Do you feel the feeling when they tell you that you are loved but you feel that you aren't?

You want, need, to be loved and you are, as what they've told you but you don't feel it.

They sit you down and tell you that they love you just now how you wanted to be loved. Does that still count? You clearly don't feel their love, simply because it's not how you imagine it would be.

I feel that way.

Do you?

Or is it just me?

They told me too many times that they do love me. Because they're my lover. Because they're my sisters. Because they're my friends. Because they're my parents.

But why don't I feel it? Is it my fault? Do I just not see tht they love me?

Is it my fault when...

My ate once sat me down. We had a heart to heart talk even though I clearly didn't want it. We talked about how they love me and that I was just blinded by the thought of not being loved.

Am I?

How about the time when my own mother told me that she had enough of me and told me that that's why I'm so hard to love.

Am I?

Or when my first ever girlfriend told me that I act like a needy child because I always seek for people's love.

Is this all my fault that I don't feel their love for me?

Does my dad think that I am hard to love, too?

If all they're saying about how they love me is true, that I'm just too blind too see or feel it, then, why can I feel auntie Risa's and kokol's love?

Am I really just blinded by my thoughts?

Now,

Are my actions my own fault?

Will this still change?

Will I start seeing their love for me?

Will I ever feel it?

Will I ever heal?

If so, when?

Is this feeling the only thing that I will face in my life? Or does life has a bigger bitter plan that's waiting in the future?

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COMING SOON