Patricia's POV

were one of the greatest students here sa buong campus.

A scholar, chinita eyes, kinulang sa height pero okay lang, palaban when it comes to academics. Pinag-aagawan ka na nga ng mga big universities, I don't know what made you stay in here.

I watched you from a far, reading your textbooks. Cute mo, honestly. An oversized yellow jacket, embracing you from the cold temp library. Napangiti na lang ako.

You always had this shine in your eyes when I'm near. Sana hindi na magbago 'yon.

I greeted you in a whisper, you flinched sa gulat kaya I chuckled lowly.

You said at umirap pa. I laid the foods. Naningkit mata mo. Cute.

I spoke. You smiled gleefully. Nawawala nanaman ang mga mata mo.

I brought your bag with me, you kept on trying to take it kaso bahala ka sa buhay mo. Mukha man akong alipin mo, habang buhay naman kasi kitang pagsisilbihan.

Pamimilit mo as you were stomping.

Cute.

Umirap ka nanaman, attitude nanaman si madam. Hahaha!

Handa mo sa pagkain nang makarating tayo sa garden.

"Thank you Patty hehe!" Saad mo. Love.

Kumain kaming dalawa, ang saya-saya mo. Your eyes always spoke to me, madali ka kasing basahin.

And I love you for that.

Scratch that. I love you for everything.

Bilib na bilib na sambit mo. I nodded as you continued on telling me how your day went.

You asked, aside from loving you?

You said, you knew me well.

I spoke as your eyes turned disappointed.

Why? Ikaw naman 'yon eh.

"So who's the lucky guy?!" You spoke, pilit ang pagiging excited mo. "Secret, I'll let you know who someday." I teased as you pouted.

You said.

Yeah, princess. I'll bring a mirror nang makilala mo kung sino.

-

"Patty, we've been friends since highschool. Right?" She asked. I nodded as I was driving you to your home. "Yeah, why'd you ask?" I asked. Pinunasan ko ang bibig mo dahil may sauce ka sa gilid ng labi mo.

MAY SOMEONE HELP ME CONTROL MYSELF!

You said. Nagulat naman ako.

"If you're not ready it's fine kaya I didn't push you for the past years kasi mamaya you're pressured." Dagdag mo. Umiling ako, "I'm sorry, pero sure I'll let you meet them." I spoke.

Kaya ayaw kitang ipakilala sa pamilya because they'll tease the heck out of me. Bukambibig ba naman kita.

"And next time, let me meet this special someone of yours, m'kay?" I just nodded at what you said.

'May salamin d'yan. Titigan mo sarili mo.'

You asked as I shook my head. Papasok na lang ako ulit sa bahay mo kung pamilya na kita.

I smiled at the sentiment of me coming home to you. I bid my goodbye.

"Babye! Love 'ya!" You shouted kaya ngumiti ako, I felt butterflies in my stomach. Hindi ako mapakali.

I waited for you to get inside, you threw something at the garbage? A paperbag?

Nang makapasok ka na ay pinaandar ko na ito at pumunta sa pamilya ko.

"Ma!" I shouted. I face palmed nang madinig ang nanay ko.

"Oh, Trish! You're here." The-ever-reliable-panganay came home from Harvard.

Binatukan niya naman ako sa pamimilosopo ko. Nang-aasar niyang sambit.

I rolled my eyes, "Shut up ate."

"So I'm right, siya pa rin." She teased.

Patuloy ng pang-aasar nila sa'kin. "So Trish, nasa med school ka na, when are we going to meet her?" Mama asked. "I don't know, I'd schedule it po." I politely said.

My sisters and mama nodded as we ate our dinner.

Jillian flashed her teasing smile. Kupal talaga.

Asar ni ate Aika. Nanlaki naman mata ng kapatid ko kasi narinig ni mama.

"You what?" Gulat na bulaslas ni Mama. Deserve.

Ate Aika said as she smirked.

-

you through our house. Nakikita ko sa mga mata mo ang kaba, that's why i reassured you.

Hawak ko sa kamay mo. Knowing you, you've probably had all scenarios laid out.

"I'm here," I spoke. Namumutla mong tanong, "Of course not. You're a great person, kwinekwento pa lang kita, they love you already." Saad ko.

"You--- Kwinekwento mo 'ko?" I just nodded dahil wala akong kawala sa'yo.

"Come on Honey, you're a great person kaya." I spoke truthfully, mabuti kang tao, masipag, matulungin, lahat na atang mabuting katangian ay sinalo mo na.

You blushed, I smirked. "Oh, nandito ka na pala ate." Jillian spoke as she then winked at you. "WHAT---Aray!" Natigil ako sa pagsigaw nang sikuhin mo 'ko.

"Boom deserve." Asar ni Jillian. "I'm Jillian nga pala. I've heard so many stories about you." Pagpapakilala ng kapatid ko.

You spoke, polite.

-

Madali mong nakagaanan ng loob ang pamilya ko, of course they would like you!

Ngiti-ngiti kitang pinagmamasdan kasama si Jillian. I'm glad na you're getting along with them.

This was the first time my mother asked me about my feelings for you.

"Baka maunahan ka eh." Mama joked. Imposible, bantay-sarado sa'kin si Y/N.

"Di naman ma, waiting for the right time." I said. My mom nodded, Panghuhula niya.

I scoffed,

Tanong ko. Mama spoke.

Nagulat ako sa sinabi ng nanay ko kaya't nabuga ko ang tubig na ininom ko.

You came to aid me, hinahagod mo pa nga ang likod ko, you were too close to me. You nagged, worry were evident sa eyes mo.

Maalalahanin, check.

"S-Sorry." Was all I could say, ganda ng mata mo. I can stare all day.

-

out, I really could. I watched you as you walked at the aisle, ang ganda mo. Every wedding dress had fit you so well.

Patago akong naiiyak habang pinapanood kang maglakad. Para kang diwata na pumunta sa mundo naming mga tao.

Your eyes had the same spark, the way that I've seen for the past few years na magkasama tayo. Hinahagod na ni Jillian ang likod ko.

You smiled at me as you cried, I wanted to kiss you. But I can't--- You're not mine.

I mouthed, you smiled at me and hugged me. "Thank you, I loved you too." You said.

Dumeretso ka na sa ate ko. I could only cry in a distance. Nasa akin na ang lahat, doktor, yaman, parangal, everything else

I was too late, naduwag ako, nagpakampante.

I hated to see you cry.

Galit kong saad. "Gamit niya sa una kong pangalan, seryoso na siya.

Iyak ko sa ate ko. It broke my heart to see you cry sa garden sa university.

Nauurat na saad ni Ate Aika.

"Ate naman, sige na please!" Pagmamakaawa ko. She spoke.

Sigaw ko.

Galit na sigaw din ni Ate. Napatigil ako,

'Hibang na ba ako? Oo, para sa'yo, Y/N.'

There was a long silence that enveloped us two.

I spoke, desperado. Kung ikakasaya 'yon ng mahal 'ko, who am I to disrupt?

End of Flashback

I am still standing, watching as you marry my sister. Wala na akong magagawa, I guess I did deserve this.

Ginusto ko 'to, panindigan ko.

"Ate, take care of her ha?" I mouthed to my sister. Ate Aika nodded, happily.

Kislap ng iyong mga mata'y hindi para sa'kin, kundi para sa kapatid ko. Tanong ngayon.

I would not dare, I would never ever dare, kahit ang tempting.

It was all about you. I would never dare try to hurt you.

Nagpatuloy ang kasal, hanggang sa opisyal na talaga, I wanted to look away when you both kissed. That should've been me, kung 'di lang ako naging duwag.

There's no turning back.

-

two were dancing sa reception niyo. Ang saya niyong tingnan, it looks like you two made your own world.

Am I selfish na hindi ko na kayang maatim na makita kayong masaya?

Napupuno ako ng inggit, if only I was brave enough even for a minute.

Nakita ko na ang bahay mo muli, pero hindi dahil pamilya mo 'ko na asawa kung hindi bilang kapatid ng asawa mo.

Daughter-in-law ka na ni Mama, pero hindi dahil sa'kin.

I could only chuckle bitterly as I drank my alcohol.

Lumabas ako at nagtungo sa balcony. It seems so peaceful here, naalala ko naman ang gawain nating dalawa noon.

I thought,

'Siya na ang aalalahanin mo, hindi na ako. Mas lalong hindi na kita pwedeng pagsilbihan habang buhay dahil si Ate na ang gagawa no'n.'

We both loved to look at the sunset pero mag-isa na ako dahil hindi na pwede. I scoffed pathetically.

Ang nakatatak na sa puso't isip ko na boses mo'y nadinig ko.

Yeah, but you'll soon watch it together with my sister.

I hummed as you gave me a back hug with your small frame na nais kong protektahan buong buhay ksso may iba nang proprotekta sa'yo at .

Pangaral ko. "Hala siya! Wala bestfriend ko eh, nagmumukmok dito eh. Sino ba kasi nagpaiyak sa'yo?" Tanong mo.

Umiwas ako ng tingin sa'yo, I can't lie to you. Never been more than that, Honey.

"Ya! Patricia! Uy!" Sundot mo pa sa tagiliran ko. Utal na saad ko.

Niyakap mo ako ng mahigpit. I want to cry out loud for you, na sana ako na lang. But I don't want to ruin you!

Natuto na lang akong makuntento sa kaya mong ibigay, ang yakap mo.

Naluluha na ako, I wondered how your child would take after you. Eh parang nag-iisa ka lang sa mundo.

I can't replace you.

"Patty, can we dance?" Sinayaw kita, no questions asked. Wala mang tugtog ay alam kong nadarama mo ang puso ko at gustong ipahiwatig nito.

"Jp, sino pala 'yong laloves mo noon? You said you'll bring out a mirror noon?" You asked, we danced under the sunset.

"A-Ah 'yon, 'wag mo na alalahanin iyon." I spoke formally. I cleared my throat, baradong barado.

"Hmm, salamat pala sa lahat." You said as you hugged me while we danced. "No problem."

Masaya na ako, masaya na masaya ka.

Tried to stop my tears. Nagulat ako nang mahulog ang small mirror ko sa pocket.

Pinulot mo iyon. "You brought this with you all the time?" You asked dahil kitang-kita ang pagkaluma n'on. I could only nod. "So who?" You asked again. Nangungulit ka, I wasn't answering.

"Huy---" Natigil ka nang itutok ko sa iyo 'yon.

Fuck it.

"K-Kailan pa?" You asked. "Matagal na, I'm going to m-move on na." I said.

"I-I'm sorry, I didn't know. A-Akala ko'y ayaw mo sa'kin and you were straight noon." You spoke, sadly.

Natawa ako ng mapakla, tanginang tadhana 'to.

Wala na, lagi ko naman kailangang tanggapin, leche!

"No worries, hon. J-Just please live happily with her." I said, stuttering.

Kailangan ko na mag-move on. She's married for pete's sake, Tricia!

"Ofcourse I will, I love her." Ngiting abot sa tenga na saad mo.

I envied my sister. Sana lahat ano?

Why am I so inlove with you? After all these years?

Mapait akong tumitig sa mata mo at nang mahuli mo 'ko ay tumingin ako sa kalawakan.

"Did you love me?" I spoke after a long silence. You said as you smiled.

You spoke, I guess you were shading me when I went to abroad.

Leaving you alone here when you needed me the most. I uttered as I continued to dance with you.

You spoke.

Sige, ipamukha niyo pa.

"Hmm, that's good to know. Live a fruitful life with her, ha?" I said. Wala akong lugar sa inyo.

You nodded happily, masayang-masaya ka sa kaniya.

Kitang-kita ko iyon nang sunduin ka ni Ate rito sa balkonahe. Nagliwanag ang mukha mo.

We both bid goodbyes. "Goodbye Patty." You said as you then smiled at your wife's gesture na inaalalayan ka pa.

Ang ganda mo pa rin. Kislap ng mata mo ang hindi ko malilimutan.

Maalaga si Ate Aika, 'di ko makakaila 'yan, tiwala ako sa kaniya.

Pumasok na kayo sa loob, I drank a bottle of vodka.

Loving you was a beautiful disaster.

Goodbye, my love. It's my time." Usal at ngiti ko sa kalawakan.

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