I woke back up why felt like only a couple of seconds later. I remembered exactly what happened so I shot up wide awake and tried getting up but Will and Natalie were both there to stop me. "Where's Jay?" I looked over to see the guys pulling him out of the car. His body was completely limp.

With whatever strength I had left I got up, ignoring whatever Natalie and Will were hollering at me. "I don't have a pulse." I heard Gabby say.

I collapsed beside Jay. "Jay please wake up," I spoke into his ear not being able to contain my tears. I felt someone trying to pull me away from him. "NO," I yelled not bothering to look back.

I saw paramedics come down with a stretcher to grab him and this time whoever was behind me pulled me back harder managing to lift me up and carry me away. "Bear it's okay." it's like my brain finally accepted hearing Kelly's voice. I calmed down and his grip loosened up slightly.

"Kelly he needs to live, I didn't get to say yes..." I opened my hand revealing the ring I had grabbed.

Kelly was tearing up. "He's gonna be just fine." He tried comforting me but I knew no one could be sure of that.

I watched as the paramedics loaded Jay onto the back of the ambulance and I tried to run up after them but they took off before I could reach them. "C, mon let's go." Trudy had pulled up in her car beside me. I didn't hesitate to hop in and we drove off.

I looked down at my hand to look at the ring one more time and noticed my hands were shaking a lot, and then I realized my breathing was still super accelerated. "Honey, you need to breathe, are you alright?" Mouch looked back concern filled his face.

"I-I can't breathe." I felt like my extremities were going numb and I couldn't catch a breath. "Mah I can't breathe." I wheezed to Trudy, as I kept crying.

"You're okay honey I think you're having a panic attack." She pulled the car to the side. "Mouch drive." She instructed and Mouch hopped into the driver's seat while Trudy joined me in the back.

"Help." I wheezed still feeling like at any second now I could literally die.

"Ok Honey listen to me I need you to breathe with me." Trudy grabbed my hands. She breathed in and out slowly guiding me to do the same.

"I can't-" it was getting better but I still felt like I wasn't getting any air in.

"Just focus on breathing honey, in....and out." Trudy kept guiding me.

I then felt like I was better but still couldn't stop crying. "He can't die Mah." I sobbed in her arms.

"We're here!" Mouch pulled over.

I ran out of the car and into the E.R, Jay being rolled in a couple of meters away from me.

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It had been almost been 2 hours since Jay had gone into the O.R, he was breathing once he got to the hospital but his leg had been really busted up and they needed to close up the gash in his head.

Will and Natalie had practically forced me to get checked out and I was fine apart from some scrapes and bruises. Everyone else was in the waiting room, dressed way too nicely for being there but no one wanted to leave Jay or me.

I was sitting in between Stellaride, Kelly wouldn't let go of my hand and I was resting my head on Stella's shoulder. As much as I tried to stay awake I had taken a bad hit myself so I dozed off a few times.

"Sweetie." I heard Stella's voice and I snapped my eyes open seeing that Connor had come out of the O.R.

"How is he?" I asked him immediately.

"He's doing fine, we're expecting a full recovery. He's also awake now and he will not stop asking about you, won't sit still until he sees you're okay." Connor told me.

I quickly got up following behind him. "I need to know where she is!" I heard Jay's voice in a room.

"He's in there." Connor pointed 2 doors down and I ran into the room. I saw Jay arguing with April.

"Jay?" I caught his attention, I couldn't help but tear up at the sight of him all bandaged up.

"Baby!" He tried getting up but I quickly ran to his side as April stopped him.

"He's all your now." April shrugged getting out of the room.

I sat on the edge of Jay's bed. "How are you feeling?" I cupped his cheek being extremely gentle.

He put his hand over mine pressing my hand harder to his skin, like he was waiting to feel that touch.

I could tell he had something on his mind. "y/n I need to ask you something..." He started and I had a feeling I knew where this was going. "This was supposed to happen under better circumstances but we nearly died and I know I wouldn't have died a happy man if I hadn't asked you this before-" He started rambling.

"Jay Alexander Halstead... yes...I will Marry you." I pulled out the engagement ring passing it to him.

I saw his face light up instantly and a few tears welling up in his eyes. He took the ring and slipped it in my finger. "Thank God you said yes otherwise this would've been awkward." Jay just had to joke.

"I love you." I pressed my lips to his.

"I love you more my fiancé." He smirked kissing me again.

"Whooo!!!" We pulled away when we heard clapping and cheering. The guys had gathered outside and watched the...kind off proposal.

"This wasn't supposed to go like this but you guys are so cute...I love you guys so much." Gabby had started tearing up causing Matt to pull her into his side comforting her from all the emotions.

"I can't believe you're getting married." Trudy was tearing up so I got up to hug her. Everyone else slowly started flowing into the room congratulating both of us. The room was crowded but it brought a lot of comfort to us.

"Can I just say something?" I got everyone's attention.

"Go ahead." Hermann encouraged me to go on.

I started tearing up again. "When I saw Jay...clinging onto the last bit of life he had in him...I was terrified...even the smallest idea of living in a world without him shattered me completely." Jay wrapped his arm around my waist. "Even after I called 911 I was so scared, that Jay and I weren't getting out of that car...As soon as I heard your voice Stella I knew...with all my heart that we were going to be okay." I saw Stella tearing up as well as a couple other people.

"I always wondered why I didn't have my mom, or my dad or any siblings with me. But now I understand that if I did I wouldn't have the relationship I have with all of you today...and I wouldn't trade that for the world." I felt the tears stream down my cheeks. "So thank you again to all of you, for being the best family anyone could ever ask for, I love you guys and I'm so thankful you guys are with me in this new step of my life." I finished.

"We'll always be here for you kid, that's what family's for." Al winked at Jay and I.

"Amen!" Hermann raised an invisible toast as did everyone else.

As the night went on people slowly started slipping out of the room, Will and Natalie had gone to Jay's and my apartment and come back with some fresh clothes for us. After a while it was only Jay and I, I had slipped on some pijamas that Nat brought me and was setting up on a couch next to the bed ready to sleep.

"Please stay here." Jay patted the space on the bed beside him scotting over slightly.

"Jay we won't-" I was about to tell him we weren't going to fit.

"Please baby, I need it." I heard in his voice how much he wanted it and there was no way I was going to say no to him.

I walked over and hopped on the bed. I was really uncomfortable but being next to Jay, feeling his warmth and looking into his gorgeous eyes made it all worth it. "Don't ever leave me okay." I whispered.

"In sickness and in health till death do us apart baby." Jay whispered back a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.

I smiled then buried my head in Jay's chest. Without noticing we both dozed off, completely exhausted we fell asleep, Jay hugging me close to him.