《The Choice Of Us》Barely Holding On
Advertisement
TIANA
She walked around the shop, a carefree air swimming around her body in waves as she catered to each customers' needs, and I sat in the kitchen annoyed.
The fatigue was killing me.
It felt like I had an added weight pulling my limbs to the ground.
But I only brought this torture upon myself when I knew I had the power to escape it. . .
But now it was just too complicated.
For some time I began feeling only shame for knowing I had succumbed to my desire of him, allowed his tactics to overwhelm me and cloud my judgement. I felt guilty for paying more attention to him as opposed to my own brother.
Why had I let things go so far?
I kept asking myself that question and that dream has only been haunting me even more with each passing night and as a result I've been avoiding sleep altogether. Needless to say- its been taking a toll on me. My body felt heavier, more sluggish than usual. And I had been ignoring most people's calls as I slipped further into a dreary dark world that's settled comfortably inside my head.
If it hadn't been for the woman who gave me life, I would have been hidden under the covers fighting only to fall prey to the seductive sway of sleep's hips if she hadn't barged into my apartment.
I felt entangled in a tug of war between wanting to be with him and genuine guilt. I hate to admit it- but I felt like being with Luis, accepting him in my life was my way of turning my back on Tim.
"Stop doing that," my mother chided causing me to look at her as she came and leaned against the counter glaring at me. I shifted around uncomfortably in my seat gazing at the woman before me who never ceased to amaze me.
Advertisement
"I think I have a right to drown myself in my thoughts since you made me come here against my will, ma," I mumbled lowly recalling the way she threatened to drag me by my two front teeth.
She scoffed taking a few steps towards me only stopping a few inches in front of me due to the counter separating us. And amidst the emotions I saw playing behind her eyes, there was not one ounce of remorse it seemed for what she did.
"Was that your attempt to make me feel terrible?"
Maybe.
"Because if it was then just know that between the both of us," she gestured between our bodies," you should feel like shit for the way you've been acting."
"Bu--"
"But nothing! Now I have been patient," she snapped and the rise in her voice made me sink back in my seat. And for the first time in a long time I had nothing to say and snapped my mouth shut at her tone. She hardly raised her voice at anyone but when she did, the earth shook with every word that slipped out of her lips due to the unhinged rage.
"What happened with you and that boy?"
I didn't want to talk about it.
"Nothing," I replied keeping my eyes trained on the surface of the counter, finding the bowls more fascinating than to see the look on her face.
"I've tolerated a lot of things in this life, T," she said and not long after she said that her fingers were under my chin lifting up my head to find her looking at me," but lying isn't one of them. Now I know something happened because anytime he's around you do everything in your power to vacate the room. A stark contrast if you ask me compared to the other time you were both all cosy in the shop in front of everybody."
Advertisement
Why does everybody keep bringing that up?
The silence invaded the room and she eventually let go of my chin to release a shaky breath frowning.
"It's not a mother's wish to bury their child. . . ever," her voice came out softer and I looked at her perplexed to find a sadness painted across her face and without much thought I reached out to grab her hand. I didn't know what to say and with the noise around us fading away into this moment of the pain we both felt I chose not to say anything...
She moved back silently and tugged my hand, I stood up as well wondering what she was thinking before she turned to Janet who walked into the kitchen and said," Just close up the shop later on. I'm heading out."
Opening my mouth to ask she quickly cut me off before I had the chance to say anything and said," Come on."
***
The car came to a halt leading my heart to drop in my stomach at the sight of tombstones poking out of the ground telling tales of lives lost. Lives robbed by death whose figure is made in the fabric of malignance reminding us of the downside in this world.
Turning in my seat feeling my clammy hands shake, my mother leaned against her seat and gave me a blank look.
"Take me home," I whispered feeling the emotions clog up at the fact I wasn't in the frame of mind for this.
"No," she replied keeping her expression neutral and I nearly wanted to open the door and run.
Run away from this place knowing this was his resting place.
If it hadn't been for my mother's next set of words I'm sure I would have bolted from the car," If you keep avoiding it, the problem won't go away . . . it'll only grow in size. Manifest itself into your life poisoning anything good that is meant for you, love," she mumbled reaching out to wipe the tears I had no clue had fallen in the first place.
"I'm not ready."
"Yes you are."
"I feel ashamed to face him, ma. Ashamed t-to confess. . . I lost the one part of him that I still had and worse, I-I allowed one of them into my life," I felt my body shake in anguish. Felt the tempestuous emotions cause the internal battle to increase only to destroy everything in its path inside me. She rubbed my back gently pulling me in to soak in her warmth that worked wonders to calm me from falling off bicycles to dealing with broken hearts.
"Tim has never been one to be like that. Never been one to be incapable of understanding that one can't help what happens to them. Life will never align itself with our plans. And it's time you face the fact that you need to see him. How long will you keep allowing the past to stop you from being able to be happy and let's face it. . . get a good nights sleep," she mumbled lowly and each word hit me. The truth coming in full force at the fact I had to stop running away if not for anyone else. . .
But for me.
Swallowing hard I opened the door, each step towards the specific tombstone felt like I was walking closer towards my doom.
Please may I somehow find the strength to survive this. And in the end get closure
Advertisement
Eventually Yours
A younger sister cannot wed before an older sister.It's a law of their society, a rule vehemently obeyed by prominent families in the nobility, and it's always been Ella Harrington's buffer. Ella has never been interested in marrying for anything short of love itself. Unfortunately for her, love is a rarity in the marriages of the aristocracy. Fortunately for her, her sister Emily is precisely one year older than her and is the most unpleasant, disagreeable, sulking woman to ever debut in all of England. So Ella may never have to marry at all.A free woman, she enjoys her time on the sidelines and wishes for nothing more. That is, until a tall, dark, and brooding Duke comes to town alongside an old friend of her brother's. Suddenly, Ella finds herself questioning the antiquated marriage order rule as her buffer begins to feel more like a barrier. Not that it matters. The Duke isn't interested in her anyway.Right?
8 113Bound by Fate
The fate of a not so human king and a definitely human girl became entangled in a single meeting.A teenage girl from the 21st century somehow ended up lost in a forest, only to get taken to a castle where everyone acted as if it were the medieval times.A king found his soul mate in a modern era human girl who he, by some miracle, managed to cross paths with.Will the King and the human girl survive their bound fates that were set in stone from the moment his eyes locked on hers?~Please do not steal anything.This was published for fun. Keep criticism to a minimum. Please. Hate comments are not nice when you are the one receiving them.~Started: 17 August 2019Finished: 8 July 2021
8 130The Wicked Rose
Rose Blythe Rockfeller jumped off a building and ended her life, but when she thought everything was over, she suddenly woke up in her bed, 13 years ago. ******** Rose was shamed, abandoned, and betrayed. She lost everything and everyone she loved, including her unborn baby. Swallowed by darkness and despair, she learned that death could be the only way out of her wretched life. Yet, when she thought it was all over, she was miraculously brought back in time. Back to the past where everything wasn't going downhill. Back to the life, she had always known to be full of flowers and sunshine. Along with time is change and Rose had indeed changed. Done were the days she was innocent and kind. They made her into someone she doesn't want. They made her into someone who thirsts for vengeance. They made her wicked. She has the knowledge of the future at her own disposal. She has the mistakes of the past to learn to. She has the chance of the present to act and bring about their downfall. But will she change the future when along with revenge came secrets to unravel, mistakes to amend, and truth to unfold? Will Rose be able to attain happiness when what she thought she knew...were all lies?
8 63No, we are just friends
Jake and I are destined to be friends but when life tkes an unexpected turn what should I do?
8 121My Invisible Wounds | ✔
At the end - 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒔 ! Being married to only son of billionaire is like dream come true... ZAYDEN HARLEY - The person who is prince and knight in the shinning armour of every other girls dream ends up being my husband. I'm someone whose existence isn't even acknowledged by my own family... My pains and sorrows are like invisible to them... I stay with my aunt - who probably has no heart cause she treats me like hell.! Like every other girl even I had dreams about my married life but all my dreams shattered and left me heart broken when I got to know that MY famous, handsome husband is attracted to another girl from my college. Yet again my pains were invisible to him! Call it a luck or fate, Alex - My husband's best friend, entered my life like an angel... He was very caring towards me and that's where the real story begins because for the very first time I saw jealousy in my husband's eyes! This story is about Harriet Granger. Is it jealously which she saw in Zayden Harley eyes? Will Zayden change for the sake of Harriet? Or will Harriet end up with Alex... Will this love triangle effect the brotherhood of Zayden and Alex? ~~ #1 in Collegestories [06 NOV, 2022]#1 in Shortstory [14 NOV, 2022]#1 in age-is-just-number [27 NOV, 2022]#2 in Romance [13 NOV, 2022]#2 in LAUGHTER [14 NOV , 2022]#2 in Billionaire [17 NOV, 2022]#4 in Arrogant [27 NOV, 2022] #6 in Collegestudent [12 NOV, 2022]#7 in Love [13 NOV, 2022]Needs Major Editing ( Under Editing)
8 222Four of Clubs
❝𝘊𝘖𝘕𝘎𝘙𝘈𝘛𝘜𝘓𝘈𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕𝘚. 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘏𝘈𝘝𝘌 𝘉𝘌𝘌𝘕 𝘈𝘊𝘊𝘌𝘗𝘛𝘌𝘋 𝘐𝘕𝘛𝘖 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘎𝘈𝘔𝘌. 𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙 𝘛𝘌𝘈𝘔 𝘕𝘈𝘔𝘌 𝘐𝘚: 𝘍𝘖𝘜𝘙 𝘖𝘍 𝘊𝘓𝘜𝘉𝘚.❞Everyone at Rutherford High is familiar with the elite and anonymous group known as The Seven. When they announce a competition to win five thousand dollars, an unlikely group of students decide to band together in an attempt to win it all. But they aren't the only ones with their eyes on the prize, and with every challenge seeming more absurd than the last, they'll be forced to question just how far they're willing to go to win- and why.Join the Four of Clubs in their journey of friendship, romance, and excitement as they learn to work together to decipher the riddles and comple the dares that get them one step closer to victory.𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐃 (𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝) - 𝟖/𝟑𝟏/𝟏𝟖𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐃 (𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐬) - 𝟏𝟐/𝟐𝟖/𝟏𝟗
8 124