-"I just wanted to know how serious we are" I asked

My heart was beating quickly. I did trust him of course, but what would he answer? What if I was a one-time thing, and he'd move on after the camp? I'd be heartbroken

"Hm?" He mumbled in response, still having the toothbrush in his mouth.

"How serious are we?" I asked once again

He looked confused. He could've been acting dumb, just to dodge the question, but I kept trying.

"You know, our relationship" I added

He kept brushing his teeth. He'd been brushing them an abnormal amount of time.

I rinsed my mouth with water to pass some time.

When he finally got done brushing, he rinsed his mouth as well. I started to really believe he was trying to avoid answering,

He cleared his throat.

"Our relationship?" He asked

"Yeah" I replied

"What do you mean?"

"What are we gonna do after the camp?"

"After the camp?"

Once again, he seemed to try and pass time.

"Yeah. Are we going to keep in contact or?" I questioned

"I don't know"

That's when my heart dropped.

He doesn't know? Really?? For me, it was plain obvious that we were going to keep in contact. I couldn't even imagine anything else. And here he is, not even sure?? I felt betrayed.

"What?!" I asked shocked

He got surprised by my sudden mood-change.

"It's not that I don't want to!" He explained

-"it's just.."

His bottom lip started shaking a little.

-"It's gonna be hard" he finished

"I thought you wouldn't care about that" I muttered

I struggled not to break down.

"My parents" He mumbled quietly, with his head facing down.

I sighed

"I- I thought you wouldn't care" I said again.

My heart had dropped to the ground.

"I really like you" he said -"a lot"

My eyesight was getting blurry.

"I really like you too" I replied -"but I thought.."

"Listen, i want to try and keep in contact alright?" He explained

If he really liked me, keeping in contact wouldn't even be for discussion. My parents are probably worse than his when it comes to accepting peoples sexuality. -And I still prioritize our relationship.

"I won't just ghost you alright?" He clarified

"But you're not sure if we can keep in contact?!" I asked him, sounding more aggressive than intended.

His eyes slowly filled up with tears.

"I didn't mean it like that" he muttered in a quiet voice.

I went over to him and let him bury his face in my chest. I didn't mean to come out as aggressive, or super mad, but I wasn't happy. Either way, my intention wasn't to hurt, or scare him.

"What do you mean then?" I asked, calming my voice down.

I knew he didn't want to start an argument with me.

"I don't know if I'll be able to meet up with you all the time" he explained -"my parents would kill me if they found out"

I sighed

"We don't have to meet up all the time" I responded -"but I don't want to hide you"

"Really?" His eyes lit up

I nodded

Of course I didn't want to hide him. Sure, we could pretend to be friends around our parents the first couple weeks, but I had to tell them one time or another.

I wanted me and Lix to become a thing. A real thing. To be honest, i'd been imagining a whole life with this dude already. You could say I was delusional for thinking so far ahead. We were still pretty young, and I'd known him for only a month, but that's what I wanted.

"How would your parents react?" He asked me

Oh wow, I didn't even want to imagine how they'd react.. After all the shit I've heard them say about pride festivals in our area, to them shit-talking gay people. It wouldn't be easy just telling them.

I guess I could ask Lix for some advice as he'd already gone through the fuzz. Not that he succeeded much tho.

"They wouldn't be happy" I replied

"I see" he said

We took a ten second break from talking just to wash our faces. My heart was still beating pretty quickly. I was too scared of loosing him.

"The thing is, my parents think I'll come back as straight" He explained

"They can't be that dumb" I said

I didn't think much before insulting his parents. Fortunately, he didn't seem to care.

"Oh trust me" he said

I put some lip balm on, and he did the same.

We were both done getting ready for bed, so there wasn't any need to stand and talk in the bathroom any longer.

"Let's go to bed" I said

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I put the blanket over us, making sure to cover every part of his body except his face. His head was laying in my right arm.

I stroked his hair.

"We can finish the talk tomorrow if you want" I suggested.

"Yeah" he replied in a soft voice.

I kissed the top of his head, causing him to smile cutely. Even though it was dark, I could see his smile. The outline of his cheeks and eyes gave it away.

He smelled great. He's always smelled like strawberries and bubblegum to me. I figured it must've been his shampoo, cause the smell was the strongest every time he was laying in my arms like this. -And when I buried my nose in his hair.

His looks really complimented the smell too. He looked like the guy to smell like strawberries and bubblegum. He also behaved like that.

"One more thing" I said, interrupting the silence.

"Hm?" He muttered

"Are we even boyfriends?" I asked

I had to ask. I couldn't walk around and ponder about it the rest of my life.

"Are we?" He questioned

"We've never actually discussed it" I said

"I know right" he replied

We both giggled a little. I knew for a fact I was blushing under the darkness.

"Well" I said awkwardly

"Hmm" he mumbled out loud

"Do you want to?" I asked

My heart was beating quickly again, only this time with a happy reason.

"To..?" He added

"Be my boyfriend?" I finished

There it was again. His smile.

"Sure" he responded

I had a boyfriend