-Colby-

It's 1am and i've been posting so many deep tweets. It's honestly how i feel but i don't think anyone knows that i feel that way. They always see me as the happy kid that is carefree and enjoys life. I wish it was true, i fake that around my friends so they think that i'm happy.

None of my friends know that i pop pills and smoke. I only do it at night when i'm left alone with my thoughts. It's nice to smoke outside my new balcony since we moved into a new house recently with the boys.

There's never a dull moment where i think i'm happy... There's always something bringing me down which makes me so depressed and anxious.

The only thing that makes me feel a bit better is being addicted to the feeling of smoking and popping pills

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