" Throw her into the water " Falcone said.

I instantly knew I was dead, I was tied, I didn't know how to swim, I was dead anyway, and I didn't care, for me it was better than living without James, maybe it was the only way to be with him so I accepted my fate.

My biggest fear in life was that I die without fullfilling my ambitions, but I had the world at my feet, I've seen love and succeess, and that was enough for me.

" I'm satisfied God, I have had my enough " these were my last words before hitting the water.

The water was freezing cold, I hoped that the hypothermia would kill me before the suffocation.

In the water, I kept thinking about my family, how would they react? How would they adjust to life without me? Would they forgive me?!!! Would they blame me?!!!

They have had enough losses in their lives, I didn't want them to go through my loss too.

I was a source of pride for them, now I would be a source of grief.

I kept thinking about my mother and how my death would affect her, I knew that the mother can never get over the death of a child till her dying day.

I kept imaginging her weeping over my grave.

I knew that she would act tough, but her heart would be torn apart.

I remebered shahd, my little sister, I was her only rock, her role model,

I wanted to chose her wedding dress with her, I wanted to be standing next to her on her wedding day.

I wanted to be a cool aunt for her children, but I wouldn't.

I kept remebering my grandma, she was already sick, she was in a wheelchair.

My loss would probably kill her.

And Hassan, my brother, the one that changed for me, I hoped that my death wouldn't have the same effect my father's death had on him.

The I remebered what they told us in medical School that drowning is one of the worst ways to die because of the pain and the agony the person faces before death.

I Hoped that my death would make up for my sins. I prayed that God makes it quick.

All that didn't take a minute, but for me it felt like an eternity.

It is true what they say about what a dying person sees before his death, my life flashed before my eyes.

After five minutes, I started to feel the effect of hypoxia on my body, my vision became blurry, and I kept going in and out of consciousness.

I was waiting anxiously for my demise to happen, the one that I was satisfied to meet.

I started feeling the water entering my respiratory system through my nose, it burnt as it did.

It was like being squeezed between two walls and the space I was in was getting more and more constricted by the second.

With every trial of inhalation, more water was sucked in through my nostrils, I tried to stop inhaling, but it was my body acting against me.

It wasn't the first time for me to experience that horrible feeling, it reminded me of when my brother wanted to strangle me.

That sense of helplessness that you couldn't even have control over your body was petrifying.

The pain kept getting worse, first it was in my chest, it was like sombody forcing a sword down my throat. Then it was in my whole body, it felt like every single cell in my body hurt.

The pain was like an explosion that tore my body apart, but the worst part about it, that my body was still intact. Those who die in explosions experience that pain once but I had to go through this pain for a thousand more times before I black out.

The lack of oxygen caused my body to go into severe cramps.

After a moment or two, the cramps stopped, and the pain was gone, that wasn't a good sign at all, I knew that my death was moments away.

I wanted to take a final look at the world before departing it, so I opened my eyes, as it kept getting darker and darker every moment, until everything went jet black.

With my final glimpse of this world I heard a familiar voice shouting

" Jannah!!!!! "

After the fake shooting, me and Matt, we jumped into one of the helicopters owned by the wayne enterprises, heading towards the spot wher Jannah was being held captive in the eastern forest.

We were informed of Jannah's place by the police.

I wanted to get there in no time, because I was betting Jannah's life this time not mine.

If anything bad happens to her, I would probably kill myself.

She was the only reason why I kept battling this life.

As soon as we have reached the lake, I junped out of the helicopter searching for her. The police were already there.

" Where is she?" I asked the first police officer I came across.

He didn't answer, he just looked down in sorrow.

" Where is she? " I shouted at him this time.

" We don't know yet, Mr Wayne " he answered.

" What do you mean you don't know? I've gone through all this so you could capture Falcone easily!!! " I shouted at him, taking him by the collar this time.

" Mr Wayne, we are doing our best " he said.

I let him go, and I went to find someone else to give me an answer.

In one of the police cars, I saw Falcone and his men handcuffed, so I ran to ask him about Jannah.

" Where is she Falcone? Where is She? " I wanted to get to him through the car window, but one of the officers stopped me.

Falcone just smiled devilishly at me

" You won the land, you don't have to win everything " he said.

" She is all I have Falcone!!! Where is She? " I shouted at him.

" Then you have lost everything " he said, pointing at the lake direction.

My worst fear came true, they threw her in the water, in that freezing tempreture.

I ran to the lake, and jumped in after taking off my jacket and my shirt.

I couldn't see her at first, so I got my head out of the water, and shouted at Matt.

" I can't find her matt, I can't find her "

" There is a piece of cloth floating up there sir head in that direction " Matt said, pointing to the other side of the lake.

I swam to the spot where the cloth was floating, shouting " Jannah, hold on... I'm here.... Jannah "

After searching for a minute or two, I found her lying at the bottom of the shallow lake, l dove deeper and grabbed her arm.

I swam with her arm around my neck until we reached the shore, then I carried her and put her on the land.

Matt was waiting for me there.

She was completely unconscious.

" Jannah.. Jannah... wake up... Come on.. wake up... I'm here.. Jannah, Jannah " I said, but it was hopeless.

Matt kept checking her pulse, and breathing.

" James, she is not breathing, she needs CPR " he said.

I was well trained on CPR, so I began performing chest compressions on her.

" Come on girl...stay with me...Come on " I kept saying, " We have a new story to write together....don't you dare wake out on me like this.. don't you dare "

Time stopped for me, it was just me and her in this world, I didn't know how much time has passed, or for how long I kept trying to bring her back, but one moment, I felt matt's hand on my arm.

" Let her go in peace James, it has been 20 minute, Let her go sir " he said, looking into my eyes.

" No, I won't stop, if I let her go I let myself go " I screamed in his face, snatching my arm.

" Mr Wayne, don't make this more painful than it already is, you have been doing this for 20 minute, and she had been in the water for God only knows how long, It's her time, let her go sir " he kept begging me.

Deep down I knew he was speaking the truth, I had no hope, my only hope was a miracle, and the time of miracles is gone.

I stopped CPR for a moment, and I looked at her lifeless body. She looked like a sleeping angle, a sleeping angle that I killed.

" It's all because of that stupid Plan, I should have given him the land, It's my fault... It's my fault " I kept blaming myself.

I looked at her one last time, she looked pale, her face had no blood, her lips were blue, but she had a peaceful expression on her face, it looked as if she surrendered to her fate.

I saw my life in her face, my highschool years, her accident, my years without her, my accident, her forgetting about me, me forgetting about her, and then us falling for each other again.

It was as if we were distened to do that forever, we lose each other in the crowds and then somehow we find our way back to each other.

The I realized that I wasn't ready to let go yet, I couldn't do that more than ten years ago, I can't do that now.

" No, Matt, keep your f****** mouth shut!!! I didn't ask for your medical opinion, I won't lose Hope " I shouted at him.

I clenched my first, and hit her chest, once and twice, at the third time she inhaled.

" Come on Jannah... spit out the water.. Come on... breath... Keep fighting it... That's my girl... That's my girl" I kept saying.

She moved her head, and kept coughing the water out, she was struggling to inhale.

" Hay... you are back... you are back, It's okay.. It's gonna be okay.. I'm here.. I'm here for you" I said trying to reassure her.

" Oh God......Thank God you didn't listen to me " Matt said happily.

Jannah seemed really weak, that it was hard for her to keep her eyes open.

I touched her hand and she was shivering.

I remebered that my shirt and my jacket were dry, so I wrapped her in them.

" You are a fighter Jannah " I whispered into her ear as She was lying in my arms.

Then I looked at Matt and said,

" She needs the hospital right now!!!! "