Atlanta, Georgia

5:43 PM

March 4, Tuesday

"Alexander get away from me!!"I screamed as he charged at me.

"Nah bitch you wanna cheat on a nigga and go behind my back fucking on these other niggas, that's cool I'm finna show yo ass!"he yelled.

"I'm not cheating on you!!!"I yelled as I backed up into the couch.

"Quit fucking running from me Victoria!!!"

I ran around the couch before trying to run upstairs but he grabbed me by my hair.

"No stop, stop!!"I screamed before he punched me in my face.

He backed me up into the wall and choked me.

I kept kicking to get him off of me but he wouldn't move until I was desperately gasping for air.

He let me fall to the floor before he walked into the kitchen.

I watched him as he grabbed a bag of chips before opening the bag and sitting on the countertop eating them.

"Why do you make me do shit like this!?"

"Alexander for the last time I'm not cheating on you and I never have."I cried.

"Bitch you are cheating on me, I checked your fucking phone!"

"Alexander you didn't even give me a chance to let you check my phone before you just shattered it."

"Well I seen you leaving the mall with a nigga."

"That's a fucking lie and you know it!"

"Tell me I'm lying again, ima come over there and slide yo ass."

I sat there in the corner crying for about an hour before he left.

When he did I got myself cleaned up.

It was no point in me leaving the house with my face like this so I just stayed home.

I don't know sometimes it's like Scarr wants to love on me then he wants to talk to me crazy then he wants to put his hands on me.

I'm not really sure why he acts that way but it's very fucking confusing and scary, especially when I'm getting my ass beat for the lies that he makes up about me.

I've never cheated on him and I won't ever cheat on him because I really love him and I am in love with him.

Sometimes I just feel very unappreciated because I'm the one who takes care of shit while he's gone or working or out partying or at the studio.

I'm the one that stays here taking care of his son's who are always giving me shit or even just blatantly disrespecting me.

I don't treat them different neither do I treat him different because that's just not the type of person I am, I actually for them.

The only reason why I haven't left is because I actually care for them, I'm not sure if their mom does, but I do.

She hates my guts so bad because I'm with her ex-husband but little does she know, I'm the one that taking care of her kids while her ex-husband is out living it up.

It's fine though, hopefully in the future we can work something out because if not I'm just gonna leave.

"Ummm Andrea and Mikey, may I see you two beautiful people in my office?"I asked them as I walked out of my office.

"Of course!"Mikey said as he and her both got up to come into my office.

I waited by the door.

"Have a seat, have a seat."I said to them as I closed the door.

"Is this the principles office, are we in trouble?"Mikey asked me and Andrea chuckled.

Aside from everybody else who worked at Upscale Realty in the past, Andrea and Mikey are two new agents who I hired two years ago.

In the beginning everything was peaceful until they got familiar with everybody and they started bringing tons of drama into the office.

Not only are they bringing drama in still but they're bringing us down as a team because they're not producing as much as everybody else.

I'm to the point to where now I can't take it anymore and I'm done giving chances so you know what that means.

"Okay I'm gonna get straight to business because I have a family that's waiting on me and I have no more time to waste today. With that being said Andrea and Mikey, I've given you guys chance after chance to pull your weight here at Upscale Realty. The other ladies and Roland have given you advice, but you all have just been making excuses. Umm I'm not sure if you know how this makes everybody else feel who are performing very well and putting in work when you guys are just playing around and sticking your nose everywhere it shouldn't be. And if you're not putting your all in to this that makes me question whether you really want to do this or even be apart of Upscale."

"May I talk?"Andrea asked me and I nodded.

"Feel free."

"Umm I actually haven't only been 'sticking my nose everywhere it shouldn't be.' I've been directing my energy towards real estate and other people who have been sticking their noses everywhere they shouldn't be, like in my business. As far as Mikey and I both, you know we're like two pees in a pod, nobody can break us apart and that's what the other girls hate about us. They start the drama, we just engage into parts of it because we're being brought up in it. Other than the drama I've been trying so hard get these houses closed."

Girl bye.

"You got anything to say Mikey?"I asked him.

"Not at all. Well like she said we have been directing our energy towards real estate and other people who have been minding our business. With real estate it's been so hard because we're not deep into this like you and everybody else are, and we're basically trying to give it our all."

"If you can direct your energy towards real estate only and not towards drama or relentlessness then you can become successful. This isn't school I can't break you two up and say oh you get over here or you don't talk to Mikey anymore, it is up to you two to put the bullshit aside and get to business. This is like my last time telling you all leave the drama at the door and make some money!!! I really don't want to let either one of you go because I know you have potential but I also know that I have an open-door policy and anybody can come in just like anybody can go out. With that being said I'm gonna be giving you both time off for about four months because right now is not it. Please get it together guys because I'd hate to let either one of you go."

"Okay is that all?"Andrea asked me.

"Yeah that's all, do you have any questions or concerns for me?"I asked them.

"Nope not at all, thank you"Mikey said before they walked out.

I cleaned up my things before placing my items back into my duffle bag.

"Okay y'all I'm finna go home."I said to everybody as I walked out of the office with my duffle bag and phone in my hand.

"Byyeeee!!!"

"Bye everybody have a goodnight."

"Kodi is Mr. James coming to clean up tonight?"Tasha asked me.

"No not tonight."

"Alright well bye, drive safe I love you."

"I love you more, thanks!!"I said before walking out of the office.

I went to my car and got inside before heading home.

I looked over at Zay as he rapped to the song that was playing.

"Who in the house?"he asked me.

"Umm my you siblings and my mama's fiancé."

"Why we can't go in?"

"'Cause you can't, what you mean?"I smiled while looking at him.

He chuckled while looking down.

"What?"

"You pretty..."he said and I blushed while turning my head.

"You ever smoked?"he asked me and I shook my head no.

"You trying to?"he asked me as he fired up a blunt.

"No, my mama is gonna fuck me up."

"Mmcht. You scared of yo mama?"

"Yeah! She brought me in and she'll damn sure take me out."

"She not even home!"he said and I thought about it.

"Alright come on."I said and he tried to hand the blunt to me.

"No nigga you hit it first, I'm new to this."I said and he laughed before hitting it.

He taught me how to hit it and once I caught on, I became a pro.

After about ten minutes of us joking around, I saw my mama pull up.

"Oooh get down, there goes my mama."I said while scooting down in the seat.

"I ain't getting down, that's yo mama."he said.

"Let me know when she goes inside."

"Aight."he said and I sat curled up in the seat for about two minutes.

"Nigga is she gone!?"I asked him.

"Oh shit I forgot, yeah."he said and I sat up.

"Did she see you!?"

"Ion know."he shrugged.

"You obviously don't care either. I think it's time for you to go and me to go inside."I said.

"Damn that's how it is?"

"I'm scared of that woman, the fuck."

"Mmcht whatever, bring it in."he said and I hugged him.

Before we could pull away, we stared at each other.

He grabbed my neck catching me off guard and kissed my lips, I kissed him back.

"What was that!?"I semi yelled once he let me go.

"What?"

"You grabbed my neck!!!"I said and he started laughing.

"Yeah get used to, I ain't gone hurt you baby."

"Wait baby???"I furrowed my eyes at him.

"Yeah— Mmcht Heaven this my last time asking you to be my girl, I want the fuck out of you girl what don't you get!?"

"Okay I'll be your girl Zay."I smiled at him 'cause I could sense him getting mad.

"Aight then I'll see you later gang."

"Bye."I smiled while getting out of his car.

"Ima call you later Aight!?"

"Okay."I said before closing the door and walking across the street to the house.

"Where were you?"my mama asked me as I walked into the kitchen wherever everybody was.

"Outside."

"Outside where? I looked everywhere and didn't see you."

"I was in the car."

"What car?"

"My car."

"Doing what?"

"Damn you finna indict her or some?"Josh said and I laughed.

"Nah for real."I said and my mam chuckled.

"No I'm just curious, what was you doing in your car?"

"Making TikToks!"

"Heaven I'm stupid, you're high."

"No I'm not."I said while walking to the refrigerator and grabbing a water bottle.

"Yes you are!! Who the fu— you gave her something?"she asked Josh and he put his hands up in surrender while backing back.

"Nah I ain't give her none and if I did I would've told you, accident or not."

"Heaven who have you been smoking with?"

"Oh my gosh, I'm not high for the last time!"I said after drinking my water.

"Heaven your eyes are bloodshot red."

"I was fake crying for a TikTok video!!"

"If you're high just say that, don't sit here and lie about it."

"Mama you're doing the most right now."

"What you think? Is she high?"she asked Josh.

"She said she was fake crying for a TikTok."he said while throwing a Reese's into his mouth.

I started laughing at him 'cause why he just put the whole thing in his mouth like that.

"Bro you funny, gimmie some."I said while walking up to him.

He dapped me up while laughing and I looked back at my mama.

"Heaven where are your keys?"

"My keys!? Are you serious!?"I asked her.

"Yeah because you think I'm playing with you."

"Okay I'm high, I'm high!! Are you happy?!"

"Okay where are your keys?"

"Which one's? Which car!?"I asked her.

"Both of them."

"Mmcht. Mama please don't take them."I said while following her upstairs.

She walked into my room and I fell on the floor and started crying but I wasn't really crying because I was laughing.

"Why are you taking my keys!!?"

"Heaven ima beat your ass, your not supposed to be smoking!"she chuckled while walking out of my room with all four of my car keys.

"...I come home, in the mornin' light. My mother says, "When you gonna live your life right?" Oh momma dear, we're not the fortunate ones. And girls, they wanna have fun, oh girls just wanna have fun!!"I sang Girls Just Want To Have Fun by Cyndi Lauper and I heard Josh laughing.

"And both of y'all think this shit is funny, and I'm so serious!"my mama said.

"That's exactly why you can't drive your cars for a week or leave the house unless it's pertaining to school."she said before walking downstairs.

I got up and went into my room and closed the door.

I wasn't trippin' as long as she didn't take TikTok from me.

As soon as I got into my room, I ate snacks from my stash before going to sleep.