edit: 4.20.21

as expected she came into the dining room, I sat at the head of the table as I watched her making her way into the seat.

"glad you could make it to dinner" I said hoping to get some conversation, she only just nodded before picking up the fork as she cut into the slice of meatloaf, "I would prefer if you speak" I continued with my hand on the glass of wine as I placed it close to my lips while I cocked my eyebrow staring at Ellie.

"I didn't know you had asked a question" she said with a blunt as she shoved the fork into her mouth before grabbing the glass of orange juice.

When did my daughter become so impudent?

"I really don't appreciate your attitude" I said placing my wine glass down on the table, "suddenly I lost my appetite, enjoy dinner, daddy dearest." she says with the unusual spoiled brat voice as she got out of her seat and pushed the chair into the table as she exited the dining room.

I placed my fork down, I was on the verge of wanting to yell at her for being disrespectful, but yelling isn't everything and it will only make her scared of me.

I miss my little girl, I reminisced on when we shared ice cream, maybe if I hadn't brought it up then we wouldn't be in this situation.

...I'm such an awful father, she's bound to know what a condom is so why not just tell her? maybe partly because I'm selfish to want her to stay little and innocent and have a free spirited mind.

I sighed as I finished my dinner then awhile later I went into my office and decided to catch up on some work related stuff.

I can't believe I just talked to him like that... I don't even know what's wrong with me, that should've been the perfect time to apologize but no my mouth ran faster than my mind could think, I changed into my nightgown as I went to brush my teeth after that I snuggled up into my bed.

By now my father would tuck me into bed but I deserve being isolated since I was being a spoiled brat, I even said 'daddy dearest' like I never done that before!

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My alarm went blaring into my ears as I slammed the alarm shut then I lazily got out of the bed as I went to grab some outfit, I brushed my teeth as I took my precious time to get ready even though I just didn't want to face my father after the incident...

I slowly made my way down the staircase, peeking to see if dad was at the foyer or not luckily he wasn't so I dragged myself towards the kitchen, maybe I can get Edmen to ride the bus?

I sighed as the thought of sitting in a very uncomfortable atmosphere...

Dreadfully making my way into the kitchen to my surprise I didn't see dad sitting at his usual spot..

I had finished my breakfast quickly then I looked at the time and it was 8:44 close to nine...

Then I saw dad standing in his blue three piece business suit, I still haven't gotten use to seeing him constantly dressed, but I just stared to the ground as I grabbed my backpack making my way to him.

"Let's go" He said as he grabs his keys, I buckled myself up as we drove to my school, I kept staring out the window as I thought that the trees passing by were by far interesting than encouraging in any conversation.

Finally my school came into view I quickly unbuckled my seatbelt then opened the door and shut it, before dad could say anything.

I scurried off to meet with Kyle, yeah such a crappy friend right now but Raevynn literally mistook my words.

The day seems to go by really slow, maybe cause I'm on edge, I walked into social studies then I saw Raevynn sitting in the front row, normally we sit in the back but I decided I wasn't going to start any fumes so I quietly sat in the back of the class as the teacher went on with the talk of George Washington and basically the study of American history.

The class seems to go by really slow, I decided to hurry out of the classroom once the bell rung, "Hey Eliana" I heard Avery say which I faced her, "Hey" I replied, "so how about that party my sister asked about" she says, oh shoot that completely slipped my mind, it's not like dad's gonna say yes to it after my attitude last night.

"oh my father said no" I replied sadly but I could care less, I was more fixated on fixing my relationship with Raevynn, especially the one with my father.

I don't even know how it all started, I said I hate him, I hope he doesn't like think too much of it, but he didn't give me my morning kiss so I guess he's hurting by that.

I'm so selfish, why did I just push it, I'm sure that my father didn't tell me for a certain reason, and I should trust him on that shouldn't I? But instead I didn't and now ruined our relationship.

gradually it came to lunch, "El why are you like zoning out?" I heard Kyle asking, "sorry I got in a big fight with my dad" I said sighing, "woah that's a first" he says picking up a sandwich to eat, "I know... it really is, I don't understand why I got ticked off he wouldn't tell me what a condom is" I explained, "El! When did you find a condom?" he exclaims, "it's kinda embarrassing, but I went snooping in my father's walk in closet and found packages of condoms so me being curious opened to see what is was, so yeah, then long story short I didn't pick up the wrapper and dad found it and yeah" I briefed which Kyle just bursted with laughter.

"I would not be comfortable seeing your dad after hearing that story" he says drinking his water, "Ky I know but it's not my fault he so happens to have a brown box on top of the shelf" I defended myself.

"hey so the situation between you and Raevynn, what's it about?" He questioned changing the topic.

"I don't even know, and quite frankly it's very stupid" I said to Kyle with a straight face, yep I just called Kyle stupid.

"well you all better make up because I'm tired of being a messenger" he says.

"sorry Ky, it's just Rae doesn't want to talk to me, I think it's all a misunderstanding" I said.

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School is finally over, I slowly unlocked my locker then grabbed my bag, I casually swing my backpack over me and I walked down the hallway and went up the 6th grade staircase then I proceeded to walk out of the school entrance, I was happy that me and Raevynn didn't speak to each other like if she had any other snide comments it would've burst my bubble.

Today I am determined to apologize to my father, I confidently walked over to his car, but I got a bit nervous so I played it off by opening the backseat door and placing my backpack in, then I casually made it to the front seat.

Dad was busy on his phone or something to notice I was here, "Dad" I said grabbing his attention, he glanced over at me, then he glanced away looking to the road now as he turns the car on and he drives out of the school parking lot.

I never felt that pain, he didn't even ask me how my day was or he didn't wait outside of his car.

I stared down at my lap as I played with my fingers, why can't he just yell at me or something because he is being too calm about the whole situation.

"Dad can't you yell at me? say something?" I pleaded, then I heard him clear his throat, "Why should I yell at you?" He questions as he turns on the left indicator, "because I was being disrespectful" I said, "And why were you being disrespectful?" He pressed on as he passed by a few cars, I looked to my lap again as I twiddled with my thumb, when I really thought about why I was being disrespectful I couldn't think of anything but the fact that Raevynn was being a big meanie, it added onto my fuel that dad asked me to answer him verbally, I mean like he didn't even ask a question so how am I suppose to know if he expected me to speak?

The ride back home was quiet since I couldn't think of any plausible answer, He parked in the garage then he turned the car off which I unbuckled myself, I went to the back and grabbed my backpack.

After that I entered the house not bothering to wait for him, I quickly went to grab a snack from the kitchen before turning towards the staircase.

However my dad called for me, "In my office now" he says using his authoritative voice.

I bit the inside of my cheek, I was nervous so I swiftly followed him into the office.

"Have a seat" he commands as he sits behind his big wooden desk pulling his swivel chair in as I sat across from him, staring at my lap as if somehow I could disappear from being in the office.

"Eliana do you understand why I asked you to come here?" He questions as he props his elbow on the desk with his hands folded boring his eyes into me.

"..yes" I replied, "then please enlighten me as to why you were being disrespectful" he says unfolding hands as he leans into his chair.

The way He says that is as if I'm his employee! it reminded me to the time when he was speaking rude to a person name Miss Hand, I don't remember much, but I do know he sounded scary.

I kept on staring at my lap, not bothering to answer.

"seeing as you can't seem to answer, you will be grounded for a week" he says which made me shot my head up as I stared at him in disbelief.

"you can't do that! I didn't do anything wrong" I protested as I clenched my fist.

"oh really, and why is that?" he challenges as he now sits straight on his swivel chair, placing his elbow on the desk.

"because - because you aren't my boss" I stood up from my seat as I said that.

"You're right I'm not your boss" he says taking a pause, "But I am your father." He continues, I bit my cheek, he just pulled out that trump card.

"well if you're my father stop treating me as if I'm your employee" I protests against him.

"employee? you think I'm treating you as my employee." He quizzes, which I swallowed, "If you want to know how I really treat my employee, then I'll show you tomorrow" he states as he unfolds his hands.

That's when I lost the battle, my dam broke as I felt tears running down my face, "n-no I'm sorry daddy I'm sorry I promise I won't be disrespectful please don't show me" I bawled as I face my head down.

Then I heard some movement and before I knew it he pulled me into his chest, I cried my eyes out as all the emotions from the fight with Raevynn and the tension between us, then he released me as he used two of his fingers to lift my chin, "Baby you understand I love you right?" He gently says as he wipes away my tears, I blinked and nodded.

"I'm.. I don't really hate you, I didn't mean to say it! I wasn't thinking" I rambled as I explained to him my situation.

he nodded his head as he removes his fingers from my chin before pulling me into another hug.

"baby I should've told you, but I promise when the time is right I'll answer your undying questions" he softly says stroking my hair.

"Daddy I didn't mean to be disrespectful, I didn't know you wanted a response from me..." I trailed off as I buried my face into his chest.

"I apologise for being demanding, I just wanted to hear your angelic voice" he says.

Then I released myself from him, "so I won't be grounded...?" I asked hoping he'd say no.

"well honey as much as I don't want to ground you, I have to, you need to learn to control your emotions" he replies, which I nodded not wanting to get into another argument again.

"now go do your homework" he says which I exited his office feeling a lot better than when I came in.

So I decided to do my math homework then English, after doing some homework's later, it was dinner.

this time dinner was more comfortable, I dished myself of the steak, things eventually went back to normal, I talked about school and how George Washington has a set of false teeth which is why when his photo was taken he didn't smile because the dentures hurt his mouth so yeah, then I moved onto talking about how in family Consumer Science that I had to do technical writing by explaining how to put peanut butter and jelly together, lots of kids failed because they didn't say 'open' or 'grab a knife' and all that I was the few who managed to make my sandwich!

Dad has been listening intently without interrupting me, it made me feel like the fight we had didn't really happen, because I felt at ease with him than before, I reminded myself that I would never go against him or try to put up a fight when I know I'll most definitely lose.

"that's amazing princess" he says as he takes a sip of his wine, I stared at it a bit curiously, I wonder what wine tastes like?

"hey dad" I said, which he 'mmh(ed)' in response, "why do you drink wine, and what does wine taste like?" I questioned.

"well, wine is like adult grape juice" he replies as he sets the glass of wine back onto the table, "dad can I try?" I asked giving him the innocent look and puppy eyes.

"I'm not sure if you'll like it, but sure you can try a little" he says as he hands me his glass.

I held onto the stem of the wine glass as I stared at him in disbelief, did my puppy eyes really work on him? unless he has another ulterior motive, "dad...you just gonna let me have a drink?" I asked in utter shock, "baby it's fine to try something new as long as an adult is present, now see if you like the wine" he says motioning for me to have a taste, I hesitatingly held the glass to my mouth expecting some sort of 'sike! You thought' kinda thing but he just continued to eat his food as he waited for my reaction so I inhaled as I had taken one sip and that sip alone I knew I would never ever drink wine again.

I practically spit the wine back into the glass, "that's nasty! Why would you drink such thing!" I said with my face wrinkled in disgust.

I heard him slightly chuckle before sighing, "there goes my wine" he says completely not faze by the fact I insulted his precious drink.

"dad are you okay? How can you like this?" I asked pushing the wine glass back to him, "like I said babe, it's an adult grape juice" he replies, "well remind me to never have wine or any form of alcohol again" I said, "I'll make sure to write that down" he says, I nodded confused at that remark but shrugged it off.

So dinner went by pleasantly, I went into the living room to catch up on my Bachelors' show, honestly I feel bad for the girls they must be desperate to want a man who literally is talking to other girls, like it reminds me of the book series called, 'The Selection' I think by the author of 'Kiera Cass'

anyways the bachelors on there are pretty hot, then a sudden idea came to me, "DAD" I hollered since dad was somewhere on the ground floor.

"Yes baby?" I heard him say as he steps out from the hallway that leads to his study room, "Are you single?" Was the first thing I asked him, obviously he is, because if he was taken he would've introduced me to them like I'm the only girl in his life that he should get an approval from, sure it sounds like a brat saying I control his love affair but I only want whats best for my daddy, for all we know that the woman he dates could be a lying gold digging bitch, pardon my French.

"Uh- why are you asking that suddenly?" he questions as he walks into the living room and now is standing near the tv but not quite since the its a big flat screen tv and it stands 5 feet above the ground so you can see it while laying down or in any position you wanna be.

"okay so you're single right?" I said confirming even though I knew it.

"where are you going with this?" he questions with a bit of caution to his voice, "So you know the bachelors" I began as I pointed to the screen which he followed my fingers, "yes it's your favourite series" he says returning his gaze back on me still perplexed as to why I'm asking such questions out of the blue, he's probably confused because A] I am never ever interested in love life, B] I never ask him such personal questions.

"well I was wondering why aren't you on the bachelors?" I question raising my eyebrow up to him, then his face holds a slight smile, "well?" I pressed on.

"because you're the only girl I' intend to look after" he says with sincerity.

I gave him a 'Oh really' look, Then he scratched the back of neck as he stood there awkwardly, "I've never really considered participating because the world already knows I'm a bachelor and being on the show doesn't really boost my image" he replies.

Before I could say anything he came and sat down next to me, "Besides I'm sure you get tired of seeing your dear old pops on the tv right?" He says amusingly which I couldn't help but let out a giggle and nod.

"I've got far important things in my life than to talk with different women" he continues which I slowly nod.

"now does that answer your questions?" He asks.

"I mean yeah, but dad you literally have every girls bowing at your feet! or I should say you have girls at your disposal" I tried to state my reason as to why he should be on the bachelors which he lets out a chuckle, "sadly that is true, but not every girl is out for my looks or best intuition instead its money" he says, "but dad you understand what I'm saying though right?" I said making sure he understood.

I saw him inhaling thinking about what I said before having his eyes land back on me, "El I think I understand, but just know that you're good enough for me" he says as he plants a kiss on my forehead, "ahem when did this turn into something so sappy?" I asked looking at him, "you know you're the best thing thats happened to me" He continues, I playfully rolled my eyes, "Okay okay dad leaveeee, I need to catch up on my bachelors now" I said motioning my arm to the threshold of the living room which he lets a soft chuckle as he got up from the sofa and bid me a farewell and told me that I need to be in bed by 9:30 which I nodded.

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I had gotten into my nightgown then I went to brush my teeth and did everything then to my disappointment mother flo decided to come...

I grabbed a pad that comes with wings and it lasts good for the night, to be honest I wish they made some sort of period diaper like it's kinda irritating when blood sleeps through onto your underwear, probably just me that it happens to...

I placed the wrapper onto the counter as I would use it to throw away the used pad.

After that I applied some night cream onto my face then I walked out of my bathroom and headed straight to my bed, I pulled the covers over me as I set my alarm for 6:30 am.

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I had awaken a few minute before my alarm went off so I shut my eyes closed and then it went crazy so I slammed it shut, really thought I could sleep for a few minutes but nah the alarm didn't want that.

I changed into a new set of clothes, I put on some sports adidas sweatpants then one of dad's hoodies that came down to my butt which made my butt warm so when it was windy I wouldn't get shivers, underneath the hoodie I wore a black cameo with a blue crop top.

Knowing dad he would never let me show skin unless it was swimming but even then he rarely wants me to show skin ESPECIALLY in public.

So I just swam in our pool but it was boring since it was just me and dad is always busy, I should ask him if we could go to the beach this weekend.