I'm just laying here staring at the ceiling

Tryna tell my mind to stop having these feelings

If you were here I know I'd squeeze your hand tight

Use it like a anchor to keep myself together tonight

I don't open up but if I do it's to you

I'm giving you a chance to hurt me too

If I'm being honest there's days I wonder if you care

I wonder if I died would you shed a tear

I don't want to die and I know that it's true

But I don't feel alive so what should I do

All the fucking time all I feel is lonely

Won't admit it I just want someone to hold me

You're the only one I trust I'm glad your my friend

Don't take it personally if I don't let you in

I have trust issues from shit in the past

So I'll let you in at my pace so don't go fast