I again lost control.....

Her presence...

Her actions...

Her fragrance...

Her expressions...

Her voice...

Damn even her eyes are intoxicated.

Everything about her was driving me insane.

I lit the cigarette and took a deep puff of it.

The yet another moment we share few minutes ago was more deep and sensual then the last one.

She didn't responded last time but today.... she accepted me.... she gave me the permission to....

I have known girls for a long time. Many girls in my college, university or in my professional life, they all need attention and care. All they want was praise of their beauty, caring of their needs and wants, fulfilling their wishes. And all they do was nothing in return.

But soha... she didn't asked for any of these kinda things. She just wanted to spread LOVE. She was selfless. Only caring about others and not herself.

Always keeping others as her priorities rather than herself.

She had the way of seeing beauty in others, even and perhaps when that person couldn't see it in themselves.

She was inside now. Talking to ifra I guess. I was watching her every step.

Her movement...

Her hands again and again going towards the edge of the shirt and pulling it down. May be hoping for the shirt to be elastic and cover a bit more part of her body.

I smiled and shook my head.

She just looked mesmerizing in my shirt. I didn't knew that she had the ability to make me this much addictive to her. I had thought that I could restrict myself and stay as far away to her as possible. But I guess the relationship of husband and wife is not of staying away. Either this or that way, both come closer to each other unknowingly. Now that we have shared these moments of closeness, its becoming so difficult for me to maintain my restrain... to listen to my brain.

I guess when heart shows its power, the brain hides down somewhere.

My cigarette came to an end. I opened my cigarette pack but it was empty.

I had brought this pack a few days back. And its finished. Did I smoke too much? Strange.

It isn't strange dude! Someone is surely taking my cigarettes. And I know the intruder.

I shook my head and moved inside. I guess I have been busy in my thoughts for so long.

My theive was sleeping peacefully. Well! Covered herself fully with the duvet perfectly I should say.

I smiled. She sleeps like a small kid. I remember, alia used to sleep like this. Body on one side, hands over the chest and legs bend a little and brought upwards.

I looked at time and it was 2 a.m. I also switched off the lights and went to lay on my side.... a little bit close to her.

She was facing me. I couldn't see a bit of my shirt that she was wearing, she had covered herself perfectly. Hiding her body till her neck.

And again her strand of hair. Doesn't it irritat her?

I removed it and my hand stayed on her cheek. I don't know what came into me but I moved forward and kissed her forehead.

"I will complete what we started. You can't escape just by sleeping sweetheart. " I whispered and smiled.

Why it feels beautiful to be near her.

Soha! I am trusting you in this relationship. Please don't let me down.

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Never in my life I would ever accept his dares. God! This was so hell difficult for me. A whole night with him and me wearing this so short shirt.

But trust me soha! You enjoyed it.

Yeah.... I... did but it was embarrassing. Although we both are coming closer day by day as aunty had said.

But we both are still awkward with the closeness. He seemed to be okay but I think my heart would stop some day by his stunts.

Yesterday I purposely pretended to be sleeping before he come back in. I wasn't ready to face him after that.....

An electric shock ran through my spin when he came closer and kissed my forehead. And I guess I stopped breathing when he said those words of completing the what we started.

I... I wouldn't do anything like that again....

Okay ! Soha ! Be in your limits.... don't over react and no need to be over smart. Got it?

I was talking to myself seeing in the mirror. I was in washroom. I got up early just not to feel more embarrassment of being half naked.

Still when I woke up, his hand was round my waist and guess what! My so called shirt was too high exposing my stomach area. And most of all, this stupid body of mine was totally hovering over him. Head on his chest, hand over his shoulders, like seriously I was half lying on him. And he was sleeping peacefully.

Qasam se agar is halat mai woh mere se pehlay uth jata toh I would hace digged my grave right there.

I shook my head and gave myself a final look. I had wore a purple coloured top with jeans. I came out of washroom only to find Sheharyar nowhere. Then the door of the room opened and he came inside, still in this slacks and sweatshirt.

He stopped for a minute and saw me. I didn't care and went towards the dressing table.

He sat on the bed and said, " you woke up early?"

Yeh aisay kiu puch rahy han? Did he.... did he saw us in that position? No... please...

"Jee woh ankh khul gai thi toh....uth gai. Kiu?" I acted normally.

"Nothing. " he stood up and walked towards the cupboards.

"Tonight is the engagement of Mr. Aston's daughter. So be ready for the event. " he said while taking out his clothes.

"Mr. Aston? With whom you have signed the deal with?" I asked.

"Hmm" he was about to go to washroom but I asked.

"I... I don't know what to wear.... I mean its different dressings and you know the tradition here is different and ...." I couldn't find words to explain what I was trying to say.

"I had told you to put your sarree with you. Wear that!" He said and went to take shower.

I frowned. Ab inhay kis baat ka gussa ha? Ek toh inhay gussa bohat jaldi aa jata ha.

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I woke up with no one beside me. She was always near me when I wake up and I guess it was becoming my habbit of holding her in my hands every morning.

But she wasn't there this morning. Plus I also lost the chance of seeing her with my shirt on, in the morning. She shouldn't have got up early.

I smacked my hand on the wall. Water was running and I was cooling myself.

She must have felt embarrassed sherry! Give her time to be normal. And you said that these closeness isn't normal for you too. So what happened now?

I don't know.... I just....

This was what I was afraid of ! My brain was blaming me.

You being addicted to her.... her presence is all that matters to you.

So what?

I guess you should tell her about your feelings.

Wha...what? No way!

Tell her my friend! Before its too late.

If you have accepted her... then why don't give her what she deserves?

The love she wants?

But what if she would ran....?

For God's sake Sheharyar! Ab toh us par shak karna chor do!

I left all the battle of my brain and heart.

I guess heart would again win this time.

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"Sheharyar please please please!" Soha make the puppy face and requested me for the ice cream.

"You really are an addict of ice cream. Kon itni ice cream khata ha?" I asked.

"Me!" She smiled a little wide.

We were out because she had requested to visit the whole city. I had ordered a car on rent to give her full privacy. We had visited museum, beach, and a few more places.

We just ate our lunch as it was 5 in the evening.

My anger had subsided just by staying with her for few hours. I don't know how she does that but she always do!

I had accepted my heart for the first time. I would tell her what I want and what I feel but I couldn't find words and a fine place to do so.

"One chocolate ice cream !" I ordered at ice cream parlour near the park. Soha was sitting on the bench in the garden.

I paid for the ice cream and went near her.

"Where is yours?" She asked.

"I don't eat ice creams. " I said while looking around.

"Why so?" She won't stop her questions until she finds the correct answer.

"Because I don't like it"

Normally u would have become angry by now due to the silly questions but I didn't.... strange ...

"So... what else you don't like?" She again asked.

Ye larki chup kar k baithnay walo ma se nahi hai.

"All those things which you like are mostly what I dislike. " I said while looking at her.

"So, if I say that I like you that means you don't like yourself?" She laughed a little.

But I remained serious. Did she said that she likes me?

Stop being a teenager Sheharyar! She had already said that she loves you so what the need of this?

Back then, the situation was different. Now its different....

She lost her smile and became serious too.

"So you like me?" I asked with a serious tone.

"Waisay toh you are too much arrogant, rude batameez and furious type... but still... like kia ja sakta ha ap ko...." she said while eating the ice cream.

"So you are indirectly insulting me?"

I raised an eyebrow.

"I can do that directly too! Karu?" She asked.

She is totally a piece of amusement.

"No thanks! Lets go back to hotel. You would have need a lot of time to get ready. " I said while standing up.

"I am not a typical girl who needs 5-10 hours just to look beautiful. "

You don't need to look beautiful. The beauty resides in you.

"Kuch kaha ap ne?" She frowned and asked me.

Did I thought it too loud?

"No! Lets go back. I have work to do. " I cleared my throat and walked towards the car.

"Workaholic" she said it in a low tone but I still heard it.

I told you! She is a complete pack of amusement!

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"Don't you dare come out of the bathroom or I'll not go with you at the party. " I was actually shouting at my dear husband who was in the bathroom from like past 15 minutes.

I had to set my sarree and he had wet the whole floor of washroom during shower so I locked him in the washroom just to make sure he doesn't come out.

But this stupid zip.... it always stucks.

Please! Not again!

Last time it was him who had pulled the zip up and I guess this time I also have no choice.

"Soha! Open the door or else you'll have to pay for that!" He was way beyond furious and this zip .... argghh!

I left it there and wore the Saree as quickly as possible. I just set the drape of saree on my shoulder and didn't fix it with the safety pin.

I ran, with my right hand over my shoulder, towards the bathroom and said, "aa jaye bahir. "

He immediately opened the door as if he was sitting on the door knob.

He gave me a furious look but as soon as he saw me from head to toe, his gaze changed.

From being furious to being intense.

From being strange to being love.

I waited for him to move so that I could move behind him but he was stubborn as usual.

He was standing there looking at me.

Neither saying a word, nor taking a step.

"Ap.....don't you wanna get...ready ?" I said while placing my hand again and again at the drape of my saree.

This was silk stuff and was slipping again and again.

He in no time pulled me towards him and rolled us both so that now I was being caged between him and the wall. I was confused of his sudden actions.

And his eyes.... they held so much intensity.

Sheharyar why are you looking at me like this?

"Soha.... what are you doing to me?" He asked in a husky tone.

His both hands holding my face so softly like he is holding some kind of a delicate thing.

I was confused of his sudden question.

What am I doing to him?

Even I wanted to say that stop coming closer Sheharyar.....

Because I don't want to wish for what I could never have....

Your love and your attention is intoxicated Sheharyar....

If you would back off... I would be left with nothing....

"Last time I didn't got the chance to say but.... You look stunningly gorgeous sweetheart"

He eyes were wandering over his face when he said this sentence making my heart beat a little faster with butterflies in my stomach.

And then his next action took my breath away.

He removed his hands and kissed my cheeks.

"I am waiting outside. "

He said and went out leaving me breathless.

Wh...what he did ....I....

My hands moved towards my face where he just kissed....

Did he really....?

I shook my head and came back to reality. I adjusted my Saree and again tried to pull the zip up but couldn't.

Arrgggh!

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I could have done something worse if I wouldn't have walked away from there.

Damn! My feelings of Alia's reception day and feelings of today are just the same.

I want her all to myself.

I didn't knew that someone in this world would have this much power to attract me. Last night was way hell difficult to control over myself and today its more difficult.

But don't worry sweetheart! Tonight would be your best night ever because so many unexpectedly things will be going to happen tonight.

I smiled while waiting outside the room for her but she was taking to much time.

These girls!

I walked inside and she was standing near the mirror trying to zip up her blouse.

Her back was towards me and I could see her half exposed back because of opened zip.

She didn't saw me yet. She was just trying to reach the zip or may be the zip was stuck.

I should help her.....

No ! You would end up doing something else....

I know my limits.....

Just like last night?

Shut up! We are getting late and I would help her.

I was listening to my heart more than my brain these days.

Again my heart won and I stepped forward.

Seeing my image in the mirror soha's eyes got widen and she turned around.

Little did she know that I could still see her back in the mirror.

"May I?" I asked and she looked like she is lost.

Same situation have occurred before on get together. Back then, I was different....

Our relationship was different....

Our feelings were different....

And today its different....

Still in the same position, I moved forward towards her. She didn't moved even a bit.

She just lowered her eyes.

I smiled. She would really be the death out of me one day.

I moved my hands around her body, going back towards the zip end.

We both were in a position of half hugging.

Her hand was over her shoulder were her drape of saree was. She was way to much nervous.

Although I could see the zip and could close the zip staying in this position but I still moved forward towards her left side of face.

Her hands took hold of my coat and I smirked.

My fingers then wandered over her back making her flinch.

Her heart was beating so fast that I could listen its Lub Dub sound.

I, then took hold of the zip end and moved it a little more down to see where is it stuck. There , I noticed that, was a mole.

A mole on the back.... isn't is sexy?

Actually I was enjoying her situation.

Her nervousness...

I saw that there was a piece of thread that was the reason why the zip was stuck. I, by seeing in the mirror removed the thread and slowly slowly zipped her blouse up .

I, then moved a little down and kissed her side of neck roughly. She moaned and flinched as a reaction of my sudden action.

I moved up towards her ear, tracing the path of slow and rough kisses over her cheek and then at the side angle of her lips.

Sheharyar stop.....

My inner voice was a constant reminder of my restrain.

"Sh...eh...r..yar....we...are...ge...getting la..late" soha's stammering voice knocked something in me and I came back to my senses.

"I'll complete what I started by the end of tonight...." I said with one last kiss over her forehead and moved out of the room and she followed me.

Today I am taking the risk of my life!

I would be giving you my trust soha! I would be accepting my heart over my brain....

I would be sharing my feelings with you....

Just wait for a little and I'll make this evening memorable for you.

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"Hey! Young man. I was waiting for you. You are already late for the evening. " a man of I guess 60 years old stood in front of me and Sheharyar.

Although he looked old by the wrinkles of his face but his facial expressions, the firm voice and his personality made him a bit younger than his age.

"Sorry about late sir! Just a bit of work was pending" Sheharyar spoke while greeting him.

We had just entered the hall and it was quite big and almost 1000 above people would be here. I was now getting nervous.

I am here as Mrs. Sheharyar Ali!

Who is a renowned businessman with such a great personality. Everyone here knows him and here, I am being known due to Him.

Please soha! No drama or childish behaviour today!

I was standing behind Sheharyar. Just a step behind.

Suddenly Sheharyar's hand came around my back and rested on my waist and her pulled me a little forward.

Not behind him...

Not far from him...

Just beside him....

"Mr. Ashton! This is my wife Soha! And soha this is Mr Ashton. " Sheharyar introduced me with him.

Mr. Ashton placed his right hand forward for me to put my hand on his. I looked up at Sheharyar and he nodded. I placed my hand on his and he bend down a little and kissed my back of hand just like a gentleman.

I smiled.

Baba used to kiss my hand like this oftenly.

"I guess we have alot of pretty women in here but the most beautiful so far is you. " I smiled at his complement.

"Thank you so much for such nice words sir. But I guess we have a lot beautiful girl standing there on the stage. " I smiled and looked at the stage where his daughter was standing with a stunning peach maxi with all the pearl work on it.

"Well! That ... she is! After all whose daughter is she?" He was a fun loving person I must say.

"So, soha! What do you do? Are you also into business?" He asked while taking sip of the drink from his glass.

"No! I am a doctor. Doing my specialization in cardiology. " I answered with a smile.