The next day started off as nothing super special. Me and Lix made up a plan on how to tell the boys. I also talked to Jeongin again. He asked me when, or if I would do it, and I told him I'd do it tomorrow. He was excited about it. Excited to see me embarrass myself.

Right after the last basketball game of the day, I told the guys that I'd have to meet up tomorrow to talk. They seemed confused at first, but when I mentioned Felix would be there too, their reactions weren't easy to decipher. Some were still confused, and some looked almost disgusted, nor scared. Jeongin on the other hand was smirking.

"Why does Felix have to be there?" Seungmin asked me.

"You'll see tomorrow alright? We just have to talk to you guys" I said

Seungmin and the other boys looked cluelessly at eachother. My heart was racing, but I knew I wasn't alone in this.

"Alright.." Seungmin replied

No more questions were asked before we all went to our rooms. I could hear them whisper on the way, which was understandable. I'd do the same.

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Felix was in the bathroom when I opened the door, but not long after I removed my shoes, he walked out.

"Did you tell them?" He asked me as soon as he stepped out.

He caught me completely off guard.

"Woah woah, put some clothes on first would you?" I laughed

"I've got this towel" he said, pointing to the towel barely covering his lower body part.

«Alright then» i laughed -«I told them we'd have to meet up tomorrow and they were chill about it" I explained

"Really?" He said

"Yeah, well, they didn't say much" I added

"I see. Did you give them any specific time?" He asked me

"No" I replied -"but wouldn't it be best after dinner?"

Felix nodded, and came over to me. He put his arms around my shoulders, giving me the biggest puppy eyes. I freely put my arms around his waist, and kissed his forehead.

"You're beautiful" I mumbled

He smiled

"I'm so glad you ended up being my roommate" he said

I admired him. I couldn't keep my eyes off his gorgeous face -or his body. Of course I still had a little part of me telling myself that It was wrong, but it didn't take over. I was enjoying this in the moment.

"Can I say something really weird right now?" Felix asked me all of a sudden.

I curled my brows

"Sure?» I replied.

"Your dick is so big" he said

My eyes widened. I was not ready for that.

"Wow" I stammered suprised.

He just smiled

"Oh..?" I said, forming a tiny smile on my face.

Butterflies were spreading throughout my whole body. I didn't except him to say that, especially not like this, out of the blue.

"Thank you" I replied

He giggled

"Felt like I had to say it, been thinking about it all day" he admitted

I tilted my head, smiling at him.

"Now go get ready for bed, I'll wait for you here" he said before sitting down on my bed.

I took one last look at him. He was pulling out his pyjamas from his bag.

I brushed my teeth for a while to make sure I'd have a nice breath. I switched to a light grey

t-shirt, and black silky shorts. I also took a quick piss before I was done.

The first thing I saw when walking out the bathroom door was Lix, still topless using my Nintendo DS. He was wearing his pyjamas, but only the pants part. I asked him if there was any reason to why he didn't wear the top, and he just simply shook his head.

I laid down next to him, putting my arm around him. We fell deep asleep after playing on my DS for a couple minutes.

Morning, in cafeteria

I sat down where I usually do, with the boys. The scene was kinda awkward, most likely due to what I said yesterday. We didn't say much for a long time until Jeongin finally broke the silence.

"Hyunjin" he called my name

I turned my head to face him.

"What?" I replied

He smirked.

"I didn't completely understand what you meant yesterday. You know, you said you wanted us to meet up with Felix" He said loudly, so that everyone on the table heard.

I was so mad at him for doing that. Everyone's ears perked up curious to how I'd respond.

"Oh" I started -"it's nothing special, I just had to tell you guys something" I explained

Jeongin curled his brows, expecting more of a detailed answer. Nobody on the table said anything.

I cleared my throat.

"The reason Felix had to be there is-" I paused, accidentally making eye contact with everyone.

-"he told me he wanted to be there" I said

I was targeted with unsure eyes

"When?" Seungmin asked

"After dinner?" I said

He nodded, and turned to look at Jeongin. Jeongin just shrugged, pretending he didn't know.

We kept eating in silence for the rest of breakfast. And I can assure you, all the basket games were one hundred percent targeted against me.

They kept whispering to eachother, staring me down as well.

Dinner was no better. The only good side was that Lix made eye contact with me a couple times. Wording sentences like; 'are you ok?' 'Are you ready?' Etc. It calmed me a little, but to be honest, I was more stressed than ever.

The way all the boys looked at me weirdly, even without knowing what they'd hear only a couple minutes later. I knew they'd hate me, but I wanted to do this. Not only for me, but for Lix. I know he'd appreciate it so much. -Not being alone in this anymore.

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I left dinner five minutes earlier, so I could walk up to Felix's table. I greeted Kai. He seemed cool. Hopefully he liked me too.

I sat down next to Lix, ignoring the stares from the boys.

"You ready?" I asked him

"Yeah" he smiled

I smiled back.

"You look stressed" he said -"you don't have to do this you know"

I shook my head.

"It's ok, I'll get through it" I replied

Kai looked at us with a tiny smile, almost like he didn't believe what was happening in front of him. I wanted to include him in the conversation.

"Do you know what's going on by the way?" I asked him.

"Yeah, he told me" Kai replied, nodding his head towards Lix. -"you're really cool for doing this" he added.

I gave him a half-suppressed laugh.

"Thanks, I felt like it was the right thing to do" I said

I noticed almost everyone in the cafeteria standing up from their tables, including the boys. Dinner was done, it was time.

I looked at Lix.

"Come on" he said, standing up.

"You got this" Kai said, giving me a fist bump after noticing how nervous I was.

Me and Lix walked up to the boys, trying to look as casual as possible.

"Where do y'all wanna talk?" Jeongin asked us.

Changbin and Beomhan glared at us from head to toe. I had a feeling Beomhan would react awfully. I still remember the face he made after he was told about Felix.

"How about we find somewhere private, maybe the forest?" I suggested

My voice was all cracking and weird sounding.

"Alright" Jeongin said

He lead the conversation. The other boys didn't say a word. They were super curious, but completely silent.

We all went into the forest. Not super far, but not too close to the camp either. We were at the same place we were one of the first days. The time we were a whole group, with Lix. I missed those times.

There was a clear stone place where we could sit, without dirt and leaves. I sat down first, and the other boys followed. Felix sat at the corner next to me, and Jeongin on the other side.

"So.." I said