Hyunjin

Sent 18:14

Hyunjin

Sent 18:40

Hyunjin

Sent 18:45

I felt bad about declining the call, and even worse about not answering his texts. I know I'd be shit scared if he ever did that to me.

Lix

💗💗

Sent 18:47

Hyunjin

Sent 18:47

He shouldn't be sorry. He didn't know, and nothing really happened anyways.

I had just taken a shower. My bedsheets were new, it was raining outside, and I was all cuddled up in my blanket. Everything was perfect, and I was ready to call him.

I took a deep breath before clicking the green call button. My cheeks were already warming up, and my hands were shaky. I don't know why I felt that nervous about calling him. I guess I was just excited.

Three beeps occurred from the phone until he finally connected.

"Hi" he said

His voice sounded the same over the phone. It felt so odd hearing him like this, you know, apart from the camp.

"Hi" I replied

I couldn't help but smile like a dummy.

"You alone?" He asked

"Yeah" I responded

"Cool"

We went quiet for a couple seconds before we started giggling. We didn't really know what to say

"I-" "well" we interrupted eachother

"You go ahead!" He said

"No, you were first" I protested

"No, you were" he said

I sighed

"I was just gonna say, I miss you"

"I miss you too"

My heart fluttered like crazy. I felt really relieved for some reason. Just knowing that we were good, and could talk to eachother like we did at the camp. It was great. I couldn't wait to meet him again.

"How'd dinner go? I'm sorry for calling" he said

"Don't worry about it. It went alright" I replied

"Did they,, ask you any quiestions?"

"Not really"

"Alright, nice"

Again, we went silent for a bit. I had put the phone on speaker, and laid it beside my head.

"I'm sorry for being such a pussy" Hyunjin suddenly said

"What do you mean?"

"I'm just scared to tell them, you know, my parents"

"You don't have to tell them right away, it's alright"

"I know, but I feel like I should"

"Why?" I asked

"I just feel bad for having to hide our relationship " he replied

To be honest I couldn't care less wether he told them today, or in a month. I wanted him to be comfortable. That's all. I knew how hard it is to come out. Applying pressure on him was the thing I least wanted to do.

"You shouldn't feel bad" I said. -"take your time"

He sighed

"I'm gonna go get something to snack on alright? I'll bring u with be down, just be quiet" I said

I had been craving something sweet for a while, and I knew there was candy to find in the kitchen drawer.

I went down the stairs with Hyunjin in my pocket. You couldn't hear him, cause he was muted.

My parents were in the living-room sofa watching tv.

"Hi Felix" mom said

"Hi" I replied. -"I was just gonna get a little snack or something"

"There's lots in the drawer" Dad replied, pointing to where it was

I opened it and looked at all the options. I wanted to ask Hyunjin what I should choose, but obviously my parents would hear.

It'd be a bit suspicious to call a semi-new friend and talk to them all evening. I didn't even do that with Jisung. We only spoke over discord when gaming.

I ended up taking a kinder bar and a little packet of gummy bears. I also filled up a glass with water to bring up with me.

The call with Hyunjin was still ongoing. I smiled down at my phone.

"I'll just go game with Jisung!" I lied to my parents before jumping up the stairs

"Alright, have fun!" I heard my dad shout

I eagerly got my phone up, and told Hyunjin he could unmute.

"Your parents doesn't seem that mad with you" he said

He'd been listening over the phone.

"I know. It's weird" I replied

I went into my room, and got back to the same position as earlier. I felt so cozy. The only thing missing was him.

I opened the packet of gummy bears, and fished out a red one. It fulfilled my cravings pretty quickly.

"I miss your smell" Hyunjin said

"It hasn't even been a day" I responded

"I'm struggling already" He laughed

I hugged my huge teddy bear. I felt so lucky to have him. -Hyunjin, not the bear.

The first time I saw him, I thought he was way out of my league. He was too handsome. I wish i could see my reaction at the time to the recent relationships. I'd be so proud.

The one month felt like a whole year. So much stuff happened. Mostly for the good. The fact I came out this camp with a boyfriend was mind blowing.

"What candy did you end up getting?" He asked

"Gummy bears and kinder chocolate" I replied, popping a green gummy in my mouth

"Sounds decent"

"I love you lots" I said almost impulsively

I could hear him getting shocked over the phone.

«You talking to me?» He asked

«No, im talking to the gummy bears dumbo» i joked. -«of course im talking to you

"I love you lots as well" he said

Somehow, I managed to hear his smile over the phone. It was cute. I wondered if he could hear mine as well.

"I love you the lotstest" I said

He giggled

I popped another gummy bear into my mouth, and moved to the side.

My dad was standing there. In my doorway