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In my mind, I was fucking rejoicing right now. I found her! I found my queen after searching for her for so damn long. Only to find her here, in the fucking woods out of no where, in a shitty cabin or whatever the hell that house is. What The Hell! This was the hardest mission ever, we had to improvise so many times and torture so any people and it was all worth it because now I get to be with her.

"Aughhh fuck" I whimpered in pain, quickly placing my hand over my arm where I got shot.

"Nikolai you got hurt badly, we need to get Serena and leave, so the doctor can look at your arm" Matteo said with worry written all over his face.

"I'm fine take those two home now and lock them up, I'll deal with them later."

"Fuck you Nikolai!" Augustine shouted then started coughing up blood. I laughed at little then looked at how fucked up they look.

"Guess who gets to have the last laugh" I evilly smirked as Matteo and some other men took them away. I turned my head to Serena, who was still standing with her back facing me.

"Serena, come here" I called but she just stood there like a statue and I wondered why. "Serena?" I called as I took slow steps towards her. I thought she was going to be happy to see me, was she hurt or angry at me because I took so long to find her.

"Yeah" her voice was so low and sounded a bit off.

"Baby, it's okay, everything is over. I'm sorry I took so long to find you but please don't ignore me, I want to see your face, I wanna give you hugs and kiss, tell you everything is going to be okay" I paused then sighed when I saw that she didn't even move a muscle. "Serena, why won't you look at me baby?" I asked, placing my hand on her shoulder I slowly turned her body to face me. Before I could do anything else, she wrapped her arms around my torso, I nuzzle my head into her neck and inhaled her sweet sent once again.

"My sweet baby" I whispered into her ear and she looked up at me. I stared into her beautiful blue eyes as if I would never see her again. I leaned forward then kissed her soft pink lips, the lips that I longed to kiss. A moan left my lips when as I tasted every inch and corner of her lips, I just wanted to fuck her right her and now, but I couldn't obviously, my wife needs comforting after all that she went through and after that the I'll fuck her. Pulling away from her, I placed my hand on her cheeks then nuzzled my nose against hers.

"Nik-" she was about to say when I cut her off.

"Shhh it's okay we'll leave now okay, I'm just glad that you are safe and okay" I told her, I pulled her body closer to me for a tight hug but something was blocking me. I raised my eyebrow then moved my gaze from her eyes. I slowly trailed my hand down to her waist then placed my hand on her flat stomach which was no longer flat anymore. I looked at her face and her eyes were shut tight.

Taking a few steps back I stared at her huge bump. I laughed a little thinking to myself that there is no way hell someone can eat that much so she must be pregnant. Yep, she's pregnant.

"Wait" I said then laughed a little more, I scratched the back of my head and just stood there staring at her belly. "You're pregnant?" I asked which was pretty obvious and she opened her eyes then stared into mine. She slowly nodded her head and I shook my head then started pacing around. She tried to touch me when I pulled my hand away from hers.

"Nikolai please don't do this now" she begged as tears filled her eyes. I can't believe she's fucking pregnant, I am so pissed right now I didn't even wanna look at her. I stopped pacing around and my jaw clenched and unclenched.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked and she kept on shaking her head, tears running down her cheek and her hand over her mouth. I don't get why she's crying, I was just asking her a simple question.

"Answer the fucking question Serena!" I shouted and she jumped.

"I- I was scared okay, so much had happened and I didn't want you to be more stressed" Serena said and I looked at her in disbelief.

"Is the baby his or mine?" I had to ask and it seems to me that she didn't have an answer to my question.

"Nikolai can we please not discuss this here, I wanna go hom-" she was about to say when her cut her off.

"Is the baby mine!?"I whispered shouted and she wiped her tears then looked down at the ground. "Serena look at me and answer my question" I tried to calmly say but she was testing my patients.

"I don't know okay, you know what Jace did to me. I don't know... I don't know, I don't please don't be mad at me... please" she cried "I just wanna go home" she begged and I run my hand through my hair for the third time then nodded. Taking my phone from my pocket I called Matteo. A few seconds later Matteo walked through the door, he looked between me and Serena and he was about to say something but stopped himself.

"Matteo take Serena home, I have something else to take care of" I said and he nodded then walked over to her. She kept on crying and I wanted to pacify her so bad but I was really upset.

I need a drink

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I sat down at the bar staring into outer space, lifting my glass towards my lips, I took a sip and and it burned my throat. I still can't believe Serena is pregnant. When I saw her I didn't even realize because I was lost in her eyes. I am so fucking upset that she kept such a big thing from me. I deserved to know, I am her husband for fucks sake and Maybe she didn't tell me because she knows the baby isn't mine. I was about to take another sip of my drink when I realized that it was finish. "Hey, keep them coming" I said to the bartender and he nodded then poured some more into my glass.

I hate it so much that she kept it ways from me, if I had no contact with he I would've let it slide but that's not the case. She could've called me and told me, and I'm sure she can't make any excuses because her baby bump looks 6 or 7 months. Serena and I were careful, we made sure of that. I told her we weren't fucking ready at least I'm not. I don't think the baby is mine.

It hurts so much saying that because I want the baby to be mine not his, Jace doesn't deserve to carry his seed into this world not after what he has done to her, and I swore if the baby was small and undeveloped I would've told her to get rid of it, she probably wouldn't want that but I don't care, but now that the baby is fully developed and soon to be born there is nothing that I can do about it.

My thoughts were interrupted when my phone started ringing, I looked down at the callers ID and saw that it was Adriana, I quickly answered the phone.

"Nikolai what the fuck is wrong with you?"

"Adriana, what did I do?" I asked then laughed a little, I was pretty drunk right now, probably the drunkest that I've ever been "you interruPtEd my thoughts" I said then looked at the bartender to pour more but he shook his head.

"You had enough boss" the bartender said and I got angry.

"Pour my fucking drink" I said in a serious tone as I squeezed my glass so hard that it broke into pieces. "Look what you made me do, clean that up" I said then stared at my hand which started to bleed.

"Are you kidding me right now? You're at a bar drinking when you should be here with your pregnant wife"

"The baby is not mine!" I shouted at the phone.

"Who gives a fuck, do you know how much Pain, stress and hurt Serena went through? And the person that she needs the most is at a bar getting drunk, oh wow. Get the fuck home"

I will be there, I just have to go get a few things off my mind" I said as I tore a piece of my shirt then wrapped it around my bleeding hand.

"She's crying her eyes out thinking that you don't love her anymore"

"I'm coming" I said the ended the call.

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"He's angry at me right" I cried and Adriana shook her head "why is he doing this to me Adriana, he doesn't love me anymore right?" I asked.

"No Serena please don't say that, he does love you, Nikolai is acting like an idiot" Adriana said as she tried to calm me down, but how could I stay calm with how hurt I am. I just want to be with Nikolai, I want him to hug me and tell me everything will be fine.

"He doesn't want to be near because I'm pregnant, I wish I wasn't pregnant, if I had one wish, I would wish that I wasn't born" I sniffed and Adriana looked at me worriedly "I hate myself, the more I keep living the worst my life gets, why me?"

"Serena please don't say that, Nikolai might be acting stupid but he'll see it for himself, you have the baby, me and Isabella to live for, please" Adrian's really tried her best to comfort me but it wasn't helping.

"Serena you shouldn't worry it's not good for the baby," she said and I stood up and rolled my eyes.

"Well tell your fucking brother not be an asshole then I won't worry!" I screamed then ran up the stairs, I went into our room and slammed the door. I really tried to stop myself from crying but I couldn't help myself, why does it hurt so much.

"I hate you Nikolai, you know that I went through a lot and yet still you are not here to comfort me, I'm pregnant for god sakes the baby can be yours too" I whispered then rubbed my huge bump I felt the baby move around and I smiled then wiped my tears.

"I guess I was wrong, you can make mommy happy too, sorry I've been putting you through so much stress, I won't cry anymore" I said as I laid down on the bed then slowly began drawing circles in my belly. "What was I even saying earlier, I would live for you baby and I will give you everything I didn't get to have" I said and the baby kicked, it really warms my heart to know that the baby is okay. Closing my eyes I immediately fell asleep.

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