A/N: Six more chapters left including this one. Originally this was going to be a longer book but honestly I have to many unfinished books that all need to get done. When I finish those then I'll see which one ya'll want a sequel for.

Enjoy my loves.

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My pencil glides along the paper making messy marks. I'm attempting to sketch out music video ideas for my first single, 'i never wanna die.'

I'm beyond excited for it but equally as nervous.

I've been in New York for a total of three nights. I'm not gonna lie, it's been awfully lonely and stressful but I know it will pay off. Ever since I was a little girl I wanted to sing. Then Hazelee came around and I'd give up anything for her.

Billie and I facetime whenever we can. I think Billie is more excited than I am. Claudia sends me hourly updates on Haze, including pictures. She seems like she's having a great time, I'm not worried about her.

As far as the meetings, they're pretty dull. Reading contracts, discussing future music videos and songs isn't all that interesting. I've been sending copies of the contracts to Finneas for him to look over before signing anything. I don't trust myself to not miss something important.

Everyone has been super friendly and accepting. They have gone out of their way to make me feel comfortable. Covering the cost of hotels and uber's. I've done a little exploring around the city with one of the guys on the team.

His name is Gavin and he lives here so he knows how to get around.

Today I officially signed the contract! Meaning my single along with the music video will be coming out in less than a month. I have a photoshoot tomorrow for promo and I can't help but not feel ready for this. Who knows what's going to happen? Billie didn't go into music expecting to be one of the most famous people to walk this earth. Not that I'm expecting to be that famous at all, but you never know.

I huff in frustration, my drawing skills suck ass. Placing the sketchbook on the desk I check the time, realizing I haven't even told Billie about the news yet.

I dash over to the bathroom where my makeup is sitting, propping my phone against the mirror and face timing Billie.

"Hi beautiful, congratulations," Billie beams as I grab a tube of eyeliner. "Hi baby," I smile.

"What are you getting ready for?"

"Remember the guy I was telling you about?" I ask while finishing my eyeliner.

"Gavin? The one who's basically been your tour guide?"

"Yeah, he invited me to a party," I tell her.

"What kind of party?"

"It's one of his friend's birthdays or something," I shrug, finishing my mascara.

"I hope you have fun but please be safe," she says, worry behind her tone of voice.

I pick up my phone, giving her my full attention before speaking. "I promise! I'll probably only go for like an hour."

"Alright my love. If you need anything, you call me, okay?"

"I will," I smile, puckering up my lips and blowing her a kiss. She returns the 'kiss' and we say our goodbyes.

Scavenging through my suitcase I realize I didn't pack any party-appropriate clothes so I opt for some simple jeans and a tank top just in time to receive an 'I'm here' text from Gavin. I grab my phone, bag, and room key card before making my way down the elevator. Hoping into the now-familiar red car I buckle up, Gavin greeting me and telling me I look great.

A few too many drinks later and I'm playing beer pong with Gavin beside me. I'm so wasted I can hardly stand up straight. There's not a ton of people here but there's enough booze to get an entire army drunk.

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After FaceTiming Carter I decided to spend my evening with Finneas and Claudia, helping them with Hazelee. Although, they clearly don't need my help. I swear these two are made to be parents. I love watching them interact with Hazelee. I can feel in my bones that this is meant to be.

Once Hazelee was asleep I joined Finn and Claudia in the living room, attempting to pay attention to the movie they had playing. They seemed really invested in it, gasping with wide eyes at the actions that played out on the screen. But as for me? All I could think about was Carter. I know she's a badass and could beat anyone, that's not what I'm worried about. I'm worried about the alcohol and potential drugs that could be there.

I decide to scroll through her tagged posts and the first two to pop up nearly knock the wind out of me...

Is that Gavin? Why is he holding her like that? Why is she letting him?

Before even processing I run out to my car, beginning to call her. Calling her turned into five minutes of declined calls, five minutes turned into half an hour, and half an hour turned into one hour. One hour of declined calls.

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"No, I'm fine honestly. I just still can't believe this is happening," Hailey giggled as I offered her a drink or food.

I had to get my mind off of what could potentially be happening states away. They could be sleeping together for all I know. I invited Hailey over instead of letting myself cry the evening away. We had been texting back and forth for a few days now and I knew I wanted to get to know her better so I figured this was a perfect time.

"Well believe it," I chuckled, sitting across from her on my couch. "So Hailey. What's your story?"

"Do you want my full story or should I sum it up?"

"Whatever you wanna tell me," I smiled.

She then went on to tell me how her parents dropped her off at a police station only hours after she was born. She still doesn't know who they are. She is living in an awful foster home with abusive parents and has never had any stable relationships or friendships. My heart broke for her and many tears were shed between the both of us. When she explained to me how my music and presence on social media saved her life I couldn't help but sob. I never ever in a million years thought I'd have such an impact on someone's life.

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A/N: Predictions? Thoughts?

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