Atlanta, Georgia

6:03 PM

September 20, Friday

I cried as I walked out of the gates seeing my granny, Kobi, and Kayla standing in front of a car.

They looked excited but all of that excitement went away once they saw how flat my stomach was.

"Kodi, what the fuck happened?"Kayla asked me as she widened her eyes.

I started crying even harder and Kobi pulled me into a hug.

He was the only person who I told about my miscarriage, I didn't even tell Scarr about it.

I felt my granny place her hand on my on my back and she started saying a prayer.

Whatever she said helped because I immediately stopped crying.

I pulled away from the hug with Kobi and hugged mommy granny and Kayla.

"I'm not gonna ask any questions. I'm glad you're home though baby, I love you so much."granny said while hugging me tight and kissing my forehead.

I pulled away before hugging Kayla.

"Kodi why didn't you tell me about this?"she asked me while still crying.

"There was nothing you would've been able to do about it, I'm okay though stop crying."I said while wiping her tears.

I hugged her tightly and as I was hugging her, from a far I could see Scarr standing in front of another car.

"Stop crying Makayla, I'm fine trust me."I said and she nodded.

I let her go before I sat my box down and headed towards Scarr.

"Where you going? Hell nah Kodi."he said while trynna pull me back.

"Stop Kobi. If she wants to go then let her."my granny pulled him away from me.

"I'm just going to speak, I'll be back over here."I warned them.

"Man that stupid as hell Kodi!"

"Kobi if she wants to be stupid let her! It's her life, you have to let her do what she wants at the end of the day! If she wants to be stupid and not realize that he's done enough and just needs to be gone then that's her, she'll learn."I hear and I rolled my eyes while still going towards Scarr.

When I finally made it to him he pulled me into a big hug.

We hugged for about two minutes before he pulled away and grabbed something out of his car.

It was a big red box.

"Welcome home thug."he said while hugging me again and I smiled while grabbing the box.

"Thank you."

"So uhh let me see my baby."he said while looking at me after the awkward silence between us became louder.

"Wait what you mean?"I asked him and he lifted my shirt before letting it fall back down.

"Where the fuck my baby at!?"

"I lost the baby Scarr."I cried and he pulled me into another hug.

"Why you ain't tell me?"he asked me as I hugged him back.

"I didn't know how honestly, I'm sorry."

"It's all good."he said while looking at me after we pulled away.

I know he's probably looking at me like I'm some damn crackhead.

When I say I lost a lot of weight, I lost a lot of fucking weight.

I'm not nowhere near thick anymore but I'm not a twig either.

"Okay well I'm about go with them, after I get everything situated I might give you call if we're still on that type of time."I said while looking down at my feet.

"Yeah just hit me up."he nodded and I smiled before heading back to my family.

We got into the car and headed to granny's house

When we got there Kayla handed me an outfit and told me to go shower.

I did just that and when I was finished I came out to a whole makeup artist, hairstylist, nail technician, and lash technician.

Not only that but I cane out to a whole ass chef.

I was so surprised that my granny even let someone cook in her house.

Whole time I was glad to be back home but I was sad about losing my baby and Scarr not being able to enjoy this moment with me.

I couldn't stop crying but once it was time to get my makeup done, I had to suck that shit up.

For the rest of the night we turned up and surprisingly my granny got lit with us.

I sat on the edge of my bed thinking about everything that's been going on lately.

"What's wrong with you?"Ariana asked me as she walked into the room.

I ignored her before going to my dresser and grabbing the bottle of Xanax pills I had.

I drank the rest of water in my bottle and took the pill before laying down.

"Scarr!!"I heard Ariana yelling.

"What man?"

"What are you doing? Get up!"

"I'm going to sleep."I said while patiently waiting for the pill to kick in.

"Are you popping pills again!?"she yelled and I heard the pill bottle being shook.

"Don't worry about it."

"So you're not coming out to celebrate with me for my birthday!?"

"I'm going to sleep."

"Mmcht bet don't kill yourself in here."she said before leaving.

I took one more pill since that one hadn't kicked in yet.

As soon as they both did I was out of there.

Shit felt amazing too, I swear this is the only time I was able to sleep peacefully without my mind racing.

Sometimes I wonder if this shit similar to not being here 'cause if it is then this ain't where I wanna be.