Atlanta, Georgia

12:22 AM

February 25, Saturday

🎶I got a bitch named Keisha, she a real dick pleaser. But shawty from cuba, still workin on her visa. Her girlfriend Lisa, met her in Puerto Rico. How she don't suck dick but expectin me to eat her? 🎶

I twerked on my fiancé while holding a cup of Patron in my hand.

He held me by my neck as I bent over and grabbed my ankles while grinding on him.

"Throw that shit best friend!!!"Natasha yelled and I stopped once the dj mixed the song up and turned on some slow shit.

"When I feel what I feel, sometimes it's hard to tell you so. You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know."I sang to the song as I wrapped my arm's around Josh's neck while singing to him.

He smiled while resting his hands on my hips.

"Hold up is that Rihanna singing that, I'm high as hell."he said and I chuckled.

"Is that Rihanna singing Aaliyah's song? Yeah you're most definitely high as hell, baby that's Aaliyah."

"Ain't Aaliyah the one that fucked around wit—"

"Baby just hush."I turned around and said.

Josh kissed my neck while wrapping his arms around my waist.

"I love you baby."he said while kissing my cheeks multiple times.

"I love you more."I said before sipping from my cup.

Let me break it all down for you guys.

So after Scarr and I got divorced four years ago and started co-parenting and shit, I met Josh.

Josh and I met one night when I went out with Natasha.

He caught my eye and I obviously caught his eye, and ever since then we've clicked.

He's the owner of a seven figure credit repair company and he owns a small successful clothing line business.

At the moment I'm thirty-eight and Josh is twenty-five.

Most people have their opinions about our relationship but love is love, and we love each other.

We've been together for four years and two years ago we got engaged.

I don't know it just feels like he came at the perfect time.

He knew my situation and everything that I had going on and showed me what real love is.

Despite me having lupus, a hating ass ex-husband, difficult children, and parents who wouldn't accept him he still stayed.

In the beginning of our relationship we did kind of have some misunderstandings about these young hoes he'd be entertaining but I wasn't tripping.

I just needed to make sure that he wasn't brining anything home that was going to put me in any physical harm.

But yeah we're good and that's my baby.

He has a good relationship with Heaven and Sari, but not the boys.

Even though they don't like him, he still tries.

I told him that he can't make them like him if they don't but he says he doesn't care and he's gonna keep trying.

As of now Heaven and Sarai only live with me because Malakai didn't want to since Josh was around, so he decided to go live with his dad.

Since he left Scarr wanted to just take Sevyn also, Heaven and Sarai wanted to stay with me so that's what they did.

We all still keep in touch, I hangout with the boys when I can and the girls hang out with their dad when they can, or altogether.

Heaven is about to turn seventeen really soon, Malakai will turn eleven this year, and this twins are gonna be seven this year.

As far as Scarr and I, we are friends sometimes.

Sometimes we may disagree about things pertaining to the kids, but at the end of the day we compromise.

Umm as far as him being in a relationship, I don't know and don't care.

I do know that a couple of months ago he was spotted with some Mexican Instagram model, I'm not sure if they're dating or not but I don't care.

Even after four years of me being with Josh, Scarr still throws subs in his music or on social media posts and interviews.

It be shit like "Ima get my bitch back," or "That's forever mine," or just quoting any lyrics from Future or any other toxic mf.

So far I've been called every name in the book by him as well as Josh.

We don't pay him no mind though because why feed into his bullshit, he's getting old and is bored.

A lot of you may not know it but when we got married we both signed a prenuptial agreement stating that when we divorce, he'd have his money and I'd have mine.

This action was only took so that we wouldn't have any bad blood between us about any other assets, but this nigga still won't leave a bitch alone.

I sometimes do miss what we had but every time I start thinking about that, what he did pops right back up in my head.

Yes I still suffer from Lupus, it's not as bad as it was back then when I was first diagnosed because I've learned my body now.

It's like if Scarr would've just waited on me to figure this all out then we would've been fine but he couldn't wait on me so this is where we are.

Now a bitch is looking way better than I did before, actually younger than I did, and he's missing the fuck out of me.

It's all cool though, I hope he can find real love and move on from what we had.

I am still a real estate agent, not just any real estate agent but one of the top real estate agents in Atlanta.

Im still working on getting a show for my brokerage, Upscale Realty, because we're doing so good within the office.

There's still drama from here and there but other than that we're making really good profit.

So yeah everything's good over here, I'm not really sure about the other side.

"Baby..."

"Yes daddy?"I asked Josh as I looked over to him and rubbed his belly underneath his shirt.

"You going to Wendy's right?"he slurred.

"Yes baby I'm driving to Wendy's, why? You want something else?"

"I want a fo-fah-fo baby."he mumbled.

"Mmk baby ima get you your fo-fah-fo."I chuckled as I drove.

Out of nowhere he grabbed my face and kissed my cheeks causing me to jump.

"Baby!!!"I exclaimed while laughing.

"Mmmm I love you so much"he said and I smiled.

"I love you more baby now sit back before you make me crash."

"Yes ma'am."he said while reclining his chair and laying back.

"Maaaaaaan I'm so fucked up."he said while laughing.

"Look I'm pulling into the drive-thru now daddy."

"Aight let me know when we get home."

"Mmk baby."

"I love you."

"I love you!!"I said before ordering our food.

After getting his food, we headed home.

I couldn't even get this nigga to eat because as soon as we got inside, he crashed on the couch.

I went to get myself cleaned up before eating then getting him undressed.

After all of that I was able to crash on the couch along with him.