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It wasn't even the first time I had seen something like this.

It's not uncommon for fans to perform something special for their favorite singers in the middle of a concert.

I have witnessed them requesting me to attend concerts for data about three or four times.

But they had never before made a special impression on me.

It's amazing that so many people collaborate and do it at the right time, even if they don't get paid for it.

But this… was a completely different experience because I was one of the targets.

It was possible to confirm that each of the countless lights waving in the stadium represented a person's feelings.

This overwhelming sense of sharing his most sincere emotions felt directed towards me, not as if I was a stranger watching him from afar.

…I don't know what to say.

— ...

Meanwhile, the singing continued.

…They just sang the verse that belonged to me.

I felt an unimaginable sensation run from my head to the balls of my feet as if hot water had been poured on me.

— ...Huh.

I quickly bowed my head and felt a little better when I turned my eyes away from the audience.

But at the same time, he wanted to pick it up again so he could see more.

"...It's crazy."

I feel like I'm being ridiculous.

I still heard the constant singing in my ears.

I feel very well today

I think something good will happen

Also, some of my classmates were also singing.

The first to do so was Keun SeJin.

— ...With you, everything will be fine~

It was moving to hear his voice tremble for each person who accompanied him singing his verse.

— Li-life is strange, I can take light steps...

Rapping by Kim RaeBin followed, who sobbed a little while doing so.

And soon my part came.

"...I'm going crazy."

First I picked up the microphone.

— ...If you look at me…

…I messed up an entire verse. I couldn't sing at the right time.

"Dammit."

I gritted my teeth. As my strange silence dragged on, I caught everyone's attention.

— ...MoonDae?

— Mo-MoonDae-ya?

— You're crying?

Scene of Moondae crying

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Suddenly, I felt someone put his hand on my shoulder and soft pats on my neck and back. Among the voices of the singing fans, I could hear some stunned exclamations.

— ...Oh my God.

I brought one of my hands up to my face to press and wipe my eyes. Then I raised my head and looked around as calmly as possible.

Most of the boys had red eyes.

But even though their eyes were glassy… none had shed tears.

Not even Bae Sejin had cried.

"Oh shit."

I'm the only one… Am I the only one who became a freak?

— Aigo… Good heavens.

— MoonDae is like this...

The guys around me laughed a bit and, luckily, started crying in earnest. It was clear that they had been holding back up to this point.

— ...Let's finish it well.

Drunk in the atmosphere, we all ended up hugging each other tightly, taking turns resting our heads on each other's shoulders. I felt it was too hot.

I don't know if hugging my fellows was suffocating or if the situation itself was very suffocating.

— Oh God…

— Don't Cry.

— Everything will be fine.

As the instrumental of the song flowed, instead of the fans singing, all kinds of worried cries reached my ears.

— Hah.

When Keun SeJin released me from the embrace, he ran to the side and hurried back to pull a cloth over my face.

Without thinking, I grabbed it and pressed it against my face.

Until I realized that it showed navy blue letters on a light purple background.

…It was a slogan.

Apparently someone had thrown it onto the stage.

"I'm going crazy."

I had just buried my head in it. Sure I must have looked very, no, too funny.

Someone roughly patted my hair.

— You did it well.

Before the fansong ended, I was guided by my fellow members to the front of the stage. Then we all lined up holding hands and bowed to thank the fans.

Instead of singing, the screams echoed in my head.

I staggered and picked up the microphone.

— ...Yes, you are the magic.

Fortunately, I was able to sing the last phrase somehow.

After the fan event disguised as a talk ended, I said a few words before walking off the stage.

Only then did I stop feeling so suffocated.

"...I should have been like this five minutes ago."

It was too strange.

I never imagined that the first time I would cry after almost seven years would be live in front of approximately 13,000 people, being recorded by different cameras.

"...I shouldn't have avoided checking social media."

It would have been better if I had known in advance, but I didn't go online for a week under the agreement not to be affected before the concert.

It wasn't an activity I needed to do every day, so I thought it was okay not to do it.

"But I didn't know... that they were secretly planning to do this."

I will not unnecessarily disconnect from the internet for the rest of my life.

I almost crumpled the slogan in my hands, but managed to fold it neatly and put it on a chair.

— Ya, I really wasn't expecting that. You didn't cry even when you won first place at Icorpo.

— He was born to be an idol. He only cries for the love of the fans…

— Stop.

When they started talking about me crying, I shut them up. SeJin gave a big smile and finished changing her outfit.

— A-are you okay?

— ...I'm fine now.

He was really worried, so I couldn't get mad at him.

Seon AhHyun was moved, but he didn't cry much, so the makeup on his face wasn't affected much and the staff was relieved.

On the contrary, Bae Sejin cried after coming off the stage, the staff was embarrassed to see him like this.

— ...How are you, hyung?

— I-I'm fine.

As soon as he stopped crying, Sejin was put on makeup by the staff.

— We don't have much time left, we have to go.

Ryu CheongWoo, who cried but quickly pulled himself together, reminded us of the time. Cha YooJin, who didn't cry at all but looked emotional, was next to him as he finished dressing.

— Go, go!

…Yes. It's time to go.

The long-awaited performance of the new album's title track had arrived.

In 50 seconds the VCR will end!

We all ran to the waiting area.

The decorations have probably already been placed in the middle of the stage, taking advantage of the fact that the lights were off.

I remembered the scene of the conti.

[ : Conti is the composition of the drawn scenario, like a storyboard. This term is used in Korea to refer to all the script guide drawings before shooting movies, dramas, advertising videos, and even cartoons. Example of the MV conti below ]

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An old abandoned mansion, dusty figurines, stuffed butterfly specimens and rusty cages.

And the clockwork behind my back.

— We're going up!

We began to rise, and when they saw our heads go up through the open floor of the stage, people started waving their lightsticks and cheering loudly as if they were roaring.

— AAAAAAAAAAH!!

But this was no time to be overwhelmed. It's time to get rid of all emotions and refocus.

A blue light illuminated the stage.

TeSTAR was in line, each one in their positions to start the presentation.

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— Huuuh…

It was the night of the 31st, after the end of the two days of the TeSTAR concert.

The master of Park MoonDae's first fansite staggered away as she held his bag, which contained his camera with which she had completed his filming mission while standing near the stage.

She was exhausted because on both days he took many photos and videos, cried a lot, and even stood for several hours to enjoy the performances up close.

But she did not regret it. She had no regrets at all!!

"Because he was so good..."

From start to finish, there was nothing to disappoint her.

Not only was it good to see him do his best, but the performances themselves were so much fun and great.

She felt as if for a moment she had been in a different world.

"It's a pity that it only lasted two days...!"

She wanted them to keep doing it for two more days.

Even though she had just finished the concert, she already missed seeing TeSTAR live, in front of her.

Unable to control her heavy heart, she grabbed her phone and took photos of her camera screen showing some of the photos she had taken at the concert, then uploaded them to her social media, although the quality of the shots with her phone's camera were bad.

The master felt her heart ache every time she saw the first attached photo.

It showed Park MoonDae holding the slogan tightly in his hands and trying to hold back his tears with his head slightly lowered.

It was so shocking that she felt as if she had received a strong blow to the inside of his chest.

"My son is really an angel Puppy..."

MoonDae also ended up crying on the second day of the concert.

The fans prepared a different event than the first day, which consisted of throwing paper airplanes into the air while TeSTAR sang the fansong.

Obviously TeSTAR was once again overwhelmed by the astonishing sight of over ten thousand colorful paper planes floating around the stadium.

The boys came to collect some of the planes that had arrived on stage and when they opened them to check the content...

— Thi-this is…

— Wait, oh…

— ...

Fans had written everything they wanted to tell them on every folded sheet of paper on a plane.

It was a brutally moving event.

It made several of the members cry and the master was able to take the photo that she had attached in her preview post.

And Park MoonDae… although he seemed to be the least likely to cry, he was the one who shed the most tears.

The cascade of tears from the person who only smiled and didn't cry when his group won awards at music shows, year-end ceremonies, and even when he won first place for Icorpo, were tremendously powerful and destructive.

On the first day, not only the fans but also the various communities were turned upside down.

Did crazy Gommer cry too?

He did not shed simple tears, his crying is on another level (photo)

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L It's true. Wow she was overflowing with tears

Hahahaha I thought he wouldn't cry because he didn't even when he won big prizes, but this time he got so emotional that he just collapsed in the middle of the concert

L Hiiiik, he looks like a pervert (when he covers his mouth with his hands)

L he was smiling, I noticed when he brushed his hand away from him.

L How do you know?

If he cried at both concerts, then I should buy the VOD. I need to see him cry in HD

L Hahahahahahahahahahaha you're right

All of Islar wept. I would also cry if my first concert was at the Gymnastics Arena

L Shitty aggros is too twisted. I also think that it is something very precious and shocking for him to be in that place after having grown up being rejected by society until before his debut.

L If he wasn't talented, he would have been removed from that show and we wouldn't know him

It's good to see an idol like Gommer wearing a pink headband and acting like he's cute ♡♡ Islar is doing very well because even if it chooses a ridiculous song for a dog, he's able to revive it ♡♡ After seeing him cry a lot, I already I feel like a fan of Gommer ♡♡

L Hahahahahahaha you are an akgae

[ : Akgae are the malicious, stalking individual fans. They have a sick mentality capable of harming their favorite member of the group by possessing it.

By the way, "Islar" was the morphed name of "TeSTAR" invented by aggros to avoid being easily found in searches. ]

Anyway, everything TeSTAR did at their concert was quickly shared in various places, from communities where there were users who make up gossip and whose rude words come and go, to accounts of fans who are respectful and have common sense.

It was normal to find all kinds of gossip about the sub-unit performances, the unconventional performance of the new song, and the crying of the members.

Proof of this was that Master's MoonDae Preview post easily surpassed 1,000 shares in less than five minutes after being posted.

The responses from his followers were also very good.

Blonde MoonDae is very valuable, protect him

SO CUTE ♡

Aigo, our Puppy cried again ㅠㅠ Thank you so much, Full Moon-nim!

His real skin color is beautiful, too. STOP whitewashing (crying emoji)

L This is a preview of the photos he has taken without editing. Get out of here, crazy woman who sees whitewashing in everything

[ : "Whitewashing" in the movies refers to the hiring of white actors to play characters of other ethnicities, but in K-POP this word is used to refer to the whitening of idols' skin in photographs and MV's thanks to the edition. ]

Gradually foreign fans joined and even aggro comments appeared in another language.

"They want to fight all the fansite masters."

But since it was already something she had known for a long time, the master ignored them and hurriedly boarded the subway that had just arrived.

“Oh, there are so many people…”

The first day she had returned comfortable since she met a friend who offered to take her to her house with her car, but this time it was impossible for that coincidence to happen again.

“I should have taken a taxi back or rented a hotel room!”

But just as she was about to regret it, luckily someone stood up and cleared her seat in front of her, she prepared to sit down.

"It's a relief."

As soon as the master sat down, she grabbed the camera from her and started going through the latest pictures of her because she couldn't stop thinking about the new song performance.

"It's really amazing."

She didn't know what kind of performance they would do, but she was very grateful that they showed it to her!

Since the first impact is important, there was an atmosphere that implicitly forbade spoilers of the new song through fancams or photos until after midnight, but honestly, she really wanted to show off her data.

"I have to see it again."

Just as she was about to rewatch the fancam she filmed less than an hour ago, she suddenly felt something vibrate near her at her knees.

Durururu-

It was her phone.

When she turned it on to check the notifications… some unexpected news came out!

It was a notification from W Live!