I still found it hard to believe that I was under a spell and I rejected my mate. My dad called a witch who works for the council to come and break the spell. The moment the spell was broken I felt nothing towards Victoria. My wolf wanted her blood for what she did but my dad let the council punish her.

I didn't care what happened to her and all I wanted was to find my mate and make things right. I knew I had to work hard to earn her trust. I broke Sophia's heart. I felt weak and didn't deserve to be called alpha.

Victoria and her aunt were taken by the council, I didn't know or care to ask what was going to happen to them. Warrior Ford was ashamed but understood. June didn't have a mate.

It had been days and we still couldn't find Sophia, nobody saw her leave or cared enough to tell the alpha that she was missing. I did that to her by denying her claim on me. I made my mate an outcast. She was gone for days and nobody cared. My wolf could not feel her wolf because I rejected her but he could tell, she was alive.

There pack members were angry and felt betrayed by me and Victoria. They understood that I was under a spell but they wanted to know why I didn't tell the truth. I had no answer for them because I asked myself that same question.

My parent's relationship was on the rocks, dad told mom she was responsible for this too. She didn't give Sophia a chance because she didn't like her and favoured Victoria. I was lost in thought and forgot I was in a meeting.

"Blaze, are you listening," dad asked. I didn't answer and just shook my head.

"I said, I'm leaving the pack with my mate to search for our pup. We will not come back until we find her," Beta Brian said without emotions. Caleb already took over the beta position.

"I'm sure you will be happy with me gone Luna Lisa," Sophia's mom said.

"Joan, I'm sorry. Me punishing Sophia had nothing to do with you," mom said.

"It had everything to do with me and you know it. You hate me and made sure everybody knows. You hate my kids too," Joan said crying.

"Can we not talk about this now," dad said.

"Why, my daughter was humiliated and we were insulted by the Luna in front of the whole pack," Brian said.

"Look man, I'm sorry okay. I didn't mean for this to happen. I wish Lisa understood that Joan and I dated and when we realised we weren't mates we stopped. But Lisa held that against Joan and she took it out on Sophia," dad said disappointed. Mom held her head down in shame. She didn't like Joan because she dated dad, she treated her so bad. Beta Brian moved his family out of the pack house because of mom.

"If it's okay, we'll go now," Beta Brain left with his mate.

I had asked dad to keep being alpha and let me deal with everything first. I felt empty, incomplete and there was this void in my heart that I knew only Sophia would fill. I hated the looks of pity I got from the pack members. I was angry with myself for being weak and for not telling the truth that Sophia was my mate.

It has been months since Sophia left, it was like she fell off the face of the earth. We looked for her everywhere, in all surrounding human towns, I even asked for help from other packs. I knew asking for help from other packs was risky but I didn't care, all I wanted was to find my mate. Other alphas could challenge me for my pack if they knew I rejected my mate. I was weak compared to a fully mated alpha.

My mate, was beautiful with her long black hair, sparkling brown eyes. Her body was perfect and I couldn't wait to make her mine. She was strong and humble, a true luna, my luna. When I find her I will do anything for her forgiveness. I hated seeing happy couples around which I knew was wrong of me but I couldn't help myself. I was jealous because they were happy and in love. I wondered if my mate would forgive me when we met again. Would she give me a chance to prove myself?

When we discovered that Sophia was gone, I took her stuff to my room. Her clothes are in my closet and I had been sleeping on her pillow because it had her scent. I also spent a lot of time in my closet, her scent smelt delicious. I could imagine myself holding her in my arms with my nose in her neck, taking in her scent. That would be heaven.

"Hey bro, you okay?" Caleb asked walking into my office.

"I'm good man, what's up?" I said with a fake smile. They were second nature to me now. I realised that if I smiled even if it's fake people around me felt better.

"Nothing much, you missed dinner with the pack again man," he said sitting down. Our friendship was getting back on track, he was forgiving me for rejecting his sister. His mate Lauren, not so much, she looked at me like I was the most disgusting thing ever. I didn't blame her, she was Sophia's best friend. I was glad I was getting my best friend back.

"I totally forgot about it. I fucking hate going to the pack dinner, the looks of pity I get from some pack members rub me the wrong way."

Caleb laughed at me and shook his head and said.

"You will have to suck it up because you are the alpha and the pack needs to know that their alpha cares about them."

He was right, the pack came first. My dad told me to stop acting like a wounded animal and be the alpha I was born to be.

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