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I laid there in recovery girl's hospital, my mind was blurry and foggy. Tears slowly trickled down my face, I felt so useless sitting here while my classmates worked hard on training to become a hero. I felt guilty for taking up everyone's time when in the end I was going to die anyway. I looked down and took out my notebook again for the last time.

I was done causing pain to everyone I loved, at least actively.

I turned to a fresh page and began to write. As I did, hot tears rolled down my face. I felt so weak. I felt like I had disappointed everyone I cared about. I took a deep breath before finishing up my letter to Mina, Kirishima, and one for the class as a whole.

Turning my head, I looked to see what time it was, it was 2:15, almost time for class to be over at 3. I took out all the notes I had written and tucked them carefully under my pillow.

As I looked at the ones I'd written to Kirishima and Bakugou, I felt the flowers piling up in my throat. But instead of coughing, I just held them back and smiled sadly. Tears rolling off my cheeks and onto the notes.

"I'll love you....always and forever..." I murmured ever so softly.

I checked the clock on the wall again and sighed. Only thirty more minutes to do this.

But...

How would I do this? Cutting? No, too painful. Medicine? Maybe but Recovery girl kept everything under lock and key. My eyes looked up at the ceiling and I smiled softly.

I always did wonder what it would be like to fly.

I slowly stood and took the IVs out of my arms and slowly made my way out of the nurse's office and down the halls of UA. I took my time, my classmates wouldn't find me in time, I knew that already.

As I walked through the halls, I thought back to all the memories I had of my friends. I remembered the time when I mouthed off to Bakugou on the school bus. I remembered when Kirishima protected Bakugou from that student during the licensing exams. I remembered when Bakugou had confessed to Kirishima. I remembered when Sero had comforted me when I came out to my parents as pansexual. I remembered when I had first told Mina I was interested in cross-dressing.

She had been so happy.

They had all been my best friends.

They had all been there for me.

I loved them so much.

I wanted to end it all, and I wasn't sad about that. What I was sad about, is that I would never see their smiles ever again.

I would never again see the way Mina's eyes lit up when she talked about Uraraka and Tsu.

I would never again feel Sero's warm and protecting arms as I cried into him after a rough day at home.

I would never again hear Kirishima's contagious laughter and his smooth loving voice.

I would never again be there to hear Bakugou call me his nicknames.

I would never be there to see my class laugh at my antics again.

The tears were flowing down my face at this point, but I reached the roof top without any trouble.

As I stood out there, I couldn't hold back the petals anymore. I doubled over and started gagging and retching.

Flurries of red and orange clouded my vision as I coughed up the petals that symboled the people whom I loved so much.

Watching them fall onto the roof's concrete floors.

As I finished, I went over to the edge and sat down with my legs dangling over the edge.

I hadn't known what to expect when I went up here, but I definitely hadn't expected to feel so free.

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath, breathing in the smell of flowers and the smell of the fresh air.

I opened my eyes and stared up at the sky.

"I love you..." I murmured, looking back down at the school's courtyard, "always, and forever."

And with that, I pushed off, letting myself fall, and for the first time in a while, I felt safe, I felt happy, I felt comfort in knowing exactly what was going to happen to me.

They say when you die, you're supposed to float around your body or whatever. That's not the case.

As I felt my body collide with the ground below me, I slipped into dreams. Wonderful dreams. I had never felt so wonderful than in that moment.

My dreams were mixtures of memories and something that seemed to be dreams of what could've happened in the future, had things been different for me.

I could see Kirishima and Bakugou cuddling me, kissing my cheeks and ticking me. I could see myself in a wedding dress, and my two loves standing at the other end of the aisle, waiting for me to finally be theirs.

I could see five little kids running around a living room, laughing and pouncing on Bakugou as he tried to get them to settle down.

I saw Sero becoming a great hero, saving so many kids from abusive homes like I had been in.

I could see Mina, Tsu, and Uraraka as they lived happily together as a married trio.

I could see the life I had always dreamed about finally happening. I was at peace for the first time in 8 years.

Until that is, it all faded into darkness, and I was left in never-ending darkness.

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Bakugou and I walked into Recovery Girl's office. I frowned upon seeing the empty hospital bed. Bakugou frowned as well, obviously as perplexed as I was.

Recovery girl was nowhere to be seen, and neither was Kami. Bakugou looked in the adjoining room.

I went over to the bed and saw a few things sticking out from under a pillow. I grabbed them and looked at them.

They were letters.

"BAKUGOU!!" I yelled in a slight panic.

Bakugou rushed over to me and looked at the notes. He paled and grabbed one with his name on it, I started reading the one with my own name labeled on it.

Dear Kirishima,

Thank you, thank you so much for being there for me. You were always the one to cheer me up and to be my best bro when I needed you. You always pushed me to be the best you knew I could be.

I'm sorry that I was such an annoyance, I don't know how you tolerated me. But I love you so much, you and Bakugou meant the world to me.

My only regret in my death is that I'll never see you guys again. I'll never see your smiles, I'll never be there when you guys are the top heroes. I won't be there when you graduate.

I'll never be able to make you laugh again, I loved doing it too. I was always overjoyed when I could make you laugh.

Your laugh was like honey to my ears, I know that's cringy but It's true you know.

You should laugh more often.

People sometimes say they lose themselves while trying to please others. I didn't however, quite the opposite in fact. I found myself by making others laugh and smile. I found my purpose by bringing joy to the hearts of others.

I wish I could say you were like a brother to me, but if that was true, I wouldn't have gotten this dreadful disease.

I'm not blaming you, not at all. All my best memories are of you and Bakugou. The best thing I ever did was falling in love with my two best friends.

Just remember this, Kiri.

I'll love you, always and forever.

Love, Denki.

I looked up, tears streaking down my face. To my slight surprise, Bakugou's eyes were overflowing with tears. He gripped his note tighter and turned, running as fast as he could up the stairs to the roof.

I hesitated only a millisecond before dashing up after him.

We burst out onto the roof, just in time to see a flash of yellow disappearing off the edge.

A deafening scream tore itself from my lips and Bakugou rushed over to the edge as well. Overcome by sobs I collapsed to my knees. My body shook violently with the intensity of my cries.

Bakugou looked at me and then with his explosions, followed after Kaminari to try to catch him.

After a moment of deafening silence, I go to the edge of the roof and looked down. My stomach clenched and I turned around to throw up. It was so far down I couldn't see Bakugou or Kaminari distinctly. But what I could see, was blood.