Tanong mo sa loob ng bahay mo.

She's still not home. "Tricia? Janine?" This was the first time na hindi siya ang naunang umuwi, you rang her phone.

"Trish!" Sigaw mo. Wala pa rin sumasagot kaya't pumunta ka na sa ospital ng asawa mo.

You texted and called her family kaso walang balita. Tanong mo.

Sambit ng secretary ng asawa mo.

You were confused, her leaving without telling you was so unusual.

"Benjamin, pakihanap s-si Tricia please." Tawag mo sa dati mong guard mula sa telepono.

"Copy po." He answered. Lumabas ka naman at nag-antay sa bahay, dalawang araw ang nakalipas, bago siya bumalik.

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"Hi love!" Bati niya sa'yo, makulit pa rin. You asked her, serious.

She said as she went upstairs, sinundan mo naman ito.

Pagsingkit ng mata mo, "Ano naman itatago ko?" She asked, You answered sarcastically.

She said to you. Naurat ka naman, "This is how you come back?" Reklamo mo.

Nag-walk out ka na lang sa kaniya. Sinundan ka naman niya parang aso niyo, "Love... Comeback to me." She said.

Umiling ka, "I'm not in the mood, Patricia, if this is one of your jokes." You told her, parang walang nangyari.

Naalala naman ni Tricia na dapat ka niyang pakawalan. She asked.

Napakamot na lang ito ng ulo at umakyat muli sa taas nang wala ka masagot.

"Urgh, fine." You answered at narinig naman ito ni Tricia.

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Huh? Y/N, ba't siya nandito?" Tanong ng asawa mong hindi matigil-tigil sa kakasunod sa iyo.

"Kasi pinasunod ko siya rito." Sambit mo kahit hindi mo naman alam talaga na punta ni Reiner ay dito.

Hinila ka naman ni Tricia sa tagong lugar, Babala niya sa iyo, natawa ka sa turan niya, You were scoffing at her.

She said as you walked out from the scene.

"Plan 1, failed." The doctor sighed as she saw you walk to that guy. She checked Reiner's background and he indeed has a history of gold-digging vulnerable sheltered kids.

"Tangina naman, Y/N. Masakit ah?" Ngiting pilit ni Tricia at saka lumisan na mula sa tinaguan.

Saad ni Reiner.

"Tsk, she deserves it. Kailangan niya maramdaman pinaggagawa niya sa'kin. Besides, she was the one who made me like this kaya don't blame me!" Galit mong depensa, you could be civil with Tricia but everytime you remember her lying to you.

It made your blood boil na maski mukha niya sa umaga ay gusto mo na lang sukahan.

"Sa totoo lang, magulo ka. You want to sleep with her pero sinusuka mo araw-araw." He said, Sambit mo ngunit iba ang sinasabi ng puso mo, it made you hate her more kasi you love to wake up beside her despite her business agenda with you.

Narinig naman iyon lahat ni Tricia kaya't tumakbo ito paalis na dapat tatawagin ka for her prepared date for you.

She was trying to court you pero dahil nga sa panlalamig mo ay nahihirapan na ang doktor sa iyo.

You just gave her a side eye, you wanted to follow her but your pride is in the way.

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Inaantay mo na pumasok ang asawa mo sa kwarto, hindi ka makatulog. Nag-cellphone ka't tumawag sa asawa mong hindi sumasagot at anong oras na umuwi.

"Nasaan ka na ba?!" Iritang sambit mo. Sa kabilang dako naman, si Tricia ay iniisip ka lamang, 'If I hadn't gone out with that plan, would I still be yours?' Tanong ng doktor sa isipan, kanina pang umiinom ng alak at umiiyak.

She uttered while looking at the moon. Sigaw ni Tricia sa sarili, punong-puno ng pagsisi at nilagok ang alak na kanina niya pang iniinom.

She said.

Alam ng doktor ay kasama mo pa rin si Reiner.

Tinapon ng dalaga ang mga ininom niyang alak, naglakad na patungo sa hotel room ninyo.

"Shit! Anong oras na ba? S-Saan nga ulit room namin?" Nagugulumihanan na tanong nito sa sarili nang madako ang tingin niya sa receptionist.

Tanong ng receptionist. Tricia drunkly said. Kinapkap ni Tricia ang bulsa niya at she sighed in relief, naroon ang room number, she was forgetful sometimes.

Puro ikaw kasi ang inaalala. She got to your shared room at nang marinig mo ang kaluskos ay nagtulug-tulugan ka. She said sincerely.

Tanong niya sa iyo sa akala niyang tulog. "Kung alam ko lang naman na ganito ang sasapitin ng mga desisyon ko sa buhay ay lumayo na ako." Tricia said as she smiled sadly.

Nagbabadyang tumulo ang mga luha mo ngunit pinipigilan mo ito hanggang sa naipon at naluha ka na ng tuluyan. "Please don't cry, it pains me to see na umiiyak ka, siguro pati sa panaginip ay naalala mo ang panloloko ko sa'yo but believe me, I love you sobra." Punas ni Tricia sa luha mo, hinalikan ka sa ulo.

Naiiyak na rin ang doktor.

"I'll leave you be na talaga.. Last na 'to." She said as it made you surprised despite na you were faking your sleep.

'What?!' Gulat na tanong mo sa isip mo.

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Kinabukasan, ang huling tatlong araw ay pumayag ka na kasama ang asawa mo. Though you were warm.with her again, Tricia was strict with her words, hindi siya nagbibitaw ng salitang hindi niya pinapanindigan.

"Tricia, let's go there oh." You pointed out a jetski. Tricia answered as she held your hand while renting the motor.

Nang marentahan niyo ay tinulungan ka ng asawa mong magsuot ng life vest, you were having this fluttering feelings, traydor ang puso mo.

You played like kids, you felt safe with her as she drove the jetski with you. Aksidenteng sigaw mo sa tawagan ninyo.

Nahulog ka sa dagat at tumalon kaagad ang asawa mo para kunin ka. If this was a life and death situation, she would still jump for you.

She said, when you got brought up on the jetski, it had double meaning.

You encircled your arms around her waist as you both enjoyed the view while having fun kasi extreme para sa'yo ang jetski.

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Asik mo sa asawa mo, "Hehe just want to say I love you baka makalimutan ko at mamimiss kita kasi eh.Saad ng asawa mo.

"Lika, let's sleep together na." Napabalikwas ka naman sa sinabi niya. Biro ni Tricia kaya umirap ka naman, "Hindi kaya!" You defensively say.

Tayo ng asawa mo as she held your chin and lifted your face, she was smirking.

Lumapit ng lumapit ang mukha ng doktor, definitely was teasing you. She sarcastically say while looking down on you.

Napalunok ka naman, 'Di ako magiging marupok!' Hinaplos ng asawa mo leeg mo. 'MA! I'M SORRY MA! NGAYON LANG!' Sambit mo sa sarili dahil nagkakagulo na ang utak mo.

The night was too long dahil sa nangyari sa inyo. May consent ng isa't-isa.

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Pagkauwi niyo ng Maynila ay dumeretso kayo sa inyong tahanan.

It was quiet, nagulat ka nang umakyat ang asawa mo't nagmamadali. Na-awkward kayo sa isa't-isa, nobody said anything bout what happened that night.

'Dumb Y/N! Bumigay ka naman!'

You shouted at yourself, nahihiya and blushing when you were reminded of what happened.

Nakalipas ang ilang linggo..

You were upset again, hindi ka na niya pinapansin, madalang na ang pagbati niya sa'yo..

You kept on reminding her of everything, she was kind of a mess kaya't nagtataka ka na, she does not have the concept of time.

Ramdam mong onti-onti na siyang lumalayo, you felt used again.

Katabi mo pa rin siya matulog..

"Who are you? Asaan si Y/N?!" Nagulat ka nang bigla ka niyang sakalin.

"T-Tricia, it's me!" She choked you. Galit na galit ito, Galit na sambit nito.

"A-Ako nga asawa mo, anniversary natin is next week! Apr. 07, 2018 t-tayo ikinasal! Help!" Sigaw mo, nakita mong tumingin ito sa wrist niya.

Binitawan ka nito at sumigaw habang tumakbo ito papasok sa walk-in closet niyo.

Si Patricia nama'y naghahalungkat ng box na kulay brown. "Tangina! Ba't ako nandito?!" Kinuha nito ang box at binuksan, naubo ito sa sobrang maalikabok...

She read her journal, "Kasama mo si Y/N kahapon, natulog ka sa tabi niya pagkatapos mo siyang tulungan mamalengke, masakit man na umiwas pero kailangan para hindi na siya masaktan lalo." Basa ni Tricia at itinuloy.

Basa niya sa dulo ng pahina.

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You asked her sister sa call.

It was too stressful at home, maybe your wife needs a fresh environment.

"Ha? Ate? Bakit?" Tanong ng kapatid niya. "Namimiss niya raw kayo, kwento niya kagabi." Pagsisinungaling mo.

"Aysus! Si ate Pat talaga! 'Pag inaaya sasabihin bebe time pero miss naman pala kami. HAHAHAHA!" Jillian joked sa kabilang linya.

"Yeah, yeah, she kept on making kwento about your life pa nga sa Naga." You told her as you enforced a lie to make the other lie stronger.

"Sige, sige ate, susunduin namin si ate later! Bye! Love you!" She said and you answered back, "Ingat ah? Love you too!"

Umakyat ka pagkatapos to check on Tricia sa walk-in closet ninyo.

"Janine? Are you okay in there?" You asked, "Yes, sorry, pasok ka mamaya later." She answered, ramdam mo pa rin iyong pilipit ng kamay ng asawa mo sa leeg mo.

But again, you chose to understand.

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Nang dumating sila Ate Aika, you exchanged greetings with the two. "Hi po sainyo, pasok ho." You said as they got in.

Jillian asked. Itinuro mo ang asawa mo na nasa garden at nagmamasid lang sa tanawin.

Sabay na salita ng magkapatid. Lumingon naman si Tricia nang may halong pagtataka kaya't binuksan nito ang wallet.

After that she closed it and hugged them both.

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You were confused with her actions. Pagkatapos nilang umalis ay iniligpit mo ang kainan at naghugas, umakyat ka sa taas at naisipan mong maglinis ng walk-in closet.

Nadulas ka dahil sa dalawang papel, lumanding ito sa dibdib mo.

"Resignation letter?" Nagulat ka sa binasa mo, you read the other, "Diagnosis for Ms. Patricia Robredo. Postive: Alzheimer's disease." Napaiyak ka sa nababasa mo.

You were confused. 'Why would she hide this from me?!'

'Kaya pala these past few weeks she weren't responding well sa tasks na daily niya ginagawa, kaya pala this time nasakal niya ako pag-aakalang ibang tao ako.'

You cried in your head, you thought she was going to leave you.

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"Patricia, ano ba gusto mo kainin?" She was only quiet. "Huy! Pat!" Tawag ni Aika ulit kaya nabigla ito. "Ano?!" She was agitated.

Tanong ni Jillian. Tumango na lang si Patricia.

I'm honestly not sure if eto 'yung favorite resto ko. I can't remember all I do know is Y/N's name, birthday, and our anniversary.

Natatakot ako na pati siya ay makalimutan ko, that's why I've left straces of me everyday para babasahin ko the next day if I kept on forgetting things. Nahihiya na nga ako sa asawa ko, I've done things na akala ko'y nagawa ko na, hindi pa pala.

"Oh Tricia, how are you?" My ate asked. Is she really my ate? Sabi naman sa piktyur, mukha naman niya.

She asked. "Statement po." I answered.

She looked at me weirdly, did I say anything wrong?

Natatawang sambit ni Jillian, shit! Does the past Tricia not say po?

"Hehe, sorry na!" Biro ni Ate Aika.

I stayed quiet to avoid suspicions kasi ang mga naalala nila ay hindi ko na maalala. Answered when questioned lang, gan'on!

They kept talking about work! How am I supposed to know, ang nabasa ko lang doon is I resigned, didn't get the chance to read through the journals, 'yong about kay Y/N lang.

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Nang pagkalabas namin ng mall ay tinanong ako nila Ate kung sasabay ba raw ako sa kanila, ang sagot ko'y hindi dahil may kailangan pa akong bilhin para sa asawa ko, gusto kong bumawi kay Y/N lalo na sa ginawa ko ngayong araw. "Ate, pinadala mo na si Raven?" Jillian asked but I was confused, 'I only have Y/N?! I would not cheat on her!' "Ate kotse mo 'yun."

I asked, pagkakaalam ko ay meron akong Mercedes Benz na S-class. She scolded and laughed, I laughed too para maibsan at hindi magkaalaman na nakalimutan ko. "Sorry, I missed it kasi. Ya, I brought Raven." They just nodded at me, who just lied.

Tumungo ako ng store para maghanap kung ano magugustuhan mo. Nang magbabayad na'y, "Miss, 5,000 pesos po." Sambit ng cashier. Ibinigay ko naman iyon sa kaniya, "I received 5000 cash." She said.

Nang maglakad ako ay sumakay ako ng jeep pauwi.

Tricia paid the driver and told him na ibaba siya sa paroroonan as what the other customers heard too. They were shocked to hear na you were about to pay again, "Ate, kakabayad mo lang po." Sambit ng katabi ni Tricia. "Ay gan'on ba? Salamat." Sambit ni Tricia.

Mga ilang minute ang nakalipas ay tingin-tingin ang dating doctor at bumaba, "Ma, ba't dito bumaba si Ate?" Tanong ng bata sa nanay nito dahil medyo may kalayuan pa ang dapat na babaan mo.

"Shit," halungkat ni Tricia sa Journal niya sa bag.

"Lechugas, paano kapag wala ako maalala bukas?!" She worriedly say at lingon-lingon sa kahabaan ng EDSA.

Since it was already night time, she decided to stay at an unfamiliar hotel dahil hindi na safe and she forgot about the time too.

When she went at her room, she was shocked to see na wala ang bag niya, only her wallet and the gift for Y/N was there along with the keys.

Tricia tried to find a paper and ballpen to write informations about today. Naisipan niya na lang na sa resibo ng gift mo na lang isulat.

"Puta! Ano susulat ko?!" Sabunot niya sa sarili nang maalalang kaya siya bumaba dahil hindi niya maalala ang address. "Nasa Journal kasi 'yon tapos I lost my bag pa!" She messed her hair around, irritated at naka-kunot ang noo.

She was panicking, Tricia felt so helpless, para saan pa ang pagiging doktor niya kung hindi niya magamot ang sarili niya.

She opens her sleeves, It was tattooed there.

"Love, tulong." Was all she could say, natatakot siyang kinabukasan ay hindi ka na niya maalala as she coughed and coughed.

Umiiyak sa takot.

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You were panicking around inside your shared home with her, as you held the paper.

It read there.

1 Resign and change the CEO para may time ka na sa kaniya.

2 Let her go after you spent some time with her.

3 Go on your own to not hurt her anymore. Aalis ka without trace, Tricia.

Natatakot ka na baka eto na 'yong araw na gagawin niya. It was already midnight, you wanted to go and call the cops but all they could tell you na it would take 24 hours to declare someone as missing.

Nagagalit ka dahil wala kang magawa, you were advised by your guards to stay and wait for her at sila maghahanap sa labas.

You waited until 4 o'clock in the morning and drove around the malls perimeter, tinakasan mo ang guwardiya mo.

"Tricia, where are you, mahal?" You cried. Wala ka ng pakialam kung magagalit si Ate Aika sa'yo dahil sa pagsuway mong hindi manatili sa bahay.

You drove and drove around, wala pa rin. You drove sa kahabaan ng EDSA, nawawalan ka na ng pag-asa.

It hurts a million times to not see her. Kinain mo ang sinabi mong ayaw mo na siyang makita.

"Help me! Huwag si Patricia please!" Hagulgol mo sa kotse.

Then there was a crowd, full of men. You pulled over doon after calling the police as they ran away when you tried to run them over but hit the brakes when you saw her.

It was her, messy and shiveled hair but it was still her. "Love?" You asked, crying and hugged her.

"Ano ba?! May asawa akong naghihintay sa bahay! Baka kasama ka nung mga magnanakaw, ate!" Naiyak ka sa sinabi niya.

She was definitely older than you. You had to pretend, "No, ate, volunteer ho ako, n-nakita ko ho kasi kayong inaaway ng mga 'yon. Kaibigan ko po kasi si Ms. Y/N." Lumingon ito sa iyo. "Talaga?! When's her birthday?! Kailan Anniversary namin?!" Sunod-sunod niyang tanong sa'yo.

You were crying as you told her the dates, you looked at her rolled sleeves at binabasa niya iyon.

"Sige, ihatid mo ako sa asawa ko please, gabi na kasi, she must be worried. Ibibigay ko sa kaniya itong regalo, birthday niya ngayon eh." She told you while waving her paperbag.

"A-Ang galing niyo naman po, naalala niyo pa asawa mo." You politely told her. "Mahal na mahal ko 'yon kahit napaka-hard headed, inaalagaan ko pa rin kasi mahal ko." She answered as you were a mess but tried to hide it.

"Ikaw?"

"Ahh, may asawa rin po ako, this time po, ako na m-mag-aalaga sa kaniya." You tried to stop your uncontrollable tears.