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"You will always be there for me?"

"

"

"Sohaaa....." the sudden voices in my head made my head spin but I managed to sit on whatever or wherever I was.

"Bhai! Aram se.... aram se..." someone caught my arm and made me sit properly.

It was haarib.

I looked around and it was hospital.

Where am......

The sudden realization of reality made my eyes go wide.

"Where is soha?" I immediately asked haarib. He lowered his head and I stood up from this hospital bed and took hold of his arms.

"HAARIB! I AM ASKING SOMETHING. WHERE THE HELL IS SOHA? " I literally shouted to which a nurse came and asked us to be quite.

"Bhai ap baitho yaha aram se. Mai... " haarib made me sit on bed again when I yanked his hand away.

"

Soha's crying voice was all I could heard right now and this bastard wasn't telling me where she is.

And I couldn't even think of what happened.

My car hit the tree... what happened next? And how come I ended up being here.

"Relax bhai! Chalai mere sath. But just control your anger. Its not good for your head injury. " at haarib's statement I checked my head and there was a bandage wrapped around my head.

He made me follow him towards a corridor.

If I was in emergency then why wasn't she there?

Where is she?

All the negative thoughts came rushing one by one....

I closed my eyes as a tear escaped my eye.

How could I say such harsh words....

How cou....

My words stuck in my throat.

It was like, I couldn't speak anymore....

I couldn't feel anymore....

I couldn't breath anymore....

There she was lying there....

lifelessly ...

In ICU...

with oxygen mask on and these machines attached to her....

I was watching her taking slow breaths...i never wished for this...

Today i proved it that my rudeness won and her love and kindness failed....because of my damn ANGER...

Her face had a lot of bruises.

Dull face.

Lifeless body.

She was scaring the hell out of me.

"She wasn't wearing a seatbelt. That caused her to hit over the front mirror because of your over speeding car. " Haarib stood next to me outside the ICU.

"There was a truck driver who brought you too here. She was conscious when he saw the car accident. She was a complete mess when she came here. One of the doctor here knew her and he called ifra about the accident. So we both came. She is in much critical condition. Doctors have lost hope... "

he was way too serious right now.

His serious tone was enough to tell me that it's worst than I have imagined it to.

"Pata hai! Sare farmhouse ka arrangements aur plan bhabi me hi kia tha. She was way too engrossed in all the preparations. Just to tell you.... just to give you the good news! "

I was standing there numb.

"Sheh.... Sheharyar.....Hamesha mai bhabi se teri sifarish karta aya hun k 'bhabi maaf kar de dost ha mera. Maaf kar do bhai ha apna.'

But you know one thing!

Is dafa I am warning you! AGAR MERI BHABI KO KUCH BHI HUA NA! TOH SAMAJH LAI TERA YE BHAI BHI TERE LIYE MARR GAYA!" With that said he left from there.

My eyes were still on the same spot.

On her face full of bruises....

On her cheeks... with finger prints..... of my slap.

I closed my eyes as all the events came all together over my mind.

Her begging.... her screaming....her panting.... everything...

I sat on the chair opposite to the door of ICU.

My own promises that I made to her came in my head.

Today, there was nothing inside me...

No war of my brain and heart....

No arguments of them....

Nothing....

I was empty.... just like my promises and love that I did to soha....

She never deserved me!

Yet she loved me...

Loved me hard enough to teach me how to LIVE.

and what did I gave her in return?

Empty promises...

Fake love....

Rude behaviour....

I was a shell that wasn't capable of having a pearl in it ....

I wasn't worth it.

"Acha hi hua na beta! Saza milni chahiye thi soha ko!" I looked up and saw mom sitting beside me.

She took hold of my hand and said while looking at front.

"Saza milni chahiye thi us ko! Tujh jaisay insan ko sedha karne ki saza milni chaiye thi usay....

Tujh jaisay insan ko jeena sikha dia us ne.... is ki saza milni chaiye thi usay....

Zindagi kia hai... jeena kisay kehty han... hasna muskurana sikha dia us ne...

saza toh milni chaiye thi usay....

Acha hua na ussay saza mil gai. She deserves to be punished for loving a beast like you!

saza milni chaiye thi usay...."

Mom cried and then haarib came and she hugged him.

I was still seated there.

Haarib took mom away and I was still sitting there.

Alia came and sat beside me.

Putting her hand over my shoulder.

She assured me of her support.

I really needed a shoulder to cry upon.

I put my head over her shoulder to find some peace but I couldn't.

My peace was lying lifeless on that hospital bed.

"Bhai! Relax. Sab thek ho jaye ga..."

She herself wasn't sure of what she was saying.

"Bhai ap ko pata ha..... soha was the first person to whom I talked wholeheartedly. Mama se bhi kuch baatai insan chupa leta ha. Aur ap bhai thay...toh kuch baatai hoti han jo ap ek sachay trustworthy insan k sath karty ho. "

I broke it all down there.

Deep inside me I was dying each and every minute.

"Sab meri wajah se hua ha.... I should have believed her! I should have asked her about everything.... I should have trusted her.... " I was blabbering whatever was coming in my mind.

There was no one beside me right now.

Neither mom, nor haarib.

Alia was the only one.

"Bhai? Hosla karai. Kia keh rahy han ap?" She asked worried.

"Hassan kon hai alia?" I finally asked as a tear scrolled down my cheeks.

She looked like she have seen some kind of ghost. But then she composed herself and wiped her tears away.

"Bhai agar ap k aur soha k bheech ma hassan ko le kar koi baat hai toh please let it go because it's not what it looks like"

"Bhai..... hassan hamare office ma kam karta tha. ...." at her this sentence I looked up at her.

Soha was right!

"Bhai please listen to my whole story then say anything please.

Bhai! Hassan hamare office ma kam karta tha and he used to compliment and like me alot. We both started to date each other too. But then I refused to be with him because he was becoming demanding and when I refused to be with him. He Photoshop our pictures and threatened me to marry him or he'll tell you.

Then I somehow found zuhaib and married. But then he again.... blackmailed me after marriage about the photographs.

Then there was soha who helped me out of this. She gave me money and also helped me getting out of that psychopath's blackmailing. Bhai soha ka is s...... bhaiiii... baat to suna....."

Befor she could speak any further I stood up form there and ran outside.

I couldn't handle this all....

This stress and this guilt was suffocating me to the hell....

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"Ifra... relax... sab thek ho jaye ga. She would be fi...."

"She is anything bu....but fi..fine.... she...is never like th...this... she is so brave... and now....she is so lifeless.... haarib...haarib...she...she isn't even fighting for her baby.... she.... she seems to give up....

Meri soha aisi nahi thi... woh..." ifra was crying and sniffing.

Pata hai! Agar koi family mai problem ho toh insan dost yaar se baat kar k thora sakon kar leta ha...

But you know when your bestie or your soul friend is in danger than nobody understands that feeling of yours. Because as much as your friend knows about you! No one else does.

How to make you laugh in worst situations or how to get your attention. It's all a best friend is capable of.

And if that friend is like soha! Who have always cared of others rather than herself. Making others priorities FIRST and yours to a side is a hell of difficult work. But she always did that.

Getting what in return? THIS?

"Ifra... relax I am here na! I won't let anything happen to her. Have faith in God! " we were standing in the corridor near main entrance of hospital.

After the call, ifra was the one who was in complete shock! Then she gathered herself but seeing soha in such state wasn't her expectations.

Soha's condition was really critical.

"I just want to murder one person right now! Your friend! Sab ussi ki wajah se hua ha... who told him to drive fast... us ki condition thi aisi gari mai baithnay ki... she could have lost....." she kept the words hanging not even able to say those words.

But it was the reality....

For now, doctors priority is soha!

They are trying but its been difficult for her survival ....

We have to wait .... till her bleeding stops or till doctors get some clear results.

I saw Sheharyar running out of hospital. I placed my hand over ifra's cheeks and force her to look upwards.

"Jaan! Ma bas abhi aya. Do call me if something happens. " I moved away and walked outside towards parking lot where Sheharyar was.

"Sheharyarrr!" I shouted his nam but he wasn't listening.

He was walking blindly not looking the cars were coming.

I pulled his hand and brought him away from middle of the road.

"KIA HO GAYA HA YAR TUJHE! DEKH KAR CHAL. ABHI GARI LAG JATI TOH!" I shook his shoulder but he seemed to be unaffected.

"Sheharyar!" I asked politely this time.

He was looking so vulnerable right now.

A man like him! Looking all lost and this vulnerable.

He was as if lost in somewhere deep inside himself.

I have never seen him in such state.

Although I wanted to slap him so hard to knock down some senses in his mind but you know

Dost ko ko aisi haalat ma dekha nahi jata.

I hold his arm and made him come to a side but he yanked his hand away.

"Mar jane de na mujhe! Kiu bacha leta ha bar bar aa k? " he shouted.

"Marna ha tujhe? Toh ja MAR! par jo teri behn upar baithi hai aur jo teri maa tere liye duaye karti ha har waqat un ko kia jawab dena hai ye bata k mar jaye!" I matched my pitch with him and shouted back with same tone.

Samajhta kia ha khud ko! Har kisi k agay unchi bol k chup karwa de ga sab ko?

Mere samne aisa nahi chalay ga!

"Han to kia karu zinda reh k? KIA? Har ek ko to dukh diye han mane.... toh zinda kiu rahu?" He was a complete mess!

Usay khud bhi samajh nahi aa rahi k woh kia kar raha ha.

"Sahi kaha tune! Kia karna ha zinda reh k.... ek woh hai na... jo sab nibha k bhi aj is halat ma pari ha! Ek woh hai jis ko moat k muu mai khara kar dia la k tune! Aur woh phir bhi tere liye lar rahi ha zindagi aur moat se!

Aur ek ye mera dost ha! Jo ek musibat ane par marne chala hai! Kuch apna nahi toh us larki ka hi khayal kar le jo tere bachay ki maa banne wali hai!"

I was now more furious than him.

He cried harder and sat down on his knees.

I took a deep breath and moved towards him.

"Sherry?" I shook his shoulder.

"Sab meri galati ha.... I... I should have listened to her.... I should... should have trusted her instead of HIM!"

Listening to his words my head jerked upwards to see his face.

Him?

"Kis ki baat kar rahy ho sherry? "

"Woh... us ... us ne kaha tha k woh soha k sath.... soha us se piyar karti hai... he would run away with her... and that's all the plan an...." he was blabbering and I just couldn't understand.

This accident wasn't meant to be....

Ye dono farmhouse se gari mai kaisay gye aur.... gari ka accident.... this all doesn't makes sense.

"Sheharyar! Kia hua tha! I need to know everything!" I asked and he looked up and hugged me.

"Its all my fault.... my anger... my...." he cried but told me everything.

Everything I needed to know....

Everything that know makes sense....

Everything that was a plan!

Everything that wasn't by chance! It was all a pre planned procedure!

A plan that was meant to take REVENGE!

But that didn't included two innocent souls!

YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR THIS HASSAN!

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Because there was no way my friend parimano was letting me sleep before giving an update.

So here it is! Happy now?

Half truth is relieved... half is left...

You all like the vulnerable Sheharyar? Or the old grumpy one?

Feels sorry for soha....

Its well said,

'the one who loves unconditionally also gets hurt unconditionally!'

With love,

Khushi