Okay i know i said i will make something but i have to say something.

Things in my life are getting worse and more problems are making me feel miserable and stressed than usual.. i can't hide behind someone and wait for the problems to dissapeard for their own.

I need time to calm myself and solve my own problems with my hands. I'm glad that i have people who like my content and that i can make someone happy with my stupid ideas.

And i'm not talking about only this book i mean every story i made. I can't continue doing something that doesn't make me feel happy when i'm feeling like shit.

I have been happy this months doing what i like but this time the things change with the time you know?.

You can't force youself to be happy while the problems are still there to make you fall and feel even worse than what you think.

All my hope that i had so i won't become like this is gone everything i do for continue being a normal person is gone.

I don't wanna be associated with this right now. I don't like being like this..

Because i only keep doing promises that i can't do.. i'm not a machine who can always do something and not get tired or frustated.

I want to change.. i want to be someone better in my life. I want to stand up by myself and forget about the past and this.

I never want this feelings to come right now. But.. the things come because of a reason right?..

I have always feel resentment for everything in my way. I don't wanna be like this. I don't wanna be a weird in the eyes of everyone.

I never care about what people think about me but now.. i feel guilt because what i have done to many people who i love.

The things i have done don't have a forgiveness and i know that.

Everyone who i hurt know that i'm like this. I know isn't that simple to forget someone about what they do to you..

How easily i left them in that conditions for their own. Me being the only one they trust and care.

I didn't love them as they do.. they never quit and leave me.. but i did.

I feel now what they feel.. i'm trying to be a better person for my friend.. the only friend i have now.

I want to see her happy. I don't want to see her broke like me..

I don't even get it until know.. how i was in the past.

I'm still trying to comfort myself that. That was in the past but is not that easy to forget when the scar is still there. Hurting you and feeling what the others feel.

Everyone who i know still think that i'm a Bad person. And i'm not gonna judge them.. it's the true i was like that before.

I always make them fall to my lies just to "protect" them but i was just hurting them even more than what i thought..

I don't want you guys to think i forget about this. I don't i'm just.. tired about all of this.

I just want to say something before i leave..

I won't lie this time. I'm gonna come back better than now. I will be a better person withouth any problems.. i don't know when but i'm gonna be here as soon as you think.

I know i'm not the Best person who you can meet but.. know i'm trying to be a better person!

I'm happy that you still read my stories even if they are trash for me.. i appreciate your words and that you guys are happy with what i do.

I don't wish to someone to feel this guilt and pain that i have right now.. i wish that everyone have a good day , afternoon , night.. i want you.. yes you person who is reading this in a phone , tablet or computer

Don't make the sames mistakes that me. Don't make things that you can regret..

I hope that still i can make you happy with my content.

I just need to take some time to do all of this.

I don't know when i'm gonna come back but.. i'm gonna come back as soon you think.

I promise.. just be patiente :).