It's been two days since the last time I talked to Kristen. Great right? We've never been apart for more than few hours before but look at us now! I guess I really fucked it up!

Kristen didn't even come to school for two days straight and all of our friends have been constantly asking me about her. Even her cheerleading coach came to me to ask what happened to her as we are best friend. Or maybe we used to be best friend, I don't know if I still can use the title for now. And all I can do was just came up with some lame excuses like 'she is sick' or 'she is not feeling well' and such. When in fact I didn't even know what happened to her.

Maybe I should come with a solution to this?..

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So, I decided to go to Kristen's house to talk about this. She can't really hide from me forever right? No matter how touchy this subject to me, we bound to talk about it sooner or later. And it's actually my heart being broken, but seems like Kristen took this even more seriously than I am. Shouldn't she be the one to console me over my brokenheart because no matter what, she's still my best friend, at least that's what I thought. But look at me now, standing in front of her doorstep, knocking her door while waiting anxiously for someone to open it.

Guess when you have feeling for someone, you rather feel hurt as long as that person is happy right? Feeling sucks then!

"Heyy Alexandra. Glad to see you here. Kristen has been up in her room for some days now and she didn't even want to talk to me about it. Maybe you can talk to her about what happened? I guess it's like best friend code or something?"

"Yeahhh I came here for her. Don't worry Jennifer, I'll try to solve whatever problem she might have.."

Greaaattt! If only she knew Kristen acted that way might have something to do with me.

"Cool! So I should go to work now. You guys have a great time yeah? I've put some pizzas at the kitchen counter and money as well. Bye Alexandra.", she said before rushing to her car and drove away.

So, that's Jennifer Xavier, Kristen's mom. She is such a sweet woman and really kind to everyone. But she rarely at home due to her overload works. I don't exactly know what she does for life but it has something to do with business and she owned it. She owned it with her husband before but Kristen's dad met with an accident 6 years ago and died on spot. Since that time, Jennifer has been extremely busy and didn't have much time for her only daughter, that's why Kristen being taken care by her grandmother sometimes.

I guess Jennifer also feel grateful for my presence because we spent nearly every single time together that makes Kristen forgot about the hurt of losing a father. Sometimes, my family will even took Kristen for a vacation together and that makes her still have a father figure in her life. My father. I've told you guys before that Kristen and I are hardly being separated right??..

So, why am I here again? Ohh.. To have a talk with my best friend...

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I slowly knock on Kristen's room. I heard some shuffling inside the room before the doorknob being jiggled and unlocked. Few seconds later, Kristen's angelic face appeared behind the door. But she looks kinda...terrible? Her hair seems messed up and she put them in a bun, while her eyes seems swolen. Her nose looks a bit red at the tip and she wore quite a shock expression when she saw me.

"Ummm heyy..", I tried to make a conversation.

"Hye.. What are you doing here?", she answered a bit tiredly.

"Just wanna see how are you doing? You didn't even come to school.."

"Yeahhh.. I've been...sick.."

She shuffled aside and let me enter her bedroom. I just simply throw myself on her bed and watch her slowly come and sit beside me. She seems to keep some distance from me. Is she feeling disgusted by me??.. Gosh that hurts like hell!

"So what's up?", I tried to talk and put my hand on hers to see how will she react.

She flinched a bit and stammered "I'm alright I guess!.."

Yeahhhh!! She definitely doesn't even want me to touch her. So, I can't even touch her now that she knew I have this feeling for her?..

"You feel disgusted with me right?", I just decided to be bold and address the elephant in the room.

She startled a bit before answered quite uncomfortably.

"Wha-what?? N-no! Why should I?", she tried to hold her stare into my eyes but failing miserably.

"Well because now you know the fact that I have feelings for you. You don't even want to go near me right?..", I just answered nonchalantly but really it kills me inside.

She sighed a bit.

"No! It's not like that. You are still my best friend. I love you just the same as before. But this is new to me. I'm not disgusted with you by any means, trust me! I guess it just gonna took some time before..."

"... you can be around me again?", I cut her before she can finish her sentence. Guess it hurts so much that I didn't even think I will experience this situation before.

When she didn't even deny it and just stood there biting her lower lips, I can't help but fall for her even more! What the f is wrong with me?? But how can I be mad at her when she's just there, being sincere and the thought that she still want me in her life kinda soothe my pain a lil bit.

"I have an idea to solve our situation.."

That kinda peek her interest.

"What is it??"

I take a deep breath before throwing out my suggestion. It may sound silly but it's better to try anything than being awkward with her for a longer time right?

"Give me 13 days to be your girlfriend!"

"What??!"

"13 days for you to pretend to be my girlfriend and after that maybe things can just came back to normal as before?.."

She frowned a bit while biting her left thumb indicated that she is thinking hard.

"I can't see how things can be back to normal? And why 13 days?"

"Because if you still remember, 13 days later is my birthday.. and I..."

"...of course I remember!", she suddenly cut me out! Talked about being a good friend as she is and that brought a small smile to my face.

"Yeahhh ok! What I meant is 13 days later is my birthday. So, it's either you will fall for me after our pretend period or you'll still love me as your best friend just as before. Either two is still counted as my birthday present, either I can have you more than a best friend or still have you as my best friend, it still cool right?..", I tried to suggest it as calm as I can. She didn't need to know that I'm freaking out inside.

"I don't know if this will be a good idea or not. But then during our pretend period, people will assume I'm a... lesbian??.."

She said those word slowly as she felt so much painful by just uttering those words. Gosh why did I fall for this homophobe??!

"Humm yeahhh just for 13 days. And after that you can just say it's a phase and you are straight and that you still think it's wrong! Whatever just give me 13 days.."

She thinks about it for awhile before finally released her long breath and look at me.

"What will happen to you at the end of this if I can't like you like that??"

"Well I should move on then.. Maybe you can treat me a nice dinner somewhere to mend my heart? Ya know? You are my best friend after all right?", I tried to joke lightly to mask the pain inside of my heart.

"Aaanddd what if I...hummm... what if I fall for you at the end??..", she asked a bit unsurely.

I felt kinda shocked for her question. So, she still think there's possibility that she might fall for me??.. Wow!

"That.. I don't know either. Guess it's up to you.."

Paused a bit..

"Then I guess you've got yourself a deal..", she finally decided it.

"And I guess I got myself a girlfriend.."

I don't know this will be a good idea or not, but I still feel all giddy inside. I don't want to think what will happen after this deal ended, but I should do everything in my power to make her fall for me. Or at least to make her know how I really feel for her.

Time to make plan to catch Kristen Samantha Xavier's heart..

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