My heart jumped.

"Let go!" I said, trying to pull my arm back

Everybody else were quiet, watching.

"Show me the real messages" He demanded

What the hell? Why was he doing this?

"I just told you what he said!" I insisted

I knew I shouldn't have gotten into defensive mode, but it just happened. He must've heard the call yesterday. He would've never done something like this if he wasn't sure he'd get anything out of it.

I kept trying to pull my hand back.

"What the fuck?!" I belted, causing loud gasps from all around the table.

That was the first time I had sworn in front of family. Swearing was never allowed.

"Felix!" Mom screamed in disbelief

I couldn't care less about swearing in front of everyone else at the moment. Dad was not seeing those messages.

We fought over the phone, and I was turning more and more red by the momemt. I wasn't able to turn it off cause i held it in this specific way. And so I kept trying to face the screen downwards.

"You do not say such things to your father!" dad shouted, before pulling my arm so hard that I had to give up.

The phone was in his hands.

An adrenaline rush caused me to hop out my chair, and run over to him. I reached my hand to try and get my phone for a couple seconds until I figured it was useless. I was only making it worse.

Like, come on. What other reasons would there be for me to act like this? Everyone probably knew by now.

I gave up, and stood still behind him. My heart was pounding like crazy as he opened the chat.

I made eye contact with everyone around the table.

I stared down at my phone as dad read the messages. I had ruined everything. I felt bad for Hyunjin, my family, and actually myself too.

What was I even supposed to do now? My parents would probably give up on me, and I had outed me and Hyunjin's relationship.

"I knew it" dad belted angrily

He threw my phone down on the floor, and pulled his hair in aggression.

I couldn't help it. Tears started running down my cheeks. Both my head and heart were pounding.

All eyes were on me.

My legs gave up on me, and i sunk down to the floor covering my face. It hurt so bad.

The humiliation, shame, guilt. Knowing that I couldn't anything about this. That I was exposed.

I had nothing to say. Nothing to do.

"Leave" dad snapped at me

I wanted to leave. -Disappear, in other words. I lifted my head, and looked over at my phone which had been thrown in front of me. Everything looked blurry.

I grabbed it with weak hands, and pulled it towards me. I turned it on just to check if it still worked. It was thrown pretty hard, but it seemed to work just fine. The light shining from the phone-screen smudged out in my eyesight due to all the tears.

Everyone were quiet, waiting for me to leave, or at least do something.

I didn't bother making eye contact with anyone. I stood up, walked over to the door, put my shoes on and left.

That was it

I just left.

Out the door with no plan, no nothing. All I had was my phone.

I sat down at the doormat and cried. Tear after tear came pouring down. I felt pathetic.

And I cried like that for maybe fifteen, twenty minutes. Thinking about what my family was talking about, what Hyunjin would say after I told him. I was the worst boyfriend ever.

I got my phone up, and turned it on. I rubbed my eyes a bit so that it wouldn't be as blurry.

One new message from Hyunjin.

My heart hurt. I knew it would be something like; 'why are you not replying' or a 'helloo?' but I did not want to open it.

I had to go somewhere. I couldn't stay here the rest of the day.

I called Jisung. I knew he'd let me stay at his house for how long I wanted. He had my back, and I had his.

Three long beeps occurred until he picked up.

"What's up?"

I let out a relieved exhale.

"Jisung, I need your help" I begged

"Woah woah, have you been crying?" He asked after hearing my voice

"Everyone knows about me and Hyunjin" I said

"Who's everyone?"

"Mom, dad, my whole family" I explained

He went quiet for a second

"How did.. they react?"

"I'm kicked out"

I had to be straight forward with him. If not, he wouldn't understand shit.

"Fuck" he mumbled

"I need to stay at urs for a while, please" I said

"I'm not home"

I had to rethink what he just said. He wasn't home? Jisung probably went out his cave like five times a year. And those five times were only to go to Minho's house.

"You're not home?!" I almost yelled

"No, I'm doing this weird family meeting thing. Im at my uncles house" he replied

I didn't know if what to say

"Im sorry man" he apologized

"It's fine"

It wasn't fine. I had nothing to do. Nowhere to go.

"I have to go, I'm sorry. Wish you luck bro" he said before hanging up shortly after.

I sighed

What the fuck was I even supposed to do? I was stranded by my own parents. Who knows when I'd be able to come back home? I felt hopeless.

Not one thought left in my mind, expect Hyunjin.

Wait

Hyunjin.