I thought that if I did die the least that I could do was let him and his wolf have full use of the body they had already claimed as theirs.

At first Theo hadn't objected but then he almost pieced together what was going on, "No, we are not doing this for me..." he had said almost getting up. "No, for us." And we had made the night everything we would ever want. Even Nina and Tyler came out and bonded, letting their desires be fulfilled.

My eyes opened to Nina's voice. 'Nala we have forty-five! Get the help up!" She was screaming in my head and my head began to throb. 'What do I do?' I asked her. 'Ice bath. Freezing ice bath. Run freezing water into the tub and collect all the ice they have in the freezers.'

I had time so I took my time getting up. I slipped one of Theo's shirts on over my naked frame and entered our bathroom. 'Nala, APPROXIMATELY FORTY-FIVE! MOVE WOMAN!!' I fell against the counter for support as her voice threw me off balance.

I ran downstairs and collected as much ice as I could and continued back to Theo's bathroom. I knelt beside the tub and moved to tip in the ice but, yet again, Nina stopped me again. 'You are an actual idiot. You saw how big Theo's wolf is, do think I'm going to be the size of what... a fox? A big bathroom.' she said and I could feel her eyes roll.

The biggest bathroom in the pack house was the pack bathroom. I carried the ice to there and tipped it into the running water.

'Nina, what do I do now?' I asked slowly glancing around the room. 'Make sure that there are no sharp objects or weapons of any sort, anywhere in here.' She said. I searched for anything sharp but didn't really find anything that could be used as a weapon. Nina growled in my head and pushed forward for dominance, without thinking I let her.

I really had to master the control thing.

Nina moved around the room and pulled out razors and nail clippers. There was almost a bucket of things that could be used as weapons. 'Are you sure half of those thing could be used as a weapon?' I asked her in our mind. She rolled her eyes. 'Shifting is going to hurt, you'd do almost anything to kill yourself. However, hurting yourself while shifting could be damaging. I'm going to be preoccupied with shifting in your body without breaking bones. I won't be able to think about what your body is doing.' She acknowledged in a subtle manner.

We stripped our clothes and waited for the first pains, sitting on the edge of the tub.

"Nala?"

Theo's voice rang through the house.

"Theo..." I cried. I hadn't realised that I had started crying until I heard my pathetic voice. 'I didn't know I was this scared.' I thought to Nina and I could feel her smug expression. 'I'm scared to Nala, but the bond is stronger since your wolf has mated with his. We have almost nothing to be frightened of.' She thought comfortingly. 'Almost...' I linked back.

"Pancake? What are you doing?" Theo asked as he burst through the door. I instinctively covered my body and his face went blank.

'He's mind-linking members of the pack.' Nina said in a comforting tone. I nodded in response and hoped to the moon goddess that she was right.

Theo moved to touch my cheek but Nina took control quickly and flinched away. "Touching our mate will make the process come sooner." She hissed through her teeth. I flinched at the way she was talking to our mate and tried for control.

It failed miserably.

"Don't you want this over and done with?" Theo asked Nina. I nodded but Nina didn't. she didn't move. "What does Nala think, Nina? Have you consulted with her on this?" he asked smirking. I focused all my energy and yelled 'no' in our mind.

Nina furiously shook her head and I forced the word through her lips. "No." we said and I smirked victoriously from the 'back seat.'

Theo smiled and kissed our hand. "Good girl Pancake." He said looking into our eyes as if desperate to see that I'm okay. I would have responded but a pain shot from our hand, up our arm and triggered our heart.

Nina shrunk back and settled in the back of my mind to concentrate, leaving me with the brunt of the pain.

I winced and pressed my hand against my chest. "Theo?" I asked hopeful, but his face was blank.

After about two minutes of sharp pains in the chest, four female warrior wolves burst through the door in human form. Theo lent me back in the ice water and I screamed.

Suddenly it felt like the front of my chest was being torn in half. I felt my ribs cracking and my fingers breaking. "NINA..." I screamed. "Make it better!" I yelled desperate for the heat in my chest to relent.

I felt my eyes close and I tried to open them. The darkness was deeper and emptier than usual.

I felt in my mind for Nina but she wasn't there. I reached out for her and tried to link her but nothing happened.

I tried to reach for Theo's hand, nothing happened, the only think that told me that this wasn't a dream was the relentless pain of my breaking bones.