It was hard to stop loving someone even if they broke your heart. It takes time and you knew it would be awhile before you completely got over Sasori. Day by day you slowly healed and day by day you were falling out of love.

You were no longer thinking about his kisses, hugs, or any other intimate actions you both had shared.

You were no longer being held back. You were free. Free to do what you want. Free to say what you were thinking without the fear of being reprimanded. Confidence soared through your veins. You were loving it.

There are still times when you cry at night. No longer feeling like you were being loved. Feeling like you didn't deserve love. As if you weren't good enough for love. You would stare at the ceiling as you belittled yourself as the tears run down your eyes. You knew no one in the world had confidence 24/7.

It was okay to cry so you did.

Deidara who was returning from a late night mission was walking down the quiet and dark corridors. His fingers running along the walls and his eyes squinted, finding the way to his room. He stopped when he heard sniffing and a quiet sob.

He counted the number of doors he had passed, trying to figure out who's room he heard sobbing from.Yours was the 7th room, where the woeful sounds were coming from. He walked towards the door of your room. He raised his hand to knock but hesitated. He thought maybe space was what you needed, but it sounded like you also needed someone to comfort and give you reassurance.

Deidara doesnt have much knowledge when it comes to women. He was forced to join the Akatsuki at a young age. Even before joining the Akatsuki he didn't live like the other teenagers in his village. He was much more interested in his art and perfecting it. His obsession with his art didn't leave much time to be around women. Not like he had much interest in them anyways. Not until he met you. But he knew you were off limits. Sasori made sure everybody knew you were off limits.

Before he could come to a decision, you had opened the door and walked into his chest. You made a sound he couldn't really describe.

You didn't notice he was at your door until you bumped into him.

" What are you doing outside my door?" You asked confused as you rubbed your forehead.

Deidara looked down to you and saw your red eyes. Your nose and cheeks were flushed with red. Your lips swollen. He was mesmerized by you and didn't hear your voice. How long have you been crying he wondered.

" Deidara? Are you okay?" You asked, This time catching his attention.

" I-uh I'm uh okay,un. I was just returning from a mission Pein had assigned me and I heard... Umm uh well crying coming from your room,un." He stuttered out completely embarrassed and caught off guard. He rubbed the back of his neck as he felt a blush slowly rise from his neck to his face." I just didnt know wether to leave you alone or knock at your door and talk with you."

Your eyes went wide, shocked Deidara had heard you cry. " You must have heard wrong then. I wasn't crying." You lied.

Deidara frowned at your words. " Don't lie to me,un. Anybody could take a glance at you and know you were crying!" He whispered shouted. He didn't want to wake the others but he was angry at you for lying to him.

" I was not and don't you ever talk about my appearance again!" You said angrily while jabbing a finger at his chest.

Something in Deidara had snapped. He roughly pushed you into your room and closed the door behind him.

" Deidara what are you d-"

" Shut up and just stand there,un!" He said angrily. He unbuckled his pouch that was wrapped around his waist that contained his clay. He tossed it to god knows where but he didn't care about that right now. He only cared about you right now. He took out his scope from his left eye and placed at your vanity. He took off his headband and untied his hair.

He turned his attention back to you who was looking at him like he was crazy yet angry. He walked up to you and gently pushed you towards your bed. The back of your knees hit the frame which made you tumble and lay flat on your bed as Deidara towered over you.

" Do you know what I see, un?" He asked.

" A mess" you responded. You felt the stinging in your eyes and the lump in your throat return.

" Yes." He responded. You felt your heart stop and the tears roll down your face. How pathetic do I look you sadly thought to yourself. " But I see so much more!" He semi shouted.

" I see a beautiful women breaking down right before my eyes,un. A women who was once brave and fearless. But YOU LET ONE MAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU! SASORI DOESN'T DESERVE YOU! SAY IT!" He whispered shouted.

His voice was coarse. His breath hit your face as he was straddling over you. His face mere inches away from you. " Sasori doesn't deserve me..." you whispered.

" Again! Louder, un!"

" SASORI DOESNT DESERVE ME!" You said much more confidently.

" Again!" He demanded.

You repeated the phrase again.

He demanded you say it again and you did for awhile. He waited until you smiled when you said it, and then he stopped.

You were smiling and it was genuine.

It was silent except the heavy breathing coming from both of you. Deidara still remained hovering over you as he stared at your face. Your tears were drying up. He wiped the tears that were still there as you continued to smile.

" Your beautiful, un. Personality and look wise. Any man should be grateful to have you. Even if I can't have you." He confessed. Your smile slowly went away as worry and concern washed up onto your face. " I was never one to be interested in women, un. But you were different. I knew I wanted you but I couldn't... you were taken. I was mad at Sasori when I found out he was sleeping with another women behind your back,un."

Tears were rolling down his face as he continued to speak. His voice cracking between every other word.

" It hurts. It hurts to love someone that will never love you back. I just wanna love you and for you to love me and not him! I just want to hold you in my arms, un....."

His tears were falling down and soaking your shirt, not that you mattered. You gently cupped his cheek and pulled his face closer to yours. You looked into his eyes before closing yours and leaned in to kiss him.

He didn't kiss at first, you guessed he was shocked and he didn't process what was happening. You wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him closer. He finally started to kiss back. His hands went to your waist to hold you.

You both pulled away at the same time panting for air. Your noses were touching as you both stared at each other's eyes.

" Love me Deidara. Give me time and I'll love you back. Is that okay?" You whispered against his lips.

" Take your time. I'll wait as long as I have to." He whispered back.

You and Deidara continued to kiss. The kiss then had lead to a passionate makeout session. His hands roamed every single bit of your body, as your hands did as well to him.

Deidara was sitting, his back to the bed frame as you sat on his lap, your legs wrapped around his waist. Your clothes were long gone. Both of you left only in your underwear. Your sweaty bodies pressed against each other. Hickeys littered your body, claiming you as his and no longer Sasori's. Hickeys on your neck, chest, inner thighs, as well as a bite mark on your shoulder.

Deidara had hickeys on his neck, his toned chest, shoulder, and above the band of his boxers. He whimpered when you gave him the hickey there. His lip had bled a little when you bit on it.

He was roughly grasping your butt as you moaned against his ear. You felt his hard on press against your underwear. You were dripping, your core set ablaze. You were slowly grinding your core against his hard on.

He slowly pulled away from you and you looked back in confusion.

" I-I think we should stop here,un. I've never done this before. I'm still a virgin and I don't want to disappoint you with my lack of experience, un."

You smiled kindly at him. " It's okay Deidara. Let me show you how it's done. Let me help you become a man." Deidara looked into your eyes and nodded. He wanted his first to be with you.

You pushed him down as you straddled his waist. You placed a kiss on his lips before littering kisses slowly down his body. From his neck to the tips of his fingers and then to the hickey above his boxers. You looked back to him and he nodded reassuring it was okay. You smiled before tugging his boxers off. You threw them on the floor before paying attention to his dick that was standing tall.

" It's big, you should be proud."

" S-Shut up, un!" He said embarrassed. You giggled at his flustered form. You stuck out your tongue and gently let it touch the tip. Deidara yelped at the foreign feeling. Your hands massaged his balls as your tongue licked his tip. Deidara had his eyes shut closed due to the pleasure you were giving him.

You took him all the way in your mouth. Deidara let out a whimper as his dick was fully in your mouth. You moved up and down and your hands continued to massage his balls. Deidara had sweat rolling down his face. This feeling was new to him and he was loving it. He opened his eyes to see you staring back at him with his dick in your mouth. Saliva was running down the edges of your mouth as you moaned around him. He thrusted his hips and watched you gag on his dick. He felt himself throb even more. He did it again and again until he felt another foreign feeling.

" I-I gonna c-cum!" He moaned. He watched you pull away and unclasp your bra. His eyes stared at your breast as they bounced, freed from their restraints. You stood up and tugged your underwear off and let it fall to your ankles which you proceeded to kick off.

Deidara stared at your core which was glistening with your juices. He was mesmerized. You crawled up to him and placed a kiss on his lips before positioning his dick at your entrance. You looked into his eyes as he stared back as well. You grabbed his hands and intertwined them with yours.

You slowly went down on him. He was filling you up, your core was squeezing and throbbing around him. You curled your toes at the pleasure. You looked at him as he squeezed his eyes shut as a loud moan left his lips. His hands were squeezing yours and you squeezed back.

You raised your hips and lowered them again and again. Slowly gaining momentum over time. Deidara grasped your butt as he thrusted up, matching the pace you had set. Eventually Deidara wanted to go faster. He quickened the pace and you let him. You gripped his shoulders as your back arched. Your breasts were pressed against his chest yet they still managed to bounce at every thrust. You felt him throb inside you and you knew he was close. You were close as well.

" y/n! I'm close! I'm gonna cum!" He moaned against your neck.

" Cum inside me Dei!" You moaned back as you tugged at his hair.

Deidara came first. He slowly thrusted his cum deeper in you as you came. His orgasm and yours mixing together. You tiredly pulled out and laid beside him. Hands still intertwined. You snuggled into his chest as he pulled you closer.

" Was I better than Sasori,un?" He croaked out.

" Better. He never made me orgasm. I had to do it myself. But let's not think about him. I can see myself falling in love with you. I can see myself starting a family with you."

" That's good. I'll continue to win your heart over, un!" He smiled as tears of joy welled up in his eyes.

You and Deidara slowly fell asleep in each other's arm, unaware Sasori was able to hear everything.

He was breaking inside. He knew he had lost you forever. He knew that you fell in love with Deidara just now. You just didn't know it.

Sasori no longer has the right to barge into your room. He longer had the right to to your heart. The right to your kisses, your hugs, your body, and your moans.

He had lost it all when he slept with another woman that wasn't you. He should've just masturbated. He missed the feeling of your insides so he thought it would be alright if he envisioned having sex with you although it was another woman. He was wrong. It wasn't the same. But he didn't stop. Not even after Deidara told him to stop. He didn't know why he didn't stop.

Sasori hates to admit it but Itachi was right. He did regret it. He also knew he wasn't going to have another chance at love being an S-rank criminal in an organization like the Akatsuki.

He felt emotionless laying in his bed as his tears silently fell.

Sasori was forced to watch as you and Deidara fell deeper in love over the years. Forced to watch as his partner kissed you and hugged you. Forced to hear you making love with the brat. Forced to hear the celebratory Congratulations from the others as Deidara asked for your hand in marriage and you had agreed. Forced to hear the cries of your newborn baby, the father being Deidara.

He stood still as he let himself be stabbed by the puppets that resembled his parents. He could have avoided them but he didn't. He wondered if he was still your lover then maybe he would have avoided them. But he didn't dwell on the thought for long. He didn't want to die with such sorrowful thoughts and what ifs clouding his mind.

He reflected on his life and let out a bitter laugh. I lived a sad life. The people I have ever loved had left me. One of them could have been avoided had I been a good lover. At least it was nice to see my grandmother one last time.....

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