"Hello Keegan" I groan Looking up seeing the face I spent my life fearing. My father was standing over me with a evil smirk plastered on his face.

"D-dad" I spluttered out in fear. He bent down and grabbed me by my collar pulling me up to his face. "So I hope your proud of escaping and killing your mother emotionally." after he snapped at me, he landed a punch to my face, I instantly felt blood seep from my nose, dripping down my lips. I was to scared to fight back.

"Look at you, all weak and scared, can't even defend yourself against anyone" he dropped me back on the ground while slamming his foot into my ribs. I guess all the old bruises that healed will be back now.

"S-stop p-please" I squealed as he rammed his foot back into me. How is no one seeing this.

"What was that you wan't me to stop, after all you've done to this family you want me to stop" He laughed and what he did next most likely broke a tooth. He kicked me face. His foot slammed into my jaw earning a cracking noise.

I spat out blood next to were I was laying. "Don't think about coming home ever, No one want's you any way" he gave me one Last kick in the stomach before storming off, he kicked my books to the side causing them to spill out. I guess I ain't going home then.

I rolled over onto my back and laid there for about 10 minutes yet no one came over to help, lo one ever does. I sat up slowly wincing at the pain. Before I attempted to stand up I scooted over to my books and shoved them in the bag noticing some of the pages were bent and ripped.

There goes $100 from my savings down the drain. Yeah books aint cheap sadly. I held the bag to my chest while trying to stand up. I finally stood up stumbling in the process and just stood there for a minute. My head was dizzy from hitting it on the concrete.

After a minute I started to walk ever so slowly back to the campus. On the way there I heard my named being shouted again. I flinched expecting my father to go for round 2. I turned my gaze over to the noise revealing Jack and his group that bashed me the other day.

Can I please Have a break for one fucking second. They all approached me, circling me like sharks.

"You don't look to good Keegan" Jack chuckled,standing in front of me.

"Finally got what you deserved I see" one of his minions spoke up. How the hell did I deserve this, I haven't hurt anyone. I kept my gaze down waiting for them to leave.

"Maybe we should leave him alone guys" I heard a soft voice come from behind everyone. I looked up seeing a tall and we built guy around about the same age as me with jet black hair and dark blue eyes, he reminded me of Alex except he had two piercings on his bottom lip.

We mets gazes and he smiled before talking.

"He looks like he's had a rough day" I felt happy that someone was defending me not just Alex.

"Shut your mouth Callum" Jack snapped at who Im guessing was Callum "Keegan gets what his given" He cracked his knuckles just before you usually punch someone. I winced waiting for impact but It never came.

"I said forget about him jack" Callum said coldly getting in front of Jack and shoving him. Jack rolled his eyes and shoved him off him. I could feel his anger coming of him in waves.

"Whatever lets go" Jack snapped turning around, the rest of his minions following him. Callum spun around to face me.

"Sorry about Jack, He's a real asshole" He chuckled scratching his neck. "Are you um okay, what happened?" he can't actually be concerned could he. "M-my father" I mumbled softly earning a chuckled from the giant tree in front of me.

"Dude you need to speak up you're like a mouse" I rolled my eyes in a playful way, he doesn't seem that bad.

"My father" He's eyes harden "Shit thats tough dude" He gripped my shoulder in a friendly way.

"Any way I better head back the campus with the group before they end me, see ya around Keegan" He smiled before jogging off leaving me utterly confused. He goes to uni, he's pretty cute though. I rolled my eyes at my own thought.

I started to head back to my dorm room when I felt my pocket vibrate. I jumped at the weird sensation that sent through my leg. I pulled my phone out seeing Alex's name appear on my screen. Since when do I have his number.

I swiped the text open reading it careful, being careful not to trip while walking and reading.

From:Alex- Hey Keegs, everything okay? :3

I felt tears pricking my eyes. Nothing was alright, everything fucking sucks. But he doesn't need to know what happened today, well not at least until he gets back, I don't wanna ruin his weekend with his Aunty, I'll just lie.

To Alex: Yeah Every things going good, just a bit boring thats all

I wiped my tears and slipped my phone back into my pocket while entering the hallway leading to my dorm room. As I was walking pass All the dorm rooms I heard a series of moans and groans coming from someones dorm room.

As I passes I noticed the door was open, I didn't mean to glance but what I saw I could never unsee.

Hannah was on top of someone. Naked. I saw everything...everything. Wheres the bleach when you need it. Then it suddenly clicked in my head. She's cheating on Alex, after only not even a week and she's already fucking every guy her eyes lay on.

I quickly passed the dorm room and headed straight for mine shutting the door behind me. I slid down the door onto the floor and sat there thinking for a few minutes over what happened today.

My father found me, bashed me and told me to never come home, not that I wanted to. Callum from Jacks gang saved me basically from another beating and I saw Barbie fucking another dude. Ive got to tell Alex now.

I stood up and ran to my bed plugging my phone into the charger before its dies. I click on Alex's number and hovered my fingers over the key pad. I couldn't type, I didn't want to tell him, it would crush him.

"Fuck it" I grumbled and sat my phone down and picked my books up and sitting them in my bookshelf among the other thousand I have.

I walked into the bathroom and looked in front of the mirror seeing a giant cut across my jaw from where my father boot had connected to my bone. Around the cut was bruising everywhere, on my jaw, nose and eyes was black and blue.

I turned to the side and took my shirt off revealing my ribs caged that is now covered in bruise. I looked up, looking my self in eyes seeing them red from crying before. Voices from My father and Jack flooded my mind.

You're Pathetic, Worthless, Just end yourself already it better off with you out of the picture. No one would ever love a faggot.

Everyone who had ever abused and bullied me, their voices filled my head. Tears were streaming down my face, my hands were shaking. I gripped my hair wanting the voices to go away. My mind flicked to the scars on my arm from all the times the bullying had lead me to self harm.

I suddenly found myself searching through my desk draws, pulling my spear case for my glasses. I open the case revealing a sharp silver blade. Even though Alex made me flush the other five, I still kept one hidden for when I need a release.

I picked the blade up and twirled it in my finger before heading back into the bathroom.

I stood in front of the mirror and stared at myself realising how much I really do hate myself.everything was true, Im fat, worthless, pathetic and who would ever love someone like me.

"Maybe Just once" I whispered softly knowing only I could hear.

I dragged the blade across my skins, creating a wound were blood starting seeping from. I did this over and over again, creating cuts up both arms. It was satisfying seeing the blood and feeling the pain.

Guess one equalled twenty in my books.

"I deserve this, its okay, its okay" I whispered softly to myself. Then I realised I broke the promise I made to Alex. He won't know, he won't find out ever. I looked at my arms seeing about 20 cuts on each arm.

I set the blade down and looked at the sink seeing blood drops everywhere, dripping onto the floor. I grabbed a cloth and cleaned the blood up on the floor, sink and my arm. I left the bathroom and changed into a black long sleeve t-shirt and some sweat pants.

I set the blade back in my glass case and shoved it back into the desk draw and laid on my bed being careful of my ribs.

I didn't bother eating dinner, i'm fat so I don't need food.

My phone buzzed but I didn't check it.

I want Alex here, next to me, making me feel warm and safe instead of feeling cold and scared.

More tears fell as I laid on my ribs, falling asleep slowly.