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My last attempt failed and let me tell you-my wolf is not happy about me trying to pull a fast one. She's started to try to get control again, repeating to me that I will never let us have love.

Jared is defiantly at the point where my stress is rubbing off him. I didn't tell me about what I attempted on the exit because I couldn't let him talk me out of it. It was dangerous and I can't pull something like that again.

I'm close to empty on gas and it seems like I don't have any other option but to surrender. It's time I meet my mate face to face.

I go on the next exit and pull up to a gas station in a little town. Theo's still following and I feel like I can hurl at any moment. My wolf is excited but I'm sick with so many emotions.

I park the car and sit for a moment. Jared looks at me and touches my clenched hand lightly.

"You owe him a explanation. You got this Claire." He says a gives me a reassuring smile. It's still dark out and the clock in the car shows it's one in the morning.

Theo pulls up beside me but I don't dare to look. I hear his car door shut, hard. I stare forward at the concrete barricade as tears flow freely down my face.

"Claire?" Jared asks and I glance at him.

"I'm scared." I admit, finally voicing my feelings to someone. "My name's JC by the way." I tell him as well, because he deserves to know.

"Don't be." He says at the same time a knock sounds on my window. My tank is empty now, I can't run if I could.

"JC." Theo's soft voice sounds behind the glass. I fresh my palms together, digging my nails in my hand.

I look at Jared again to see him nod his head. He turns off the car, gets the keys, and gets out of the car. Leaving me sitting there alone in my own thoughts.

"Look guys, give her a minute." Jared says and jingles the keys. That way they know I can't drive off. I can hear Theo ask who he is.

I tune it them out and bow my head, my head in my palms.

"Please don't let me hurt him." I say to the moon goddess, praying to her. If she could give me this one thing, let it be this.

I wipe my tears and unlock the door. I breath in and breath out. Repeat. This is probably going to be the most awkward moment of my entire existence.

I open the car door and am greeted with the intoxicating scent of my mate, which calms me down immediately. I almost gravitate toward it.

My silk robe drags on the ground, reminding me I am still in my pjs.

Theo is leaning on his car and stands up straight when I step out. Jared is sitting on the corner of the store and he looks up to me like he's surprised I came out so soon.

Next, my eyes land on Drake. He's the one that I seen Theo eating with. I wonder how they found each other. Then what I thought was a realization hit me hard.

"Did you lead him to me?" I accuse Drake who looks at me with a unexplained expression. My heat is making me irritable especially in the close proximity I am to my mate. My skin is crawling, burning for him.

"Stop. You need to tell me what's going on." Theo interjects and steps closer. I take a step back, not sure what I could tell him.

Instead my focus shifts back to Drake. Distracting myself and Theo. "How could you do this Drake?"

Drake puts his hands up in defense, "I didn't know he's your mate. Theo's a great guy, I don't get why you're running from him."

I shake my head, they wouldn't understand. I know Theo is probably a great guy. That's why it's so hard.

Theo walks closer to me and I flinch away. He stops, surprised at my action. He still walks closer even then until we are chest to chest. His breath fans my face and I quiver from it. Goosebumps rise on my skin.

His hand reaches up to touch my cheek and he succeeds because I'm frozen staring into his deep brown eyes. Then, caresses my cheek and I unconsciously lean into it, the warms touching my skin. The feeling is amazing.

It is our first touch as mates.

I could feel myself giving up. To just stop fighting this and trust myself that I wouldn't hurt him. My wolf tells me to touch him back. I almost do.

No.

I step to the side and turn my face to the opposite direction.

Something's happening and I can feel myself changing. I knew then that this unknowable part of me has made her appearance and I didn't know what she will do. I tried pushing it down but it was too late.

Theo comes up behind me and spins me around. The look in his eyes broke my heart.

"What?" He asks confused and his hands fall to his sides. My black eyes look back at him and surprisingly I don't feel angry. But it's as if his touch, awoke this side of myself. It's more powerful now and that's not what I want.

However, I'm calm and collected. I just hope nothing triggers anything bad.

"I don't want to hurt you." I say and back away from him. I need to put distance between us, but I could tell Theo would get more hurt the farthest I walked away from him.

"How are your eyes like that?" Theo asks, studying them, and steps closer. He's not scared of me, and that terrifies me more.

"Stop. Don't come closer." I say confidently but my body is still weak though my mind is more power than it ever has been. I feel like I could pick a car off the road.

Theo stops walking, his eyes contain a deep sadness that I can't hardly handle looking in. "Come home. We will figure this out together."

I shake my head, "You have to let me go."

Theo shakes his head "no" as well, "No way. Do you realize that rouges are coming after you? You honest think I will let you be alone?"

I look to the ground, I can protect myself. Rogues are coming after me, so what? Let them. At least I can lead them away from my family. I can be alone and face these problems by myself. No one gets hurt that way.

"I will be fine. I just need you to leave me be. Take Jared, give him a home. He's a good kid."

Theo lets out a little laugh but his expression is hard.

"I don't care if your eyes or black, white, or green. Or if your skin is purple or blue. You are coming with me." He orders , raising his voice at me.

My wolf gets excited, telling me I told you so.

I can either show him a reason to be scared of me and to leave me alone, or I can go with him and figure this out. My mind has come up blank with either of those options. I'm at a loss for actions for the first time.

"I'm no good for you Theo? Don't you get that?" I raise my voice back at him and try to get him to see things from my perspective. I know it's probably pointless but I have to try.

"What your eyes? We will go see an eye specialist for heavens sake! That doesn't change anything." Theo says, unknowing about the power that is just beneath my finger tips.

I can't use these abilities, as much as I want to show him why he should just leave me alone. It's for emergencies only. That's all I've had to use it for so so far. I'm just going to have to get my point across without showing it.

"It's not just my eyes. I'm different Theo. I'm not normal." I say and the words get caught in my throat.

Theo is getting irritated and I know it probably sounds like I'm making up excuses.

"Yeah we know you're different. I don't care Jacqueline Claire. I don't give a damn, I told you that." Theo says, his jaw clenched and hands twitching.

I can tell he wants to come to me and hold me, as I want to do to him. That can't happen. But how can he say he knows I'm different? He doesn't know what's really going on.

"The rogues are obsessed with you, we have to get you out of here- somewhere safe." Theo addresses my question I didn't even ask out loud.

I close my eyes and breathe in deeply. Everything seems to be hitting me like a tidal wave, crashing into me more and more.

I realize I've calmed down myself enough to return to my natural eye color. The contacts have fallen out and they are replaced with the blue and gold I was born with.

My body feel weak, drained, -unhinged.

He's not letting us go JC. Stop fighting, let's go home. My wolf says and I can tell she is starting to become more alert by Theo's presence. She has given me a moment to speak, but I know that if Theo don't stop me from leaving-she will.

So why are you still fighting? She reads my thoughts and I let out a sigh.

Why am I still fighting? I have no where to go, my heat will most likely hurt me so much worse this time. Rouges are chasing me from everywhere.

I feel utterly helpless.

"Come home." Theo finishes and I look at him, tears rest in his eyes unshed but very much there. There goes my heart breaking this time.

The stress weighs on me too heavy and I fall, darkness engulfs me.