Hyunjin.

I opened our chat and read the last message he sent. To no surprise, it said 'hellooo'.

If I couldn't stay at jisung's, there was a possibility that i could meet up with Hyunjin. The thing was, I wasn't sure if I could. If I wanted to even.

If I met up with him now, I would have to explain everything, and most likely break his heart.

I looked awful as well. No makeup, nose flushed red, dried tears around my eyes.

Of course I thought about asking Kai as well, as he lives closer to me, but it just felt wrong. If Hyunjin got to know I had been hanging out with Kai before him I'm not sure how he'd react.

I took a deep breath

I had to call Hyunjin, and at least talk to him if we weren't able to meet.

I dialed his number. The screen wasn't blurry anymore, but my eyes still hurt. I was nervous as hell. Of course I was. Everything was based off of luck.

....

My heartbeat raised for each beep. All kinds of thoughts and possibilities popped up in my head.

"Oh, hi Lix"

His voice startled me.

"Hyunjin?" I managed to mutter, accidentally letting out a tiny voice crack

I felt embarrassed

"Yeah, hi Lix" he said again in a soft voice

"What are you doing?» i asked

I feared he was with his parents, or maybe a friend of him. I was not risking anything to happen again.

"I'm just sitting in my bed" he replied

"Alone?"

"Yeah, why?"

"I need your help"

I had no clue how I was supposed to approach the situation to him. Like, what do I even start with? That I was kicked out? That dad knows about us? That we had to meet up?

"Of course, what do you need help with?" he asked

"Im so sorry" i mumbled -"im so, so sorry"

"What?"

"I ruined everything"

"Felix, what's going on?"

I could hear it on his voice, that he was starting to get stressed.

"Can we please meet up?" My voice cracked

I felt ashamed again, crying. The crying made me feel even worse. Knowing that I was so pathetic all I could do was cry. Cry, and call my boyfriend. I was helpless and stupid.

"Right now?" Hyunjin asked

"Yeah"

He stopped for a second

"Of course we can"

I felt relieved, but the tears kept flowing.

-"But how? Where?" He questioned

That was the difficult part. Actually meeting up with him. I didn't really know my way around Landow, and he barely ever came to Hythe. I knew the direction, to a certain level. And I knew about this one water fountain. My dad always drove past it when driving me to school.

There was a sign saying 'Landow' right next to it. Therefore, Hyunjin must've known what place I was talking about.

"There's this.. water fountain" I explained

He hummed in response

-"right next to it there's a sign that says Landow. I'm pretty sure I know the way to get there" I said

"I know which one you're talking about" he responded

"When will you be there?" I asked

"Probably in about fifteen minutes"

I wasn't completely sure how long it'd take me to get there. Most likely around fifteen to twenty minutes. It wasn't too far.

I felt abnormally stressed about meeting up with him. I mean, I was going to see him outside the camp. Around normal, decent people. I looked terrific as well.

"Me too" I said

I looked down at my phone, and noticed my battery percentage was running low. I figured it'd be best to hang up, and wait to message him until I was there.

"Ok, I'll go now. Bye" I said

"Woah woah, wait" he stopped me -"what's going on?"

"My battery percentage is running low" I explained

"Yeah, but like, what's going on?" He asked confusedly

"I'll tell you later" I said

"Oh, ok"

"Bye"

"Bye, I'll call you when i-

I hung up.

I felt like Batman or Spider-Man going on some kind of mission. I had to be serious, and good looking. I couldn't be crying on my way there. People would start making assumptions.

I was meeting Hyunjin in less than half an hour, and there was a high possibility that I could break his heart.

I braced myself before standing up on my feet, feeling like two strands of noodles were holding me up.

I started walking out the driveway, and onto the sidewalk. It was pretty cold outside, but I didn't bother bringing a jacket. I had other stuff to focus on.

As I started wandering down the road, I got colder. My arms were crossed, and I hid my hands in the little corner-cracks between the inside of my elbows.

I wondered what Hyunjin was going to wear. If he typically wore the same stuff as he did in camp, or if he had a completely different style.

My clothes weren't that casual, but it could have been worse.

I found my way around pretty well, and the minutes passed by quickly. I kept on trying to style my hair a little, but the wind protested against me.

I knew I looked like a complete mess, but part of me felt ok about it. He was my boyfriend. He knew how I looked, and he'd seen everything.

__

My heart pounded

If my calculations were right, the water fountain should be right around that corner. I checked the time. Apparently, I had used only 13 minutes to get here.

Fuck

This was the time.

I casually walked around the corner. Yep, there it was. The fountain.

It was beautiful. Lots of pretty trees around, and plenty of benches to sit on.

But no Hyunjin.

I walked over to it, and sat down on one of the benches. I stared down at my phone.

He should be here soon.

I started pondering about what to say and do. I didn't want to shock him, nor hurt his feelings. But I figured that'd be too much to wish for.

I should just tell him right away. Get it over with.

"Felix?" I heard from right behind me