Stepping into my bed room, I dropped my backpack on the ground by the door and looked up at the tense body of Demetri seated on my bed.

"I don't have the energy for you this evening." I muttered sullenly walking into my bathroom, I didn't hear him respond, not that I minded.

I stripped off my clothes and got in the shower, scrubbing myself clean. As the warm water ran down my body, I remembered the letter from the king which is now in my bag.

Tears leaked from my eyes as the spray of the shower covered the sound of my sobs.

There was a soft knock on he bathroom door, I barely heard it over the sound of the shower. I sniffed and turned off the shower.

"Yes?" I questioned in a voice that sounded semi normal.

"I need to talk to you," Demetri said through the door.

"Fine, I'm coming." I responded stepping out of the shower and after drying off with a towel I wrapped up with another one and exited the bathroom to see Demetri seated, once again, on the end of my bed.

"Look, if you're here to hit me back just do it and leave, cuz I'm really tired and I have home work to do." I said blandly Looking at him.

"You really think that I would come here just to hit you back?" He asked rising from the bed and casually making his way over to me as I stood by the bathroom door.

As tempted as I was to bolt into the bathroom and lick the door until he gives up and leave, I stood my ground and looked up at him.

"What do you want?" I asked, ignoring his question. His eyes were fixed on my face and I flinched, out of instinct when I saw his hand move towards my face.

A look of hurt flashed across his face before it disappeared. What does he have to be hurt about? I'm the one that's been both physically and mentally abused since I met him.

His fingers brushed against my left cheek sending electric shocks throughout my body.

I hate this stupid mate bond, no matter how much I hate him, my body doesn't, or it cannot because he's my 'other half.'

"You were crying." He stated inquiringly.

How is that your concern? I thought snarkily with the knowledge that he could not hear me as I had blocked him from my mind.

"Why are you here Demetri?" I asked with a small sigh pushing his hand away from my face and taking a step back.

"I came to talk to you about the letter." He said. figures.

"There's nothing to talk about," I replied nonchalantly, stepping away from him and making my way to my closet dressing in a pair of dark blue sweats and a long sleeve shirt.

Walking back into my room, I pulled my wet hair up with a clip before grabbing my laptop and my biology note book and climbing into my bed.

"We have to talk about it." Demetri said moving to stand beside my window.

"No," I said adamantly looking up at him. My eyes clashed with his light gray eyes which sparkled in the moon light. "Your father set the date, and the element of blackmail is on point so as far as I see it, I have no choice, so we have nothing to talk about."

"Preparations must me bade for th-"

"You're the ones blackmailing me into this, its your responsibility, not mine." I said pseudo calmly "All I have to do is show up."

"You need to meet with my mother and sisters to plan your dresses and the colors you want to use,"

"Anything will work, u don't really care What you guys choose to do. Tell your mom that I'm a size six." I said dismissively as I began typing up my myosis lab.

"Jessabell, you need to be involved in the planning, your the female of this union and the future queen of the werewolf community, you need to accept your situation and adjust." Demetri said forcefully walking over to my bed.

I ignored him and continued to type my lab, I can feel another fight about to start.

That's all we do it seems, every time we're together we argue and fight.

The start of a destructive union, I thought sarcastically and gave a little chuckle.

"What's funny?" He asked and I responded with a small shake of my head.

"I have homework to do," I said looking up at Demetri "would you leave?" I asked with as little attitude as I could manage.

"Why don't you want me around you Jessabell?" He asked softly, looking at me with eyes which betrayed his annoyance.

Regardless of how soft his voice is, t can see the underlying flames it his eyes. He's getting angry.

"Because I'm busy with school." I lied not wanting to anger him with the truth.

"Do not lie to me." He snarled, his soft voice gone giving way to the anger brewing beneath his surface.

"You cheated on me." I said looking him in the eyes, "that is utterly unforgivable."

"I never meant to hurt you."

"Yes well, things happen." I shrugged nonchalantly then looked up at him, "Next time, just make sure I don't feel it okay? You're free to do whoever you want so long as I don't feel it."

"Jessabell-"

"Oh don't worry about me not doing what I'm supposed to do as your mate, I'm going to do the mating ceremony and if you want to marry me then I'll marry you, and I will give you a son after I'm finished with college." I said resisting the urge to laugh at his stunned expression, "But that's all you'll get, after you get your heir you will never touch me again and I do mean never as in never ever,"

"Oh and, you can keep your girlfriends as long as I don't see them then I'm fine." I shrugged, smiling at him as I took in his horrified expression.

"And what about you?" He asked softly

"What about me?"

"What will you do it that time?" He clarified

"Umm, live my life as normal, I guess." I said shrugging as I put away my laptop and book and stretching out my back.

"With other men?" He snarled venomously and I chucked humorlessly.

"I'm not a whore." I said rolling my eyes as I laid down on my side so I could look up at Demetri who was still seated on the side of my bed.

"We can't live like that."

"Yes we can. I don't like you, you don't like me. I don't actually want you near me but I obviously have no choice in the matter, so if I must be chained to you for the rest of our too long werewolf lives, I'd rather it be in a manageable condition. And we won't share a room."

"Jessabell stop this right now." He said in a pained voice "You're breaking my heart."

I couldn't help it, I burst out laughing, he said I'm breaking his heart. He stared at me as I continued to laugh for a few more minutes while clutching my sides as tears leaked from my eyes.

Clearing my throat, I wiped tears from my eyes.

"Sorry." I apologized, and he looked at me with hurt filled eyes "I didn't know you had a heart." .

At that statement, Demetri's face shuttered as a dark expression filtered across his face.

Reaching over he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me into a sitting position.

He crashed his lips onto mine in a brutal punishing kiss that was sure to leave my lips swollen and bruised. He bit my bottom lip as he tried to push his tongue into my mouth but I kept my mouth shut.

Wrapping his hand around my neck he squeezed, not hard enough to cause a lot of pain but enough to hurt enough for me to open my mouth and give a little groan if pain.

Demetri, took that opportunity to push his tongue into my mouth and kissed me properly.

His hand around my neck moved to wrap around my waist as his other hand traveled to the waist band of my pants. Just as his fingers slipped under the material, and made contact with my overheated flesh, I snapped back into myself and ripped my lips from Demetri's.

Bringing my hands up I tried to push him away.

"No," I gasped as he pressed his lips to my mark and he slipped his fingers into my panty.

I began pounding his chest with my fists as I begged him to let me go.

Demetri pushed me onto my back and climbed over me, looking down at me with dark eyes.

"I want you." He said, his voice deep husky and a little sinister. This is not Demetri, this is alpha Demetri.

If I'm not careful, he really will take me and I'm not ready.

"I can't do this now." I pleaded, tears filling my eyes, "please not now."

"Yes now." He said slipping his hand under my shirt and stroking my breast. I gasped and arched my back at the pleasure which shot through my body causing my nipples to pucker.

"You want me." Demetri said pinching my hardened nipple making me moan. "Tell me you want me."

"I'm not ready." I whimpered feeling moisture flood between my thighs.

"You smell so very ready, for everything."

Demetri pushed my shirt up over my breasts and stared at my breasts. Reaching out I pressed my hands to his broad chest and pushed him away. Well I tried to.

"Stop pushing me away." Demetri growled.

"I'm not ready for this, I need more time."

"I want to touch you, I want more but I will not force you." Demetri said looking into my eyes

He leant down and kissed me as he ran his fingers over my breasts. I gasped as he trailed kisses over my neck and down to my chest taking my right nipple into his mouth and sucking lightly while his other hand played with my left.

I let out a small moan when he sucked harder sending sharp arrows of pleasure down to my core.

He pulled his head from my chest to look into my eyes as he pushed his hand into my pants.

I squeezed my eyes shut as his fingers ran though my moist folds.

"Look at me." He said and I shook my head no. "Look at me," he repeated and I didn't listen "please."

I opened my eyes and he smiled, he actually smiled at me. He rubbed my clit and I moaned, bringing my hands up, I gripped his upper arms .

"You like that?" He asked and I Nodded blinking rapidly as he continued rubbing the sensitive nub between my legs.

He inserted a finger into me and I moaned his name as pleasure shot through me in tsunami sized waved. At the sound of his name leaving my lips on a breathy moan he let out a primal groan and pushed another finger into my channel.

"No." I said in a strangled voice wiggling in his arms as my inner muscles struggled to fit both His large fingers

"Yes, take what I give you." He said and I reached down to push his fingers from inside me.

"You're hurting me." I whimpered when he shoved them deeper, he pushed in a little more and I felt his fingers meet my barrier.

He looked down into my pleading eyes with his dark lust filled ones as he pulled his fingers back a little and bent them making me scream at the pleasure which threatened to override my pain.

"You're so tight." Demetri muttered before covering my nipple with his mouth as he moved his fingers in and out of my core, making me moan as the pleasure built to a feverish pitch.

I gasped and moaned, writhing beneath his fingers enjoying every second of his touch and hating myself a little more for enjoying it so much.

Pulling away from my chest, Demetri stared at me as I tethered in the edge of absolute bliss.

"Beg me." He said and I gasped shaking my head. I wouldn't beg, my pride wouldn't allow me to beg him. I watched his pupils dilate. Demetri attempted to push a third finger into me, pain shot through the bottom half of my body.

"No." I gasped

"Beg." He ordered and I swallowed my pride and begged him to make me come.

Not long after, I fell off the edge of sanity and into complete pleasure as I screamed, Demetri covered my mouth with his to swallow my screams while my inner muscles clamped down onto his fingers during my orgasm.

As the last of the orgasm faded, I looked up at Demetri who stared ate me. He gently began to remove his fingers from inside of me while I shuddered. He ran both fingers over the little nub between my folds causing me to moan.

"I want to stay the night." Demetri stated sitting up.

"No!" I exclaimed quickly, rolling onto my side wincing at the feeling of soreness at the most intimate part of my body.

"I'm staying, I want to be with you." Demetri said sincerely. "I want to be a better mate to you. I don't wan you to cry because of me or hate me because of things I do to you. You have just painted a very bleak future for us. I don't want us to be mated and married and not be together. I want us to be in love and have babies who love us."

My mind was reluctant to accept what he was saying. I don't trust him and I probably never will.

"Don't put yourself out. That will never happen. I don't love you and you don't love me. We will never love each other, we are a mistake. Maybe that's why it took so long for you to find me." I said looking into his eyes.

"That's not true, we're not a mistake." He said emotionally.

"Yes we are,"

"No, we will be together and I will make us work, I will love you Jessabell." He said grabbing my waist and pulling me to him.

"No you won't. I don't Want your love. That would just be another chain wrapped around my neck and holding me to you."

"Its too late." Demetri said softly and I froze in horror. "I think I'm already falling in love with you."

He whispered and my mouth fell open at what he just confessed.