Write rhymes to waste time

and clear my fucking mind

Of thoughts of suicide

But this shit doesn't help cause the pain won't get out my fucking head

Call me the walking dead

I'm to messed up

Should be locked away in a shed

Or strapped to a bed

Hanging on by a thread

Can't believe I ain't gone yet

From all the demons I've met

I don't even feel like I'm human

I feel like I'm a fucking monster

Someone call a doctor

So he can ponder

The secrets I harbour

Sorry father

Wish I was smarter

Maybe then you'd love me like you do your daughters

So many ways to die

Hang myself with my phone charger

jump out of a helicopter

or drown myself in the fucking water

Get depressed

Take to the knife

Slash my wrists

Then keep them out of sight

My mom is a bitch

I can't be around

Cause either me or her

Will end up buried in the ground

Can't control my anger

Wanna smash her in the face

Tell me I'm a fucking disgrace

I'll put your ass in your place

You've abused me

I'm not your fucking trash

I'm a good person

I never deserved that

You've scarred my brain

I hate you

Die bitch

I'll never love you

Call me a failure

Well I'm just like my mother

Hit me again

I'll break your damn shoulder

Get out of my face

Before I put my fist in your nose

Watch blood squirt out

Like a god damn water hose

You made me this

A psychotic kid

With no soul

Cause you broke him

Sometimes I cry

And close my eyes

I see myself die

In your arms held tight

You make me feel

like I'm not insane

Maybe there's a little light

In the darkness called my brain

Look in the mirror

Then wanna smash it with my fist

Try to resist

The anger within

The person staring back at me

Is not who I wanna see

Those eyes

Can't possibly be mine