

when are you gonna

you know

no I do not know

bullshit but fine

HAVE YOU SEEN THIS

what is that

timothee wtf that was released two minutes ago ofc i didnt see it

SLALDSKFJ

oh my god fine i will watch it

THANK YOU

TOMORROW. I WILL WATCH IT TOMORROW BECAUSE I NEED SLEEP.

fINE

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"my first kiss... oh my god, okay. i love this memory. so uh, i had it in preschool. i think i was about six or seven at the time, i'm not entirely sure, and it was with this girl named charlotte.

i know people say that first kisses in preschool don't really count, or at least that's what some people have told my brother, since that's when he had his first kiss too, but i think this one was legit.

okay so the story was that i went into the bathroom, and i think it was a little after recess? and i came out of the cubicle and began to wash my hands as another girl entered to wash her hands too.

i knew her because i saw her around school a lot— she was the same grade as me, popular, had lots of friends— and i knew her name was charlotte. at the time, i thought she was like, the coolest person alive. she had these light up sneakers that i always wanted, her wrists were covered in these cool bracelets, she had bangs... i was never allowed to have bangs before!

so we were washing our hands, right, and then she looks at me and says, 'i like your shirt'. and i was wearing this baby pink shirt that my mom picked out the night before. so i told her that i liked her shirt, which was navy blue and that was like, my favorite color then. well, it still is, kinda, up till now.

so i told her that blue was my favorite color, and she was like, 'oh-em-gee! we're matching!' and i was like, 'yeah! like soulmates!' and looking back, i'm sure it was really stupid, but at the time i thought it was the smart thing to say.

i can't believe she actually agreed with me, and she went, 'maybe we should try it out.' and it was so funny how serious she was, but i agreed, and asked how, and she said, 'we kiss, of course!'

so we kissed. it wasn't like, slobbery or icky or anything, it was just like a *haley kisses the tips of her fingers like some italian chef*. and we liked it, so we did it like, twice more. i remember telling her that she was the best kiss i've ever had, even though she was the only kiss i ever had.

anyways, some older kid walked in on us and just screamed, so we ran out of the bathroom and back to our classrooms. in the afternoon, we were called to the principal's office, and she was being really mean and reprimanding about it, saying 'oh, you shouldn't kiss other girls', the usual [bleep].

turns out she also called in our parents. i remember sitting there with my mom and dad, who were super confused, because i behaved really well and never got in trouble. then the principal told them about what happened, and when she paused, probably expecting them to tell me off or something, i remember my dad hi-fiving me and asking how it felt.

*laughs* i was honest and told him that it felt great! and he told me something like, *in british accent* 'good job love, you're really taking after your father.'

so the principal didn't get the gratification she wanted from my parents, and so she probably expected it when lottie's parents came, right?— sorry, i think of her as lottie even though i've never called her that, is it weird?— anyways, her parents came in, and imagine her surprise when they were two moms.

one of charlotte's moms was named michael, i think, and her nickname was ellie, because that's what my parents called her. but in the official sheet list for parents, it was probably michael, which is why our principal just had this horrified look on her face when she realized she had to explain the situation to them.

my dad did it for her, and bless them, they just laughed. i recall charlotte saying to them that she 'had consent', and i asked my dad what it meant... he told me it meant that both of you agreed to do it, and i told him 'i wanted to and she wanted to', so it was a mutual decision.

so... yeah, that's the story of my first kiss."

*off-camera* "where's charlotte now?"

"charlotte... oh! there's sad news, unfortunately.

uh, so a couple months after that, she had to move somewhere in asia for her parents' business or something, so i never saw her again.

but oh my god, i remember her going up to me and saying that she was gonna leave, and it was very emotional for two six year olds, to say the least.

i was really sad that she was going, and so i gave her my beauty and the beast bracelet— belle was my favorite princess— and told her not to forget me, then she took off the name tag on her backpack and told me not to forget her.

i still have that name tag, it had a little cartoon on it, and her full name."

*off camera* "what's a book that resonates with you?"

"a book that resonates with me? uh, i used to read a lot of books, but i barely remember any of them now. the first thing that comes to mind is little women, because i remember my mom giving it to me when i was ten.

it was super thick, and so i thought it was a hard read, but then i picked it up for the first time when i was like twelve and i loved it so much. i remember watching the 1994 little women movie religiously, like any time i wasn't doing anything.

i just liked reading about the march sisters, and i loved laurie. i think he was my first crush. christian bale? come on.

*off camera* "what do you think about the 2019 version?"

"the 2019 little women? well, i have to say, it's a masterpiece. twelve year old me needed that, and i just fell into greta's interpretation of the story when i watched it in theaters for the first time. it's beautiful. and so is the cast!"

*off camera* "what's something that you live for?"

"what i live for? that's tricky, hang on.

okay, so if you asked me this like five or ten years ago, i'd for sure say my family and friends, you know, my loved ones.

since then though, a lot of them are gone, if i'm being brutally honest right now. so i think i'll say that i live for love.

of course i love the people around me, like my brother, my best friends, the people that bring me joy, but i also live for loving feelings, experiences.

hanging around people you love is great, especially when you laugh together, you know when you're laughing so hard over some petty thing and you keep adding stuff and it progressively gets worse, but you're in their company and everything just looks funny through that lens?

or don't you just love it when you receive forehead kisses, when you hug someone and they're wearing a hoodie so it's like a double hug? or personally, i like driving at night when i have lots of thoughts, and when your favorite song just plays and all you can see are the city lights in the distance, that's a great feeling."

*haley's voice, off-camera* "was that deep? i think that was too deep, cut it out if i sound insane."

timothée only realized that he was smiling so hard when his cheeks began to hurt.

I MISS YOU, I'M SORRY