After Biology, I just wanted to be alone. Everyone from my Bio class kept asking to see my mark or kept asking if Demetri and I mated yet or when our mating ceremony would be or what the royal family was like. Basically they were drowning me with questions which I would rather not answer.

I ended up getting angry and telling them to leave me the fuck alone in those words exactly and they did leave me alone.

Dallas walked me to the library where I would spend my second period and depending on my mood, my third and fourth periods too.

Sitting at one of the tables in the far back corner of the library, I pulled out my laptop and scrolled through my twitter page.

"Shouldn't you be in class?" A voice asked from before me and I glanced up to see Monique looking at me with concern.

"Shouldn't you?" I asked in response leaning back in my chair as she took the seat before me.

"I'm ditching, Damien is coming to get me in a couple minutes." She informed flicking back her hair and stretching out in her chair causing her heels to brush my legs.

"Good for you." I stated rolling my eyes and going back to work. "Besides not wanting to see anybody right now, I haven't finished ms. What's her face essay and I'm not in the mood for a detention so I'm not going to class."

"What are you talking about?" Momo asked looking genuinely confused "we have Chemistry now."

"No, we have English now." I disagreed slowly, looking at her with squinted eyes.

"No Jessabell, today's Monday, you have Biology, then Chemistry then Sociology then a free period." She explained.

What the hell?! I brought books for Tuesday, well my biology is kinda always in my backpack but the rest of my note books are at home, I only keep text books in my locker. How the hell did I not notice when I was in Biology with Dallas?! Oh that's right Demetri's cheap stunt further messed up my brain and I was both too angry and frustrated to notice anything.

God damn it! My mind was so shattered after dealing with Demetri all Christmas and then what happened at the mall, then with Madam Leveau and her plans for me I completely spaced out for school. I wouldn't be surprised if I wrote the wrong essay for literature class.

"Bloody Fucking Shit!" I growled and due to the almost empty state of the library, the sound of my growl and the angry curse words I said in frustration bounced off the walls and shelves of old books and echoed through the room.

"Miss. Archer! That language is not tolerated in this library." The librarian said in a hushed but stern voice.

"Way to go Jess, you pissed her off." Monique said looking at me with disapproval as she flicked her dirty blonde hair over her shoulder.

"Fuck her." I seethed angrily. Stuffing my things into my backpack and pushing back my chair as I angrily stood up.

"Where are you going?" Monique asked standing up as well.

"Somewhere." I snapped swinging my bag over my shoulder and marching towards the doors.

"Where?"

"I don't know." I said frustratedly "I just.... I need to..... I have...." I stopped not able to form a complete sentence as my vision blurred as warm tears gathered in my eyes and I had to lean against the wall beside the door to stop myself from collapsing.

My breaths began coming in rapid pants that hurt my chest as I began hyperventilating and fighting to breathe properly.

"Oh my God! Jessabell!" Monique shreaked pulling my bag from my shoulder and rapidly rummaging through it for my panic attack medication.

"Where is it?" She asked frantically as I sunk to the floor, the librarian just noticing what was happening and running over to us.

"Don't...... Have......." I said between gasping breaths, but stopped trying to speak and just shook my head because of the pain tearing through my chest.

"What's happening to her?" The librarian, Ms.Monroe asked rubbing my back as she stooped beside me.

"What do I do?!" Monique asked in a panic ignoring Ms.Monroe's question.

"Nurse!" I gasped and monique pulled out her phone and called someone relating my situation to the person on the phone.

I squeezed my eyes shut and let out a bloodcurdling scream as the limited air in my lungs gave way to an excruciating burning pain in my chest.

I have never felt this type of pain before. I've had many panic attacks but it's never felt like someone set my entire chest on fire.

I felt arms pick me up from the floor. I opened my eyes to see a blurry Rick looking down at me worriedly.

"Jess, are you alright?" He asked, concern coating his voice.

I was too out of it to reply, if the pain I was feeling wasn't so excruciating and I could form a complete sentence without screeching in pain, I would have asked him if I looked alright.

Instead, I gritted my teeth as sweat covered my body and shivers wracked my body, I curled into myself to absorb the pain as best as I could while in Rick's arms as he rushed to the nurse's office with Monique and Ms.Monroe trailing behind frantic with worry.

"Nurse Edwards!" Monique yelled as soon as Rick burst through the doors of her office.

"Mr. Donovans I hope you are no-" Nurse Edwards began sternly before she took note of my shaking sweating form in Rick's arms. "What happened to her?" She exclaimed rushing over to me as Rick placed me on the small bed with white sheets in her office.

The blurry, doubled, fuzzy and slightly fading form of the middle aged woman with thick lenses glasses and brown hair tied into a neat bun on top of her head, jiggled slightly before going completely black as another spasm of pain gripped my stomach causing me to curl into a ball on the small bed and scream.

I felt hands on me as fingers dislodged my clothes. There was a jumble of voices around me as everything became dark. After a while everything became silent and I passed out.

Opening my eyes to bright light above me, I blinked as pain shot through my skull. Ouchie. I thought bringing my right hand up to rub my forehead.

"She's fine now." I heard nurse Edwards voice filter softly through the doorway.

"What happened to her?" Another female voice which sounded strangely like my mother's inquired.

Well that is weird, mom Alost never comes to my school. So why would she be here now?

"She's marked by her mate and she has also marked him right?" Nurse Edwards asked and mom replied with a brief yes.

What's that got to do with anything?

"Are they mated as yet?"

"No, they're waiting for the ceremony, why?"

"Because what Jessabell experienced today wasn't a panic attack, it was actually the pain of the infidelity of a mate, had they been fully mated Jessabell might have died." Nurse Edwards explained and I was frozen in shock.

I had yet to move from my position on the small bed or reopen my eyes, but now I had no desire to even move.

"What?" My mother asked sounding just as shocked as I felt.

"Her mate slept with someone else and Jessabell felt the pain because he was unfaithful to her."

So I am not allowed to so much as think about another man apart from Demetri but he can go around and fuck some chick as soon as I'm back in school.

"So what should I do for Jess?" Mom asked and I finally reopened my eyes and shakily stood up.

My entire body is shaking and I feel slightly weak. Oh man, this is not good, but I am not a whiner baby so I will push through this.

"You should take Jess home." I said in a raspy voice as I came to stand in the door way to the room in which my mother and Nurse Edwards were conversing.

"You're awake," my mother said getting out of her chair and making her way over to me. " I was so worried about you Jessabell." She breathed as she wrapped her arms around me and pulled me to her.

Her large belly was between us but it didn't matter, this feels nice. I may think I don't need my mother but I do. Proven the night that Demetri hit me and I was screaming for her on the stairs, but thanks to Demetri's creepy royal abilities, I couldn't make a sound.

"I'm fine mom, well I'm fine now." I said wrapping my arms around her.

"I'm so sorry Jessabell, so very sorry."

I'm not really sure what she's apologizing for, but I said it's okay anyway.

"Can you take me home?" I asked softly pulling away from her.

"Yeah, sure." Mom said as Nurse Edwards handed her a piece of paper.

I grabbed my backpack and thanked Nurse Edwards then followed mom out to the car. Climbing in the front passenger seat beside her, I threw my bag in the back and put on my seatbelt.

"I saw the marks on your back and your ribs." Mom said about half way into the drive. Okay, this conversation now, I thought in gratefully.

I really don't want to talk about this, I getad every time I so much as think about it.

"It's nothing really, I'm fine and their fading." I said nonchalantly.

"Did Demetri do that to you?"

"Yes."

"When?"

"Little while back." I supplied blandly very reluctant to release anymore information.

"Why won't you tell me Jessabell?" My mother asked desperately and I sighed before relating the entire story to her starting from Collin flirting with Demetri at the mall.

She laughed when I told her Collin was into Demetri.

"He was that kid who always wore skinny jeans and the bunny ears when you were in middle school right?" She asked and I laughed at the memory of the young Collin.

"Yeah, he's the one." I replied still snickering "He's changed since then, no more bunny ears."

"Same jeans though?" She asked glancing at me briefly before looking back to the road.

"No." I said seriously "they aren't skinny anymore."

"Really?" She asked sounding surprised and I shook my head.

"They can't be considered skinny, they're just some really really tight ass jeans." I said seriously and she started laughing.

"I don't even know how he can still perform sexually with the way those jeans are tight. I swear there is not blood in his balls or his dick." I said shaking my head and mom laughed harder.

"That's not nice." Mom said and I snickered

"I'm not generally nice." I replied.

"Let's go get ice cream before we go home." Mom suggested.

"Can you eat ice cream?" I inquired thoughtfully, " I heard someone say that if you eat ice cream while pregnant the baby will get brain freeze."

"It's totally fine." She said "I'm not the one getting brain freeze so I'm good."

I gave her a look, that statement though.

"I'm kidding. Nothing will happen."

"You sure?"

"Yeah. I'm sure."

I responded with a faint "okay, let's do ice cream." Then we lapsed into a short period of silence.

"Jess?" Mom said after a little while of me just string through the window and her driving in silence.

"Huh, yeah?" I asked turning to look at her.

"I haven't forgotten about you, you know." She stated, oh man, I don't want to have this conversation right now, actually I never want to have this conversation.

"Umm, ok?" I said but it came out like a question.

"I do care about you and I know when you're not home." She said.

"I don't want to talk about this." I said

"This is the only time I can talk about this while you can't run away."

"I can open the door and jump out of the car." I stated matter of factly.

"I hope you won't." She said and I smiled slightly.

"Its okay though, you don't have to say anything, you've got other kids to worry about and I'm practically and adult now."

"I've realized. It's It because I don't care about you Jessabell, I do, I really do and I worry about you just as how I worry about your other brothers and sisters, well I worry about you less because your more self sufficient and independent so you don't really need me or anyone else." Mom said

"Mom, its okay." I said trying to avoid this conversation which will most likely get really emotional. "I really don't want to have this conversation."

"But I need to say this." She said " I love you Jessabell, you're my daughter and I love you. But it seems as though you go out of your way to avoid me."

"I don't go out of my way to avoid you." I said defensively, "you make it easy and I don't only avoid you I avoid everyone in the family."

"I get that we hurt your feelings that time with Cindy and the teddy bear but we didn't expect you to take it so hard, you were ten and I didn't think you'd still be so attached to the bear, I'm sorry." She said.

In all honesty, I had wanted an apology from her, I thought it would make me feel better but it doesn't make me feel better at all.

"Its okay. It's no big deal, I already got over it." I said semi meaning what I was saying. I'm still not completely over the fact that they gave Cindy my bear and she destroyed it in less than a year.

"Jessabell, I'm sorry for neglecting you, not being at your school functions and your football games and not paying more attention to you, I'm really sorry."

"Mom, its okay." I said as she pulled up to the little ice cream shop close to our house. "I mean it." I turned to look at her so she sees that I'm serious.

"Okay, let's go in then." She said and we exited the car and walked into the ice cream shop. After ordering our ice cream and a drink, we got a seat close to one of the side windows.

Mom got a pineapple strawberry ice cream blend while I got cookie dough ice cream.

"I think she has brain freeze, she's not moving anymore." Mom said suddenly, looking at me while rubbing her belly.

"Its a girl?"

"Yeah, your father wanted another boy."

"Cool. I told you she was gonna get it." I said in a matter of fact tone.

"Maybe she's just asleep, its possible."

"Okay, she's asleep." I agreed sipping my drink "No, its brain freeze."

Mom and I chatted until we finished our ice cream and drinks then we went home and watched Now you See Me one and two.

It felt good to spend some time with my mother after eight years.

We were enjoying our popcorn and white wine-well I was drinking wine, mom was having apple juice- and catching up on the eight years we didnt have quality time together,when a knock interrupted our conversation.

I didn't have to look to know that it was Demetri. I could feel the dark waves of fury emanating from him. It permeated the living room in thick stifiling clouds of darkness that threatened to choke me.

My mother couldn't feel it as severely as I could because I am bonded to him so I could feel the waves mentally even though I have my mental block up.

Rising reluctantly from my place on the couch, wine glass still in hand, I made my way to the front door. I slowly pulled it open to reveal a seething Demetri dressed in all black. His gray eyes were no longer gray but were pools of black.

Averting my eyes from him I focused on the now dark drive way behind him. Huh, it must be late.

"What the hell had I told you this morning?" He growled in a deep dark sinister voice which sent shivers of fear racing through my body.

I didn't respond and he grabbed my upper arms pulling me out of the house at into his hard body.