'You say you're not special because the world doesn't know about you, but that's an insult to me. I know about you.'

I read along the line of this paragraph. I had liked English but never liked the attention you get while reading some part of this book. Cherry on top when you had to be standing while reading.

Ethan was with me in this class beside chemistry but we sat a little far from each other, not that we chose like this but I didn't feel like to be around him after that whole water threat.

He came late today, so he just went to his seat passing me by my left before we made eye contact, which held nothing in them.

I paused reading when a scoff heard behind me. Everyone turned around to find out the only person who was clearly not interested in this class before, just gave a reply to my reading...with a scoff.

He was sitting on the last bench of the last row with the wall by window, on my left, while I was in middle seat of middle row just some seats infront of his.

He was in white sporty jacket with grey T-shirt inside, paired with new white sneakers. His body was speaking money he has.

He never showed off before. He was becoming just like Ester and Kyle.

The seat beside him, reserved by his bag, used to be my safe heaven. Now we were five feet apart by bodies and our souls beyond the moon in darkness.

"Is there something funny Ethan? You wanna share with the class, the reason of your reaction?" Our professor Mr. Chadwick closed his book with his finger as a bookmark.

Ethan's eyes met mine with a cheeky smile and he just shook his head at teacher.

"Nothing for you to know, but for us," The last part was whisper, only for me to hear.

He turned his eyes back on mine and we stared at each other, before Mr. Chadwick cleared his throat.

I turned back to front and sat down while dusting my jeans which i wore with a blue cardigan sweaters and a black t-shirt under it.

What happened yesterday, I didn't want him to repeat it. So this morning I found mom's cardigan in my closet and wore it. I did love wearing her things. Even there were not many but these made me happy.

As I focused back on my book, the girl beside me stood up and started reading her part and this continued. I could feel Ethan's gaze at the back of my head.

Since we got to know each other, never once we sat this far. We did get in some arguments and fights before but never any of them got us at the verge of lose our minds.

I knew this was way far from any stupid argument for the air to get clear easily. It was funny how you could be so happy with someone one moment, unaware of tomorrow and love them so much that somehow it creates an underlying sense of fear in you. Fear of losing them.

But I just didn't want him to lose me before before he everything.

We've held onto opposites self with this strong belief in our hearts.

'Us against the world'

But now it was all me against everyone.

I slowly moved my head to passed a glance at him but he was already staring at me like he wanted to say something.

He looked away from me and into his journal before wrote something on the page, tore it from his journal silently and crumble it in a ball before tossed it by my side, under my desk.

My eyes crinkled with confusion but I looked at Mr. Chadwick who's eyes were fixed on his book. So I crouched down and took it in my hand and hide it in my cardigan.

Just after some seconds, I opened the ball into page under my desk, covered in crinkles now.

'Meet me at the rooftop :)'

I looked back at him and not expected he gave me a small smile. I couldn't deny that it seemed genuine so i returned one and then we continued our class. My heart was at some peace now.

God finally listened to me.

I knew he couldn't stay away from me for so long. The thought itself cheered my mood little.

Maybe he felt guilty about yesterday?

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The Hallway never used to be this silent during the tournament was happening. We used to be so cheerful while going to practice or posting banners on boards, giving flyers to students and teachers and chanting our team names on the top of our lungs with me and Gwen on Ethan's and Leo's back.

A small smiled formed on my face when the memory passed through my head. The video of last year's preparation was still on YouTube channel under name Grace_TheGreat , with thousands of views.

Now I was going to the rooftop to talk to Ethan whatever we had been holding to ourselves. I knew he would listen to me.

"Aria?" I turned around to see coach Lee coming my way. He was a cool guy with all black dyed hair. I knew at this age where people got frustrated with their weak bones and all, he had been taking care of himself very well.

But why calling me?

"Can I talk to you for a second?" Nodding in response, I followed him to the side before he took out something from his pants pocket. "I was wondering if you... maybe wanna join again. I know you are not in a mood to be playing again but you're my best player Aria."

His pleading eyes sparked something in me. As in my whole dead passion about playing again was alive again. He reached out his hand towards me holding a paper which I knew was.

Form of entry.

Even there was no need for me to be filling it. But because I canceled everything last year. This might be necessary.

I took it from him with all respect. He smiled a little and pat on my shoulder slightly.

"Nate and Gwen already joined the team. I will be waiting for you, we're gonna kill this game together."

With that he turned around and went to what I assumed auditorium. For the fact I knew he'd approach me someday.

I remember the day when me and ethan joined Ice hockey and coach Lee used to stay with us here till late nights while we practiced.

He's like a father figure for us. He's been doing this for a very long time. Maybe this game brought ethan and me close and our friendship strong in the past.

Ethan! OMG he must be waiting for me.

I turned around and rushed upstairs. It was not a very tall building but I was gasping when I reached there. I twisted the handle down and opened the gate.

The air brushed my hair but thank God they were tied in half bun and half lose hairstyle.

My eyes fell on Ethan, who was standing by the railing, his back turned to me. I slowly made my way to him. His broad shoulders and fashion was incomparable.

"Ethan?" I called out his name and placed my hand on his shoulder to get his attention.

"Sorry coach lee stopped me but thank you for giving me a chance." I said where he listened in silence. "I knew you'll listen to me.".

But his response was what I didn't expect.

"Miss me?" He said before he grabbed my wrist which was on his shoulder and swirled me around.

A gasp left my mouth and my bag slipped off my shoulder and fell on the concrete ground few feet away. My hands grabbed his forearms but they were slippery due to sweat.

My upper half was bending backwards that if he lost his grip, i would surely be down by four floors.

"What are you doing?" My voice came out as weak with fear as it could be, and I hate it so much but he didn't respond.

"You really thought I was here for your gibberish, 'no I didn't do it ethan' and all?" And just then my hope died before it could grew more.

"I-

"No Aria, you lost that chance back then when I asked you an explanation and you had nothing in return," My eyes started to burn with tears and some slipped sideways landing before vanishing in air. We were still holding each other arms so tightly.

My whole back was hurting badly because of railing.

Was this why he called me here? My eyes were burning with regret. I shouldn't have came.

I didn't have anything to say to him at this point. My mouth was sealed with the way his eyes were looking down at me. I knew whatever I'd say, he'd not believe me.

My throat felt tight. I couldn't do this. Back then I had nothing to say, cause I had nothing. I was empty. I couldn't just proved myself innocent in days and then he decided to leave all of a sudden.

How long can a person clinged to a past they both hate in order to justify a present where neither of them is happy?

"What? Cat got your tongue," He taunted with a smirk and jerked my body more backwards. "You have no right to be here!!, should I push you from here? No one will know."

Did I even wanna live? Maybe he was right.

All this time that I had tried to be gone, tried to end myself with overdose, I was saved by somehow. Maybe this was how it was written.

I closed my eyes to him with heart hammering in my chest, waiting for him to do whatever he wanted to get rid of me. Not that I have a reason to live.

If that's what you want," My hands uncurled around his jacket completely. My body fell backwards. Let it be then.

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