This might be the last entry of this book.

If you've come this far, congratulations.

When you started reading this book, I know, for sure, that I'am not with you already because you'll not be able to read these entries if I was still alive and breathing.

I know that my previous entry was me, writing that I will fight for the sake of my family. I actually did that. But that was months ago. Today is different. Far more different.

I'm not the one who's holding my own life.

So, here I am.

I know the first one to have the guts to read this is mama. I know know na si mama ang unang bibigyan nitong libro after someone will recover this book lying on the center of my bed.

I placed it where you will all notice it directly instead of hiding it kase alam kong hindi ninyo lilinisin o mag-go though sa room ko. I know that you will leave it the way I left it. And thank you, for that.

But please, alisan ninyo ng alikabok ang room ko dahil ba't atakihin ako ng asthma whenever I go there to visit you all.

Chos. Joke time naman, 'wag puro iyak. Tahan na kayo; everything will be fine.

Anyway, I decided that I'll have this entry as my pamamaalam sa aking pinakamamahal na pamilya.

Pinakamamahal na ina, Maria Leonor Gerona Robredo.

Pinakamamahal na panganay na kapatid, Jessica Marie Gerona Robredo.

Pinakamamahal na pangalawang kapatid, Janine Patricia Gerona Robredo.

Pinakamamahal na ikatlong kapatid, Jillian Therese Gerona Robredo.

I love you all.

First, mama.

Hi, mama. I know that we've been talking a lot since ikaw ang palagi kong kasama sa hospital. We were always talking, mama, and that made me so happy and full. Bawing-bawi talaga ang nawalang oras natin. I am thankful na we got to have the bond that we needed.

Please remember that I love you — always. Thank you for all the things that you did for us and please continue it for the sake of my sisters and for you, too.

Now, to my ates.

First off, please look after mama. Look after yourselves, too. That's what I will want, you all should know that. Be there for each other. Be each other's sandalan.

My lovely sisters, thank you sa time na nagamit natin kahit kaunting oras lang ang ating nagimit. Continue bonding with each other. I'll always be with you 'pag you'll have your bonding time. I hope y'all won't get creeped out, though.

Ate Aika, feel ko, ikaw talaga ang unang magkaka-baby, haha. I hope your future spouse will treat you how you should be treated. 'Pag hindi, mumultuhin ko talaga.

Ate Tricia, are you with miss Lauren now? Are you Mrs. Weltz, now? Chos, baka hindi naging kayo tapos pasulat-sulat pa ako rito. Pero baka naman. Sure ko, 'yung first baby mo will be the only girl apo ni mama. Correct me, soon, if I'm wrong.

Ate Jill, yieee, kayo na ba ng manliligaw mo? 'Wag mo nang pakawalan 'yang si kuya A at sagutin mo na kase sa lahat ng naging jowa mo, siya lang ang nakasundo ko at naging-close.

Basta, remember ninyo 'yung bilin ko sainyo. 'Wag kayong manghinayang sa nangyari, ha. I'll always be still here naman. Papa and I will always be watching you all. Guiding you all. Protecting you all.

Sana maging masaya kayo.

Reach y'all's dreams.

Alam ko, dream ni ate Tricia si miss Lauren. HAHAHA. Lab you, ate! Sana maging jowa mo auntie ni Mars.

Sayang eh, hindi ako nakaranas nigang pa-love life love life na 'yan. Maybe in another life, I would be my best friend's girl. I wonder if what type of partner I would be.

Favor din, hehe. Pakibantayan si Maureese, please. Labs ko kase 'yun. Shh. I confessed to her yesterday. I also got my first kiss yesterday. She told me she felt the same way but we didn't take another step pa. We're gonna wait until okay na ang lahat.

I know everything won't be okay.

That was why I didn't move forward with my love for her kase ayaw ko siyang masaktan dahil iiwan ko lang din naman siya.

Iiwan ko naman kayong lahat at 'yun palang, masakit na.

Kaya humihingi ako ng tawad dahil iniwan ko kayo ng maaga. I'm sorry you have to go through losing someone again. I'm sorry kung naranasan niyo na naman ang sakit na dinanas natin 'nung nawalay saatin si papa.

I'm sorry if sasaktan o nasaktan ko na naman kayo.

Take care of each other, yeah?

I don't know what to write na and I'm getting tired narin tapos baka magising pa si mama since hating gabi na.

Please remember that I fought really hard. Para sainyong lahat. I did my very best but I think, my best was not enough. At least I fought. Hindi ko ginustong sumuko pero kailangan kong sumuko, napilitan akong sumuko.

Always remember that I love you all so much.

Salamat sa labing-anim na taon na pagsasama nating lahat.

Masaya akong bago pa mag ako mawalay sainyo ay nagkaayos tayong lahat at nagka-time para magka-bond kahit sa maliit na oras lamang.

Until we all meet again.

-My last regards,

Jeileurv Samantha Nicolette Gerona Robredo.