"Sorry, I don't entertain people who romanticize me" I answered to the girl in the bar who's trying to flirt with me.

"..I have a wife" I smiled sarcastically.

"You mean..you 'can't' right?"

"I DON'T"

I left the table where I was sitting alone. Devastated.

There was a heavy feeling in my heart that made me leave the place.

I found myself at the rooftop. Away from the crowd, away from the noise.

"..I have a wife"

I faced the view. Buildings, cars scattered everywhere. Some newcomers at the bar.

Some drunk guys making fun of each other.

And I noticed one particular thing..

They're all happy, smiles surpressing their faces, laughters and chuckles that you can hear even from afar.

We are all humans after all, with emotions and feelings.

For some reason I felt insecure...

Ganto na ba 'ko? Habang buhay?

"Papa, I don't want to be a sad person..why are they sad? Can't they be happy?" I asked as a child while we're watching television.

"Tricia...people like them have reasons..you are not a human if you only felt happiness in you" Papa answered. "You will feel it too..not today nor tomorrow, but someday Tricia, you are going to feel it.."

I felt locked. Locked in sadness.

And I can't escape from it.

-

"Hey, mahal..how are you?" I placed the flower beside the bed.

Where she is laying, eyes closed. Sounds of heart rate monitor.

"..sorry I can't visit you so often..busy as always" I sighed.

"Uunahan ko na..okay lang ako, nakakain na rin ako don't worry" I smiled.

"..maganda ba yang panaginip mo? Do you feel free there? Are you happy there?"

"..I'm sure you are mahal, sana nga lang..magising ka na, so we'll do the things that you are happy with"

"Right?"

A loud silence covered the room. The beeping from the monitor continues.

I looked at her. She was sleeping peacefully.

I wonder if she's happy in her dreams. If she ever get what she wanted.

Simple lang naman.

Kung masaya sya, masaya din ako.

Pero hindi ko alam kung paano..

Paano ba 'ko magiging masaya?

Masaya na ba 'ko dahil masaya sya? O masaya ako kasi pinipilit ko lang sarili ko?

"And she looked at her, hoping that one day she would spend the time with her while holding her hands"

"Not losing hope"

"She might, but she always regains it just by looking at her"

And we know particular things for sure, in this story..

She

And

Her

And their unconditional love.

She promised her once that she will love her..

Even beyond death.

This story's ending was still unknown for me.

It's up to you.

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(Note : sorry it's been a very long time. I'm collecting my thoughts regarding to ShanPedro's death. 😭😭Ang sakit lang)

(Note again : patawarin nyo ko kung maraming mga loopholes, medjo tamad lang ako)

Thank you to Gabzzzzx for answering the poll and giving me an idea for Y/N's profession:))