Atlanta, Georgia

9:17 AM

November 12, Thursday

"Girl what's wrong with you?"my cousin, Ashley, asked me.

"I'm good!! I don't know why y'all keep asking me that!"I said while looking at her, Kayla, and Jade, my other cousin.

"Bitch you've been in despair this whole week, what's really wrong Kodi!?"Jade asked me.

"She's just missing her nigga that's all."Kayla guessed.

I still haven't told anybody about what happened between Jean and I, I just told her that we got into it and he's been blowing me up.

My mind ain't been right ever since.

I really can't fucking believe that I chose this nigga over Scarr, somebody who I really loved.

Yeah we had our ups and down but believe it or not, Scarr was actually the mf who I wanted to be with.

I just had to fuck up some temporary shit for something that could've been long term.

He hasn't bothered me at all, I've even went to the trap with Makayla a couple of times and he hasn't said a word to me.

Jean on the other hand has been trying everything in this world to get back next to me.

I blocked him on everything but somehow he just keeps calling my phone from unknown numbers.

I have to answer my phone too just in case of business and it's hard trynna guess it's a business call or not before I answer the phone.

"Kodi if you don't drink that fucking drink, ima take it."Ashley said while staring at the drink that I had.

Right now we were at this little brunch lounge.

They ordered something to eat and drink but I'm not really hungry so I didn't order anything.

"You want it?"I asked her.

"Yeah girl that's a waste of money."

"Ashley if you don't get yo cheap ass on somewhere!"Kayla said to her and we all started laughing.

I laid on my side while scrolling through my social media accounts.

As I was scrolling I heard Kayla whisper my name.

"Kodi!!"

I looked at her and she made a sudden movement with her eyes meaning I needed to look that way.

When I looked up I saw Jean and like six other dudes.

"Okay on the count of three when I say move, bitch y'all need to move."Kayla said and I sat there froze as if he couldn't see me.

"Why!?"Ashley asked us.

"Bitch I'm too fat."Jade said.

"One...two...three!"she said and we all got up on three and ran out the emergency door.

"Run to the fucking car!!!"Kayla yelled.

I ran with them and once we got to the side to get to the car Jean had grabbed me all because of Jade's no running ass.

"Get the fuck off of me!!"I spat while hitting him.

I kneed him right between his legs and he didn't fall, instead he just balled up and hissed.

"Kodi come on!!"Kayla yelled.

"Yeah fuck that nigga got me out here running and shit."Jade said while breathing hard, her dramatic ass.

I was about to walk away but he grabbed me again.

This time I slapped his ass.

He grabbed my hands and pushed me up against someone's car.

"Uh un nigga don't be putting yo mfn hands on her!!!"Jade said while coughing.

"What the fuck he wanna do cuzzo!?"Ashley yelled while walking over here with her taser and pepper spray.

"Mind y'all business and come on, she can handle her own obviously the nigga in pain."Kayla yelled.

"We gone be right here. Not me and these bitches, but me and them."Ashley said while holding up the pepper spray and her taser.

"If not them, then her."she said while pulling out her pink gun.

"Girl bring yo ass on, I'm tired!!"Jade said to her while pulling her towards the car.

"Ima be right here."Ashley said while winking at me and I nodded.

"Listen man, I ain't come here to fight or none of that shit. I just wanna talk to you bruh."

"What is there to fucking talk about!? The bitch you done had this whole time, how you tried to fucking run game on me, how we're just friends!? What is it!?"

"Listen man, I'm sorry. That bitch ain't nobody to worry about at all. No she does not live in my house she remembered whe—"

"You can save that shit, we're through!!! You lied to me about everything and you think ima continue to fuck with you after that shi—"I began to say before seeing a brand new all white Audi pull up as he put the key in my hand.

The car had plenty of roses inside of it and was so beautiful but I couldn't take it.

"Nah uh un I'm not stupid, fuck you Jean seriously! Leave me the fuck alone and stop popping up everywhere I'm at!!"I said while handing him the key back and pushing him.

"Mmcht Kodi!!"he called out to me and I walked off.

I got into the car and Ashley stood outside of the car mugging Jean.

She did the "I'm watching you" hand motion and I chuckled.

"Girl get yo as in this car!!"Kayla said to her and we laughed.

When she came to get in we headed back to my granny's house.

After that shit I don't want to go out nowhere else today.

We're supposed to be going to some club later to have fun since my cousins are here but ion know, I might not go.

"Kodi!!!"I heard Kayla nem yell as they walked into the guest room where I was staying in my granny's house.

"This bitch in here down bad as hell, girl get the fuck up."Ashley said while sitting on the bed.

"Y'all I'm not going."I said while turning over on my stomach.

"Bitch yes you are, you need to."Kayla said.

"Yeah you can't let these niggas take you down because they're gonna do the same thing with the next thirty bitches."Jade said.

"Bitch get up!"Kayla said while smacking my ass.

"Kodi if I gotta drag your ass up outta here, I will. Get up!"she said.

"Y'all just don't fucking get it. I fucked up with the one nigga that truly loved me for a nigga who did me wrong, and I just feel so stupid."

"No I get it, I do. You feel like you fucked up and now you want him back but let me tell you something boo boo, you might not ever get him back. That's just something you gone have to realize and move on. You may feel like you're dying without him but that'll soon come to an end. You'll get better with time."Ashley said while sitting down next to me.

"Plus you gotta love yourself more than you love that nigga and right now you're treating yourself like shit! You're worth way more than that. You hear me Kodi? Do you love yourself?"

"Why wouldn't I!?"

"Okay then get up, go get yourself together, and let's go have some mfn fun tonight!!"

"Mmcht. I hate y'all."I said while getting up.

"You'll love us after tonight, here you go boo."Ashley handed me some outfit.

It was a pair of black ripped jeans, a revealing blouse, and some heels to match the shirt.

"Thank you."I said before going to the bathroom and getting ready.

After a whole forty five minutes we left and headed to the club.

Even though I looked good, I didn't feel good tonight at all.

I couldn't stop thinking about Scarr and I then how Jean and I connected with each other.

When we got to the club, they took pictures in the parking lot before we went inside.

"I don't even want to be here."I said while waiting on them as they looked around for us a section with a table.

"Maybe you need a drink, let's go to the bar."Jade said and I followed after them.

I felt eyes on me so I put on my shades.

When we got to the bar, we each ordered a drink.

"Okay bitch y'all slow down now."Kayla said to me and Ashley.

Ion know but as soon as that mfn drink was in my possession I couldn't get enough.

"Why I gotta slow down, y'all literally forced me to come out?"

"Bitch ain't nobody finna be carrying you or you into granny house and shit, y'all know she gone get mad."

"Okay ima slow down but you keep going, you deserve it baby."Ashley said to me.

"I wasn't gonna stop anyways."

After two more drinks I started feeling myself.

"Oooh I'm ready to shake my ass!!! Which one of you bitches want this ass first?"I exclaimed.

"Shit bring it to big mama."Jade said.

"Come get it."I said while walking to the dance floor.

The song Throw Sum Mo by Rae Sremmurd had came on and I instantly got turnt.

Since Jade wanted the business, I didn't hesitate to give it to her.

Not even ten minutes of me enjoying myself some weird nigga came up to me.

"Damn can I get some too?"he asked me.

"Boy no move around, the fuck!!"I semi yelled.

"We got a problem!?"Ashley said while walking over here.

"Nah he was just leaving."I said while mugging him and he nodded before walking off.

After him it was about three other niggas that walked over here and I kept curving their ass.

They all come with the same shit, especially the ones I like, so why would I want another one.

I went back to enjoying my time and about thirty minutes later some other nigga walked up.

He stood behind me instead.

"Bro what the fuck don't you see me dancing alone!!?"I spat as I turned around.

"You didn't come here with nobody did you?"he asked me.

"She came with us, problem?"Ashley said.

He waved her off before looking back at me.

"Just let me get behind it one time baby."

"Nigga she said no!"Kayla yelled while walking over here.

"Yeah get the fuck on."I nodded while looking at him.

"Quit playing with me, come here."he said while grabbing my arm.

"Get the fuck off of me!!"I exclaimed.

"Nah you stupid b—"he said before I heard a gunshot go off.

When I turned around I saw the bullet go right through his head before he fell and I widened my eyes.

"What the fuck!!!?"I yelled while looking back and seeing Jean standing there with one of his friends while he held a gun.

"Bitch come on!!"Jade yelled while grabbing me before we all ran out of the club behind everybody else.

"Wait I have to find Jean."I said while stopping as we walked outside.

"No you need to get in the car and come home. Do you really think he'll still be around after that!? And how the fuck you know that bullet wasn't for yo head!?"Kayla said.

"I don't know but I have to find him."I said before walking off.

"Koko!!!"They all yelled and I kept walking.

I walked around to the back of the club and tried to call Jean.

"Oh my gosh, pick up."I said to myself as the phone rang.

I heard someone coming up behind me and I saw Jean.

"Jean—"

"Be quiet, come with me."he said while holding my hand and I followed him to his truck.

When we got into his car we headed to his house.

The whole car ride was quiet and everything.

"Let me get you something to drink so you won't be dehydrated."he said while walking into the house with me following behind him.

"Jean wait..."I said while stopping in the center of the living room.

"There's something I want to say..."I added on.

"Nah don't say none."he turned around and said while looking at me.

"It's something I've been wanting to get off my chest, something I want to say."he said.

"I love you."he added on.

Yeah I had been saying that to him but Jean wasn't saying it back and I understand why because the dick makes you go coocoo for CoCoa puffs.

It's just really alarming that he's saying this to me now because he really means it and I know he does.

I walked up to him and we kissed.

"I knew I loved you from the first day I saw you."he said and yeah one thing led to another.

Not sure if it was the liquor or the dick talking to me because I fell in love with his ass all over again.

Nigga was having a whole conversation with me during sex about everything that had happened, and I believed every word.