I noticed a slightly annoyed expressions on Xandra's cute face. What? She is indeed an attractive girl I must say. It doesn't need to mean anything.

"Kristy why are you so against those gay people? You're so homophobic aren't you?", she asked while frowning a bit.

"Woww that's quite a harsh accusation there bestie..", I simply answered.

"Then why are you so against them? I don't see any of them harrased you or something..", she scoffed a bit. Looks like she's really irritated with me.

I take a deep breath before answering her. I know everyone assumed I'm such a homophobic. It's not that I hate them, just in my life I've been taught what's right and what's not.

"I'm not really against them Xandra. It just.."

*sigh*

"Ya know how I've been raised by my abuela since I was a kid right?"

"Ummm yeahh.. What's the point?"

"Well I've been to church every Sunday since I learned how to walk. And sometimes at certain days, there's talk about how wrong these LGBTQ community are. It's something against the nature. It's an abomination to the world. And I've been taught on what's right and wrong every single day!"

"Well. Ya know what? I think you should know God love every creations He made. Who are us to judge? And did you really think they have a choice in this particular matter?", she asked even more furious! Woww it's a rare thing to see Xandra feel mad at something. And now she's kinda mad at me...

"Ok you have your own view and I respect that. And so do you, just respect my view."

Her face still appeared red which mean she's still mad at me.

"Besides don't get mad at me pleaseeeee... How about we drop this??...", I beg her to drop the topic while pouting a bit. Knowing that's one of her weakness.

She released quite a long sigh before finally give in..

"Urghhh that's not fair.. Fine then!..."

And I do some little dance victory..!

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How can I said anything back when she's pouting like that??! Damn Kristy with her beautiful face and damn my stupid crush on her as well!

How can we stop crushing on someone? I've been thinking this for years and I realised there's still no way out. Yeahhh years because I started to realize my feelings for her since like 3 years ago! How the hell I still can act so cool like this, that's a big achievement for me! And I don't know how long I can hold onto this...

I should do something...

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"Hey bestie. What will we do today?", Kristen asked as we are having our breakfast together.

Yeahhh it's weekend and it's common for us to have breakfast together. She's currently came over to my house and as my parents already love her to death, they prepared a lot of food so that we don't have to get those crappy food outside. That's what my mom saying.

"I don't know. I kinda lazy to go outside. It's like hundred degrees out there..", I simply answered while busying myself cutting my chocolate waffles.

"You're ridiculous. It's only ninety-seven.."

Well I kinda forget to tell you guys that she's kinda a perfectionist. Everything must be accurate or she didn't want to accept anything at all.

I guess I'm too busy stuffing myself with food that I didn't hear her next question.

"Xandra?!"

No answer..

"Xandra!!"

Suddenly I felt something soft licking my earlobes. No! It's not something, of course it's someone! Who else if not her! I stood frozen for awhile and dropped my fork, my eyes widen comically and I'm sure I look so ridiculous now! But I just can stood there doing nothing until I heard someone is laughing!

Snapped out of the moment I decided to scold her, but as I turned my head aside, the view rendered me speechless even more as I saw her laughing face scrunchy a bit making her even cuter. She pressed her hands on her stomach as she still can't stop laughing. Her wavy dark hair just dropped around her shoulder blades and bobbing along her shaking shoulders. Everything just complimented her even more. I still can see her long eyelashes eventhough she's currently laughing at me with her eyes closed.

When she finally realized I've been quiet for awhile, her laughters finally died down. Of course she'll find me staring intently at her. Wait! Is that blushing I spot around her face? Also her ears kept reddening as well. And gosh her eyes... Her eyes are one of the thing I love about her. Well I love everything about her but she just has a pair of brown eyes that sometimes she use to intimidate people, but as for me, I can't help but keep drowning in it everytime...

"Hummm what?", she finally decided to break the silence.

"Nothing. It's just you are so beautiful...", I simply answered while shrugging a bit then continue eating.

Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw her blushing even more and there's a small smile at the corner of her mouth.

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So, we finally decided to just lay on my bed and watching Pitch Perfect 2 together. As we're laughing over something that Fat Amy did, Kristen unconciously grabbed my inner thigh and continue laughing. As for me, of course my laughters quickly died down. It's like Kristen has been doing this on purpose. First when we had our breakfast, she decided to lick my ears instead and now this! Although I know this time she didn't even realize what she has been doing! She will never realized every effects that she has on me!

I turned my head aside to ask her to remove her hand, but to my surprise, she's currently staring at me. Our faces just inches away and I could see her eyes become even darker. Maybe that's just my inner thoughts. But right now, if I move just a bit, I totally can kiss her kissable lucious lips.

I guess she realized I'd accidentally gulped so hard that she slowly smirking at me. Suddenly she flipped me over and pinned my hands over my head. She's sitting directly on my core that it sends some kind of direct pleasure! Lord help me!..

"Why did you stop laughing huh?", she asked still smirking.

"Uhhhh.. Ummm I...I..", I just stuttered nervously. Why did she do this?

"You what huh bestie? You just made me look like an idiot laughing all by myself.. Should I do something to you huhhmm??", her voice somewhat turned into some kind of seductive manners??.. I don't know.. But my heart instantly beg her to just take me then and there.

"Nothing.. It just.. Hummm.. No! You don't get to do this to me!", I said frustratedly while pushing her a bit and stand up.

Finally being able to take a breath from her previous teasing, I realized there's a single tears slowly rolling down my face, maybe because of all my frustrations towards her.

Kristen sensed my change of mood, so she decided to hug me from behind. It really didn't help my situation at all!

"Heyyy Xandra. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just wanna play with you..", her voice sounded so guilty. Gosh now I feel bad.

"No! It's just you don't have to do that! It's not funny!", guess I still can't get over it.

"But we did that all the time. What's wrong?", she asked somewhat concern.

"Nothing. I just feel kinda uncomfortable..."

"Ohh?? Why? Do I smelled?", she tried to sniff herself. That silly dork.

I tried to smile at her action but everything failed miserably. I guess I can't hold my feelings for her any longer. But I don't want to breakdown in front of her. And I definitely don't want her to know my feelings all this time. She will leave me if she knew..

"Heyyy.. What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything right?", she approached me again, sounded even more concerned.

"Can you just leave?"

"What? Why? No I don't want to.."

"Just leave me for awhile Kristy. Please I wanna be alone.."

I heard footsteps and thought she has finally left and I broke down instantly. My back was facing the door so that I don't have to see her face when she's being kickout and I don't need to feel guilty while I'm sorting my feelings out now.

But fate definitely love to play with me! Kristen decided to be the very best friend like always. She didn't leave and she's hugging me from behind instead! I tried to shrug her off but she's stronger. I can't let myself feeling vulnerable in front of her so I unconciously shouted,

"I DON'T WANT YOU ANYMORE KRISTY! JUST LEAVE ME!!"

And with that, I felt her frozen behind me...