Our uber's arrived, and we all split up into separate cars. Journee, Sebastian, Eva, and Luca take one of the cars while Alex, Maya, me, and Jordy take the other. Maya takes the passenger seat leaving me squished between Alex and Jordy. Great.

Alex's fruity scent is outweighed by Jordy's intoxicating spicy scent causing my senses to go into overdrive. I feel Jordy's knee touching mine and it somehow causes tingles to shoot throughout my body. Alex's is touching mine as well, but it's not the same effect. Maybe it's because Jordy makes me nervous? I like Alex, I do.

As much as Jordy?

Jordy isn't an option. I tell the side of myself that wants Jordy and is willing to take that risk. I have to also remind myself that not only is she my best friend's sister, but she also enjoys playing with girls. The entire idea is completely unrealistic and it will only hurt me in the end.

It could be realistic.

I feel both Jordy and Alex's heads snap to me.

"No?" Alex asks me curiously with furrowed brows, and I feel my face heat up.

"I uh didn't mean to say that," I say honestly and I meet Alex's icy eyes.

"What were you saying no to?" she asks curiously as she smirks, and I feel myself think back to my previous thoughts.

Do you like Jordy more?

I clear my throat as I push the thoughts away before breaking eye contact with Alex, "Nothing," I whisper as I turn to face the front, but a certain pair of hazel eyes cause my dark orbs to meet with hers. Her eyebrows are furrowed as her lips hold a smirk, almost as if she can read my thoughts, but can't at the same time.

We pull up to the large house and I can't help but look in awe at the fountain that has the driveway formed around it. The music spills out into the night air, and I notice drunken people scattered outside the front of the house all talking. We all pile into the house as we head towards the kitchen; and I notice Journee, Sebastian, Eva, and Luca are all already here.

"Here," Journee says as she passes me a white claw before passing everyone else one. Once everyone else gets one Journee tells us all to follow her, and we of course oblige. We make our way out to the crowded backyard and I see the lake twinkling as the moon shines against it. We make our way through the backyard as she guides us to this trail through the trees.

"Uh Journee we didn't wear the right shoes for this," Luca news flashes her, and she turns around before narrowing her eyes at him.

"Trust me it will level out," she says as she turns back around. She was indeed correct because this dirt trail soon turned into a concrete path that lead down to a large dock on the lake.

We all sit down on the dock forming a circle. Alex sits beside me following Jordy on the other side. Maya sits on Jordy's other side while Luca sits beside her, and Eva sits beside him. I notice Sebastian beside Alex and Journee on his other side.

"So what did you lead us out here for?" Eva asks curiously and we all look to Journee who has a huge smile on her face.

"We're smoking," she says as Sebastian pulls out four pre-rolled blunts, and I take a big gulp of my white claw due to nervousness. The last time I did this my thoughts took over, but maybe if I'm drinking it could be a better experience.

I feel Alex lean into my ear causing her fruity smell to wrap around me, "Are you okay to do this?" she whispers quietly and I nod as I use my opposite hand to push a curl behind my ear. She leans back as her icy eyes analyze my face before giving me a confirming nod, and I send her a small smile at her actions.

She was checking on me.

My heart swells at the realization. I look over to Jordy who holds a confused look due to Alex's actions. She tilts her head at me slightly almost asking me to explain. I allow my attention back onto the group as the newly lit blunt gets passed around. Once it comes to me I take a calm puff setting the intention that I want only good thoughts, even though I know my mind is already chaotic without smoking.

After we all finish four blunts we head back to the party, which took us a good amount of time considering we were all in a different headspace. Everything feels slowed and heavy, and for the second time, I feel so good. Euphoric almost. We make it back to the party and it almost seems like no time has passed at all even though I know we were all gone for at least an hour.

Everyone is dancing in the backyard to the loud music and I notice that the backdoors are wide open as people also dance inside.

"Let's dance," Journee says earning my attention and I automatically lock hands with her before walking with her into the crowd.

I feel the rhythmic music pump through my heavy body as we attach our bodies in a rhythm movement. Euphoria flows through my body as I feel the high of both substances that I came in contact with tonight, and I take a second to bask in the moment causing me to close my eyes in content.

I look back to our friends to see everyone now disbursed elsewhere in the crowd, but Jordy stays in the same spot we left her in. Her eyes don't hide the fact that their on me, and she gives me a swift up and down look as she checks me out. I look into her deep caramel eyes almost wanting to fling myself into her arms, but I break the contact as I turn back to Journee.

"Hey I'll be right back I'm going to go find Alex," I yell over the pumping music and she gives me a nod.

"I'm gonna go see where Sebastian is," She yells back, and I give her a nod and smile before making my way through the crowd. I go the opposite way of Jordy deciding I should avoid that situation at all costs. I look around the crowd, but when I don't spot Alex I decide to make my way inside the house.

I briefly look at the crowd inside the house, and I furrow my eyebrows when I still can't manage to spot her. I go into the kitchen, but I still have no luck in spotting her. Maybe she's in the bathroom. I go upstairs before looking at everyone in line for the bathroom, but no one has those icy blue eyes. I decide to wait across the hall from the door to the bathroom to see if maybe she's the one occupying it, but a blonde-haired guy comes out causing me to let out a sigh.

I need a second to myself considering my head is starting to spin, and I don't know any of these people. Alex's probably with Sebastian and them. I walk to the nearest room I can find before entering it. Darkness surrounds me in the quiet room, and I let out a sigh. I flip the lights on illuminating the room, but my stomach drops when I see bodies under the white covers on top of the bed.

I gasp, "I'm so sorry," I apologize to whoever the people are under the covers, and a brown-headed girl pops her head out from the covers. She turns to me and I recognize her immediately, "Maya?" I ask and her eyes widen as she pulls the covers up rather quickly on not only her but whoever is beside her. I guess she and Jordy are definitely not exclusive.

The door swings open from behind me almost hitting me in the process causing me to step back quickly. I see a very angry Jordy enter the room before shutting the door behind her and my lips part slightly. I look at Maya whose face seems to turn red.

"And you were upset with me for not wanting to date you hm?" Jordy says sarcastically causing my eyes to snap to her, and I look to Maya who has tears filling her eyes.

"No-I-I only did this because you wouldn't date me," her weak voice says and I see Jordy rubbing her chin harshly as anger radiates off of her.

"Sure Maya make this my fault," she laughs out bitterly as her fingers brush through her light curls harshly, and Maya scoffs.

"You wouldn't even touch me Jordy," she says bitterly and my eyes widen, and I notice Jordy's do as well.

"Well looks like you found someone to do that for you huh?" she bites back before walking past me closer to the bed, and Maya's eyes widen in fear. "Who is the lucky person anyway?" she asks as she pulls the white covers.

"No do-"

Maya goes to say but Jordy's already lifted the covers back to reveal a pair of familiar blue eyes. My heart drops, and I want to throw up all those shots I took.

"Alex?"