The last five days have been hell.

I first night I spent pacing...I was pissed. What had Alpha Jack done with my warriors? Our connection to each other was all we had left of our pack. I still blame myself for the rogue attack. I was the Beta, pack security was my responsibility and I failed. I had expected to be banished for my failure but instead, my warriors supported me. After the attack, I had nightmares everyday. I refused to sleep not wanting to see the images of my pack members being ripped apart by rogues. My warriors stayed with me every night until I was able to sleep again. They were not just my warriors, they are my family.

I don't have my warriors and tomorrow, Alpha Jack is going to take my mate away from me too.

What happened in the waiting room keeps playing over and over in my head. I think about my mate all the time, especially his body. He is a couple of inches shorter than me. His body reminds me of a swimmers; lean with finely cut muscles. Short, blond hair with dark blue eyes and plump red lips. I didn't see any tattoos or markings on him when he shifted. His musky scent was intoxicating.

By the second day, I had lost all desire to eat or drink. By the third day, I didn't get of bed except to use the bathroom. My whole body ached and my wolf, Zeus, hadn't spoken to me since the incident at the hospital.

The only contact I have had has been with Alpha Jack or Alpha Felix. I literally beg Alpha Jack each time he saw me to tell me something about my mate. What was his name? Why haven't I scented him before? Why was he at the hospital? Is he a warrior? Are those his pups by blood? Alpha Jack initially refused to ask my mate if I could know information. He figured that the bond would be broken by the end of the week and I didn't need to know that information. It was Alpha Felix that convinced Alpha Jack to talk to my mate. On the morning of the fourth day, Alpha Jack got permission from my mate to talk to me about him.

His name was Caleb Lewis. He wasn't a warrior, but his wolf was big and could fight. He was a pack physician and had lost his mate five-years ago. Without needing to say, he was fiercely protective of his three pups. I spent the afternoon curled up in my bed thinking only of him. Zeus has been pacing and howling...he wants his mate.

"Beta Dane! " Alpha Felix roared. My body was assaulted by cold air when I felt my blanket being ripped off my body. I rolled over to find Alpha Felix standing next to my bed looking pissed. His hands were on his hips and he was glaring right at me.

"You smell horrid. The whole pack house is starting to stink as well. Get up and get a shower" he barked.

"No point" I mumbled and rolled back over.

"So help me Beta Dane if you don't get your ass up out of the bed and into the shower, I will bring a hose in here and bathe you myself! Don't think I won't! Now move your ass!" Alpha Felix yelled.

I paused for only a minute knowing that Alpha Felix would no doubt hose me down if I didn't get up. I can't imagine what Alpha Jack would do to me if he walked in on his mate hosing off my naked ass. Well...I can imagine. He'd kill me. I'd rather be clean than dead.

"Fine" I grumbled.

'While you're getting cleaned up, I'll have your bedding changed. Just so you know I'm gonna burn those nasty sheets. No amount of soap is gonna get that stank out. I had made some soup and bread made for you. Hurry up and shower because you know I'm not leaving until your showered and I have seen food go down your throat" he said with annoyance.

I forced myself out of bed and into the bathroom. I stripped off my boxer briefs and looked in the mirror. The image I saw was not pretty. My eyes are sunken in and my skin is pale and clammy. Unwashed, greasy hair on my head and out of control facial hair did emit an odor. Alpha Felix was not wrong about the odor...the little prick. I look pathetic. How the hell did I get like this? What was my mate doing to me?

The image of his beautiful naked body appeared in my mind. My shaft not only twitched but hardened now leaving me with another problem. I turned on the shower to scalding hot, got in, and tried to muster enough energy to take care of my hard-on. I can barely walk but my dick still works...great.

Tomorrow, Alpha Jack would go to the council. I could only hope the Moon Goddess would have mercy on me and let me keep my mate. He is mine and I want him.