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I was waiting. Waiting for the Snake Head to show up or atleast send one of his minions. I was too busy with other shít and I just wanted to get this over with. That's when a sweet voice filtered through the noise and surrounded me like an enchanting fog.

"Um, sorry I forgot your name, can I call you mine?" She said making me clench my fist to control my -er reaction.

I turned around to find the prettiest doll like face custom made from the receipts of my dreams attached to an equally hot body.

Junior here was having a hard time keeping it low.

I recited some line that I picked up from somewhere, I don't even remember what I said but I do remember seeing her eyes for the first time.

They were deep and expressive yet hid secrets in their fibres. They had a spark in them that made me eager. I wanted to know their story, I wanted to know their plans and I wanted to be a part of them. I wanted them to shine for me. I wanted to feed off of the energy they emitted.

I wanted her.

And by someone's Grace I did get her. I got her eyes to sparkle even though they had their secrets. I was too busy admiring her anyways.

The way she accomplished self appointed missions as ridiculous as they might be. The way she gave so much expecting nothing in return yet getting everything she hoped for. The satisfied glint when she pissed me off or got her way with things.

To be honest I was a little airy in my head whenever she was around. Looking back now I know a lot of the things I did - we did, didn't make any sense. Going with the flow I think.

I liked her attitude towards things, she focused on the present yet respected her future. Never talked about her past though.

I never asked.

I was worried that I didn't have the right to know that. I was scared of her reaction. I felt anxious about all the weird tingles. I felt all the things I hadn't felt in a long time. Even my past relationships weren't as exciting and interesting as she was.

Was.

Past tense.

I wished that she was here besides me right now, that we'd make sweet love and talk about our future together.

Look at me being all sappy like the romance movies Alana forced me to watch!

But I understand now. I understand why the characters reacted like that, why they did what they did. I'd happily go read a story to her everyday just to see her face and be close to her. Knowing that she's alive and well. I'd spend every moment admiring her, holding her close to me, annoying her, loving her.

Love?

Am I in love?

What does that even mean?

That you feel like life sucks and you can't live without them? Like you are in an neverending tunnel that runs in darkness? And only one person can run in with a flood torch and get you out of it?

Seeing her...seeing her go...like that messed up my head. At first I was in shock. The day was going so well, although a little weird. It's almost as if she knew something was going to happen. Did she know she was going to- going to-

A single tear rolled down my cheek. Followed by more and more until I was shaking and the world became blurry.

Thinking about all the things I've said, things I should've said, things I almost said...made this crushing feeling inside me even worse.

I never appreciated the life I have and the ability to communicate. If I said those things I wanted to say, would that have made a difference? Of course I appreciate the abilities that I have to survive, the skills I developed. But did that help? When I needed my strength the most?

Is life pointless?

It's been two months now. Of course I put up a facade for the sake of my sister and everyone around me. But right here in my room I was still reliving that night.

"Ally?" A small voice entered my room. I quickly wiped my tears and forced a smile before turning to Alana.

"Why the nickname Alana? Do you want another fluffy unicorn?" I tried to joke. But my voice came out hoarse and my eyes were no doubt bloodshot.

I heard her gasp and she rushed to me engulfing me into her famous hugs.

"It's okay Alex, just let it go..." She murmured into my neck.

"Frozen really?" I chuckled a little.

"Hey! You know we Dimitriou's are not good with words" she shook her head.

Ain't that right sis.

"I miss her too you know?" She said after some time. Rubbing her hands on my back in comforting circles.

"I wish- I wish we weren't cursed with this trait of not being able to say our minds..." I clenched my jaws.

That night I broke down once again and Alana was there, through it all comforting me.

My baby sister had grownup so much.

That's it.

I have to get better. I have to do whatever it takes to get back to the way things were. I have a company to run, people to feed and cases to handle.

Ten men come to restrict me as I go to attack her.

"I could have bought 10 large pizzas but I decided to buy this dress so don't you put your bloody hands on me!" I tried to pull away.

"Oh please it doesn't suit your whöre self anyways" Mia rolled her eyes.

"The drugs! It was you!!! And all those things that happened? They weren't a coincidence were they?!"

I spit out angrily.

"Yes! It was me! I was doing so well until your basic arse had to show up! Stealing all the attention!" She screeched.

"This bítch is definitely psychotic..." I muttered under my breath.

"You stole my man from me!" She screamed.

Really? Her man? Wow.

"Really? This shit? I'm dead to him! He's all yours now! How can you be so dumb!" I rolled my head back, not being able to bear the stupidity around me.

Mia looked confused. She went deep in her thoughts. Not that deep probably.

That's when her brother chimed in.

"And now you can be really dead" making Mia smirk. As if she found her purpose again.

"Let me guess you have something against Alex."

"He somehow got all my alliances to kill each other, and the power transferred to him! They were MY alliances. I was going to give him my sister in return for power!"

"What is this the 19th century?" I rolled my eyes.

"She loves him" He growled.

"So you sent her as a maid?" I wanted to laugh, but my muscles were hurting everywhere.

"She a woman of many talents!" He huffed.

"Common sense is obviously not one of them" I muttered. Mia sneered and the men tightened their hold on me.

What am I going to do here...

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