Camille didn’t take kindly to seeing Alec and Magnus kissing in the hall way so she told her friends that Magnus was gay and that was why he kept rejecting her. Rumors started flying and before they left for home that day it reached Magnus. Alec saw how scared Magnus was when he heard what people were saying. He knew Alec was out and proud and that no one bullied him. They lived in a very excepting community. And the people talking about Magnus being gay were not saying bad things about him just that they didn’t expect one of their jocks to be a homosexual.

Magnus didn’t go home after school in their town there was an abandoned mansion that people thought was haunted so he had gone there. He always went there when he wanted to be alone there was only one person who knew he frequented that place so he was sure not to be disturbed.

Alec called Magnus’s phone after he saw him ran out of school but no matter how many times he kept calling Magnus wouldn’t pick up and that was worrying him. He knew it was his fault Magnus was outed in the first place. Magnus looked at his ringing phone from where he was sat on the window still. He saw Alec caller id and there picture pop up on the screen before it stopped buzzing and the phone went quit. And just a moment later do the same thing all over again.

Alec was really starting to worry when Magnus didn’t answer his phone for almost an hour he started wondering where he was. He went over to his place but didn’t see Magnus’s car in there drive way so he concluded he wasn’t there and started to wonder around town. He went to the seven eleven near Magnus’s house and bought some snacks because he knew Magnus stress ate. When he walked out of the store he saw the abandoned mansion on a mountain top nearby and knew Magnus was there. Cursing himself for not realizing it sooner Alec got in his car and drove to the mansion.

Alec walked into the mansion carrying the bags of snacks. The second the door opened he could smell cigarette smoke. With a sigh he walked around till he found Magnus sitting on the window smoking. He sat down by Magnus’s feet and put down the bags beside him. It was starting to get dark and the only light was from the table lamp near them. The house was cold since most of its windows and doors were broken.

After a while Magnus put out his cigarette and sat next to Alec. He silently took out a bag of chips from the bag near Alec and started eating; he offered some to Alec and Alec took some chips with a soft smile. They sat there side by side eating. Not a single word was exchanged between them as they sat there for a long time. Alec never really like darkness so when the room started getting swallowed by darkness he put the torch on his phone on.

“c-can you t-turn that off?” Magnus said squinting. Alec turned it off and unconsciously scooted towards Magnus. Magnus took out another cigarette and was about to light it when Alec took it from where it sat between his lips.

“As a person who tasted how divine your lips are I can’t see this cancer stick between them” Alec said splitting the cigarette into two and throwing the insides away he then made a ring out of the paper and put it on the ground between them.

“I’m sorry I kissed you in school” Alec whispered a while later

“I… I don’t want to talk about it” Magnus muttered looking away from him. He took out another smoke and Alec took that one too he then took the pack from his hand.

“Alexander give it back” Magnus said a little irritated.

“I won’t. I can’t keep watching you hurt yourself” Alec replied firmly

“I need something. I need something to distract me from what’s wrong with me” Magnus said desperately. He started tugging on his hair till Alec grabbed his hands and pulled them away from his hair.

“You need a distraction right? Then let me distract you” Alec said and kissed him softly but before Alec could really taste magus’s lips Magnus pushed him away and stood up.

“I want a distraction from this. From what I want to do to you and what I want you to do to me!” Magnus said pacing in front of Alec.

“Magnus” Alec said softly

“DON’T” Magnus barked at him

“Don’t use that voice. Don’t make me weak. I need to stop feeling like this.” Magnus said a little desperately

“Like what?” Alec asked confused

“you remember what you said before kissing me earlier about having someone so close yet so far away well that’s what I feel but instead of my hand going through smoke when I try to touch you I feel like my blood in boiling in my veins, like my skin is too tight for my body, like I’m poisoned and dying” Magnus spoke

“I told you I’m sick Alexander. Let me get better please” he pleaded tears streaming down his face

“What do you want me to do? Leave you?” Alec asked

“Yes. I need you to leave me alone so I can get better. So I can be me again” Magnus spoke

“But I can’t. I can’t leave you alone” Alec screamed standing up

“And why is that?” Magnus asked

“Because I fucking love you!” Alec said with a higher voice than normal and Magnus froze

“I love you god dam it” he added weakly

“W-well… I d-don’t love y-you” Magnus stuttered out

“Magnus…?” Alec said in a small hurt voice

“Leave me alone Alexander. I want to be cured. Go infect someone else” Magnus said firmly and Alec’s blood turned cold, tears streamed down his face and his heart broke into a million pieces. He walked out of the abandoned mansion leaving behind the pieces of his heart and the love of his life.