Life has always been unfair to me! From my birth till my childhood! From my being teenager to an adult!

Ek normal insan k jaisi zindagi hi nahi guzri meri!

When it comes to my beloved ones! I am a very weak person! Mama aur Alia k liye hi karta hun sab kuch. UNHO ne toh in ki khushi ka khayal kiya nahi.

I puffed the whole pack of cigarettes. Because I get tensed and more angry whenever I remember those days!

**Flashback**

"Ali! Ye kon ha ap k sath?" Mrs.Ali asked to his husband.

"Yeh jasmine hai! Meri wife!

Aur tum woh kamra khali kar do mera jaldi se aur waha phool wagaira se sajawat kar do. Jaldi se" he replied.

The two innocent kids one of 7 yearsboy and a year old girl wrapped in comfort was sleeping on the couch. The boy saw that seen very clearly and anger boiled in his eyes.

"Ali ap ye kia keh rahy han! Ye mazaq hai toh please band ki jiye. Aur tum niklo yaha se yeh mera ghar hai! "

Mrs.Ali said and within no second, Mrs.Ali was on floor.

He slapped her!

Tumhay ek bar ka kaha sunai nahi deta? Ye MERI biwi hai. Aur ye ghar MERA hai ! Mai jissay chahy yaha rakhu aur jissy chahy nikal bahir phenku! Do you get that!

aur Tum samajhti kia ho apne ap ko? Meri biwi ho tum? Sajna sawarna toh tumhay ata nahi hai! Ghar k kam karwa lo bas tum se ! Har waqat yeh satti sawitri ban k middle class logo ki tarha rehna ata ha bas tumhay!

Society mai mujhe tumhare sath chalty hue bhi sharam ati hai! Na koi style ha na hi class! Just a piece of shit! Look at her now! Pata lagta hai k koi stylish, upgraded larki hai. "

The boy ran towards her mother but she ask him to be with her sister and that nothing to worry about.

She again stood up, "Ali sharam karai! Is umar mai!"

"Kia hua hai meri umar ko? U although look like a 50 years old fat women! I am still younger! Ab ziyada bakwas mat karo aur jao jo kaha hai woh karo!" He again ordered her

"Ali agr ye is ghar mai rahy gi toh mai aur mere bachay yaha nahi rahy gy!" She said crying.

"Jaanu! My legs are tired now by standing too much. Can I have my way to my room? You can come later after finishing this all" jasmine interrupted.

"Yeah sure baby! You may go and rest in the first left room from the corridor there. I'll be there soon" he replied and then the shameless girl kissed him infront of the little child and his mother and then left.

"Tum apna boriya bistara bandho aur niklo yaha se!" He shouted.

"Ja rahi hun! Mujhe rehna bhi nahi hai ap jaisy janwar k sath! Jissay biwi nahi ek model chahiye! Jo har waqat ap k isharo par nachay!" She took a deep breath and continued...

"Ma soch bhi nahi sakti thi k ap is trha ki ghatiya harqat bhi kar sakty han. Bohat garur hai na ap ko apne paiso aur apni is khobsurati par. Allah ko garur pasand nahi hai yeh baat yad rakhiye ga! Aur han! .....

Jab insan dil ki jagah shaklo se piyar karne lag jata hai na, toh woh bas khobsurat chehro mai hi sakoon dhondta reh jata hai aur ussay dil ka chain kabhi naseeb nhi hota!"

After 5 years.

Mrs. Ali spend these years with very difficulty. She did job and taught her children of her own. She just lived at her brother's house but always earned of her own. Soon she took an apartment on rent and.left her brother's house although her brother, naveed forced her not to. But she said that she have a long life ahead and she have to live it alone.

"Naveed khairiyat itni late ana hua?" Mrs. Ali asked to his brother who was at her door at midnight.

"Api! Woh..... " he was stammering.

"Naveed! Kia hua hai? Sab khairiyat to hai na?" She was now worried.

"Woh! Hospital se phone aya tha. Ali bhai hospital mai han. He is dying api! Aur woh ap se aur bacho se milna chahty hai. "

This news was really a heart break for her. As she still loved him.

She went to meet him, but Sheharyar didn't. As the fir of anger still boiled in his heart.

Ali was in ICU. He had cancer from past 3 years and now it was his last stage.

"Asalam o alaikum!" Mrs. Ali said to Mr. Ali who was laid on the hospital bed with lots of machines attached to him.

He opened his eyes and saw her and a little 6 years old girl standing beside her. The boy didn't came along with them. He smiled and said,

"I didn't thought that you'll come. I am glad to see you. " she just nodded her head and said

"Biwi thi na! Isi liye ana para! Agar ap ne divorce de di hoti toh shayad na ati!" Her words still held a taste of bitterness.

He sarcastically smiled and said, " biwi toh woh bhi thi! Woh toh mujhe bemar chor kar hi chali gai. "

He looked at her and saw the confusion in her eyes. He smiled and said, " yeah! She left me after a year. She ran away with her lover along with 90% of my property. She just wanted my money. And later all my left money were used in my treatment. And now I am here. "

He raised his hands and joined them and asked, "Will you ever forgive me?"

Tears

Please Nuzhat! Mere amal ki saza mujhe mil rahi hai aur shayad marne k baad bhi jahanum mai saza katu ga! Par ye dil par bojh tha k tum se maafi mang lu, tum se bad saluki karne ka! Tumhare sath jo mane kia... woh sab karne ka jo mujhe nahi karna chahiye tha. Sheharyar aur ye Alia k sath ....

Na jaane kis kis gunnah ki maafi mangu ma tum se. Nuzhat! Bas ek dafa keh do k tum ne mujhe maaf kia. Kisi anjan ajnabi ki tarha hi sahi. Bas ek dafa maaf...." he started coughing so hard because of so much speaking and crying. His coughs were full of blood.

She ran and called the doctors but he said, "No..... just li... lis...listennn to me...Nuz...nuzh....nuzhaat! Ek ... ek ek dafa keh do... k...k tum ne ...tum ne mujhe... muj...mujhe ma...maaf kar dia...jus.....just once..."

Nurse came and put the oxygen mask on. And called the doctor.

"Ali mne ap ko usi din maaf kar dia tha. Bas dard tha dil mai k meri galati kia thi jo aisa kia ap ne mere sath. Aj woh dard bhi khatam ho gaya. Mane ap ko maaf kar dia hai Ali!"

She said this crying and ran outside because she couldn't see him anymore in such condition.

And later the news of his death came.

**end of flashback***

I reached home at 3 a.m.

I entered the house and went to see mom. I just went to see her whenever I feel suffocated of these flashbacks. I entered her room and she was on prayer mat. She saw me and became worried. She signaled me to come near her. I went and sat beside her on the floor and put my head on her lap.

She was reciting something and then she blew on my face. She always does that. I just closed my eyes and she ran fingers through my hair.

"Aj kitni cigarettes pee kar aye ho"

Always the most difficult question asked by her.

"Sirf 2" I replied with closed eyes.

"Smell se toh lag raha k pura pack hi phonk dala hai aj. "

Mom always remains mom! She knows you more than you know yourself.

I didn't replied. She took hold of my jaw and forced me to open my eyes.

I did and saw tension in her eyes.

"Kia hua hai meri jaan? Koi baat tang kar rhi hai toh maa k sath share nhi kre ga?"

I usually don't share things with mom.

Par kabhi kabhi everyone needs a break and a person to share all things with.

"Nothing mom! Just the same old memories! That never leaves me!" I said closing my eyes again.

"Beta tumahay mne kitni dafa hai hai! Bhul jao sab! Aur maaf karna seekho. Maaf kar dene se tumhay bhi sakon mil jaye ga aur ...." I cut her sentence and said while sitting up.

"Kia chahti han ap? UNHAI maaf kar dun jis ne meri maa ki zindagi kharab kar di ? Or I should forgive that bitch who was responsible for all this? " I said in all anger.

"Sheharyar! Mind your language!

Kia apni zid tum ne puri kar toh li hai! Badla le lia na us larki se usy business deal ma phansa k usy sarak par la k! Tumhy tab bhi mane mana kia tha par tmhari zid k agy kis ki chalti hai!

20 saal ho gaye han is sab ko! Aur tum ab tak wahi khare ho! Aur ab kis se badla lo gay? Woh baap jo mar chuka hai ? Jis ne marty waqat bhi tum se maafi mang li thi aur mne unhay maaf kar dia tha toh tum kiu nahi maaf kar skty?"

She said in a pleading tone.

I turned my face to the other side, "mujhe nafrat hai un se! Aur un jaisy har insan se! Aur us se bhi ziyada nafrat hai mujhe us jaisi larkio se jo sirf paiso k liye dosro k ghar barbad karti hai! Jinhay sirf aur sirf paiso se matlb hota hai...."

"Beta agr zindagi mai mere sath aisa hua hai toh is ka matlb ye toh nahi k har larki jasmine jaisi hi ho! Kuch larkiya achi bhi hoti han meri jaan. Jaisy soha ko hi dekh lo... woh...."

"Mom please! Us ka nam mat le mere samne woh bhi un jaisi...." this slipped out of my mouth and I suddenly shut my mouth.

"Idhr dekh! Meri taraf dekho Sheharyar!" She forced me to look at her.

"Tum..... tum soha ko jasmine k sath mila rahy ho?" She asked and I didn't answered. I kept looking here and there but her eyes.

"Meri jaan! Aisi galati kabhi mat karna! Soha jaisi larki qismat walo ko milti hai. Aur woh un larkio ma se nahi hai beta! Is baat ki guarantee mai deti hun. Woh toh masoom si bachi hai. Mere sath jo hua us ma soha ka kia qasoor hai jo tu usay is trha ki saza de raha hai. Us k character par shak kar k? Aur tumhare pas kia saboot hai k woh jasmine jaisi hai?" She asked and I didn't answered. I stood up and was about to go out of her room when she said one last line that stayed in my mind.

"Shery! Usay azmana hai toh azmaa lena beta! Magar ek baat yaad rakhna, ek limit hoti hai har cheez ki....aur us limit ko cross kro gay toh tumhay kuch nahi milay ga beta! Ye dushmani tum apne sath kar rahy ho. Kisi aur ka is mai kuch nahi jaye ga. Nuksan tmhara khud ka ho ga!"

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I entered my room and mom's words still were in my mind.

Mere sath jo hua us ma soha ka kia qasoor hai

All the scene of why I went out of the room came into my mind. I moved inside and saw her sleep on her left side on the couch. The table that was placed there was now placed beside the bed. I moved towards the table and saw that all my documents that were ruined by the coffee were now written again in a great penmanship. Actually these were the written presentation of my new project and I didn't knew she would write it all again. And there was a sticky note on my laptop. I picked it up and there was written,

Sorry!

I placed the documents on the table and went near the couch. She was sound asleep. But something shined near her eye. I don't know why but I went a little near and sat on my foot to closely examine.

That was a tear that rested on the space between her eye and nose.

Mere sath jo hua us ma soha ka kia qasoor hai, usay kis baat ki saza de rahy ho?

Us k character par shak kar k? Aur tumhare pas kia saboot hai k woh jasmine jaisi hai?

Maaf karna seekho Sheharyar!

Mom's words came one by one in my mind.

Kia waqai ma galati kar raha hun is ko samajhne mai? Is she worth of it? Is she not like those gold diggers?

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Another long chapter:)

So thw truth is out! The reason of Sheharyar's behavior. Now will he be good to soha?

With love,

Khushi.